iTs My LiFe...

REHIPTRO

2006-12-26T08:57:00.000+08:00

this is when we attended this dinner and dance by joy joy de school... named REHIPTRO in which the theme is RETRO. hahas...
black and white pic... too bad mz is not in it... hahas...
me! in the classic black dress white polka dots hahas... cher's no dots became my attire for the night! =)
at the place itself! with joy and jia jin and xin yu! =D
jiajin look so diff here right... she always manages to stun me when ever we see her... hahas...

horoscope power

2006-12-12T09:01:00.000+08:00

been not blogging for long... one reason is no time... sorry guys... another reason is i bu shuai blog lah... cos i have the knowledge that some tom dick harry can just enter here and read all my thoughts...

then what for i set a password "protected" blog to just share thought with my friends or to talk to them? haiz...

mui horoscope for the day:

Dear rain lee,
Here is your horoscope for
Tuesday, December 12:

You have a great need to be of service to others, but you can't do so at the expense of all your resources. It's time to find a happy medium between making others happy and keeping your own batteries charged.

ain this so very true? i always go to where im needed just so people wun suffer so much... bee says she worries for me cos i care too much about others... but at least this is the part where she knows i do not change...

sometimes i wonder whether izzit very overwhelming for her to come back and realise that everybody has changed so much... for me... i've been there through all the changes yet i still kinda cannot take it that well, seriously...

over these two years, i matured alot from the sec school me... still very immature but really i learn alot more, i learn and adjusted myself to some things classrooms do not prepare you for. cannot really say i dislike or like the way i am now, but i still miss the old days.

STUDIES
nth now, just come school everyday... do abit stuffs here and there and hang out with the girls or just sleep, that's all... peiwen and me now kinda not bad already lah, tho sometimes she and grace also close till push me aside but other than that, all is fine...

FRIENDS
recently just went mz place... i think it should be 2 days after auntie's bdae... the girls were all there yet i wasnt... kinda upset about it but i had no choice... after that when i oversleep my mrt stop and ended in tanah merah, i went mz house instead...

actually i kinda feel lonely, now that all of them are in tampines... on the mrt stop now, i drop off at bedok alone, i wait for bus at bedok inter alone... its not really convenient to meet at bedok inter with the girl who lives ard 10mins from inter, just as me who lives 7mins away from the interchange...

loneliness actually does not come from being alone. it comes from being alone, when you know you could have had someone by your side. ain this true? its really not easy getting that comfortable companionship, especially when people you care about are always so busy...

and i dunno whats wrong with me... i just dont want to get hurt again but i dont seem to be able to stick to my DONTS for not getting hurt. cos i called cher about when she's coming and stuffs. having given in and called her, i feel so irritated at myself that i attituded her... zzz... so we ended up quarreling...

but i also wanna prove, the things they always say, that she is dependent on me and stuffs, is bullshit... nobody is indispensible... for all the fanciful talks and advices people give whenever we quarrel, its all CRAP. she can just jolly well drop me off her world that easily. so of cos i gotta take the cue to keep the game going...

but im also really glad that bee is back... she always make me feel not so alone... cos i know no matter what she really understands me... that day when we went shoppingm, we were chatting, me asking her views on somethings and she updating me about her life...

she said all the everything i wanted to hear, all kinda based on last time reception and understangin... but it all feels so familiar... because no matter how much i change on the outside, my inside will never change... inside, im still me, no matter how much better i have trained and geared myself up for work or entertaining...

its just so comforting to know that bee will always care about me in the way i care for her and not let me down... thanks alot bee... on the other hand, i am kinda sad that im abit drifting apart with joy, because now we have much much lesser contact...

she's also been a very busy girl, in school stuffs, cca commitments and busy in bliss, hahas... hope she will always remain this happy... im so looking forward to tommorrow's shopping with her... i actually applied leave for it you know... 21 hrs of flexi leave to be applied, spread over a period of 10 weeks... >_<

WORK
im now arthur's god daughter... became quite some time ago le... but it was long after he appointed me to be trained as VIP server... im still damn stressed and sometimes when he addresses me arh girl in front of everyone i feel kinda paiseh but also happy at the same time...

but i also do not know what i ahve i done to deserve all this... everyone thinks i appear so close with him and that we are like so good with each other... him doting on me is so obvious but the thing is, i feel that everything is travelling at too fast a speed...

its like im caught in the current and cannot control things nor have tiome to see whats in front of me and behind me anymore...things just happen and go... so far i cried twice... its like people there, black jackets and stuffs, sometimes they really make me feel like im useless without huihui jie...

its not that i learn very slow or what, its just that im not trained...everyone see me VIP server, they envy me and say i must have worked very long and stuff... but no, i wasnt trained, din work long and im suddenly expected to be miss smarty pants and know it all... zzz...

anyway, i set up a new blog already... under construction, now, i gtg... so... TO BE CONTINUED

_OPH V8 SHIN-go round_

2006-12-05T11:08:00.000+08:00

my beloved ones, so long since i've blogged... have just so much to say yet i cant find time to tell you guys... missed you all... thanks for not giving up on my blog just yet, lols... its gonna be a long entry, hence im setting a in a glance for my really busy darlings...

IN A GLANCE

friday
-worked v8
-felt overworked
-people there getting more selfish
-soe treats me differently
-new gal yun mei gets soe's attention

saturday
-went shopping with bee
-enjoyed it very much
-work at OPH gets me obssessed with it
-shock of being told that someone cares (ask me for more details)

sunday
-alot new stuffs within shin
-im rusty, got blamed for pple's mistakes
-ed was hot and cold
-sher remains nice to me, i miss her so...
-bee came n worked at OPH (her first job)

monday
-worked a lousy night
-worked normal tables
-spilled and dropped stuffs
-served bloody cheena pple, irritatingly choiced...zzz...
-saw huihui, missed her so...
-im getting so damn bloody reliant i hate myself

FRIDAY (01/12)

went to sch... as usual loh... from 8.30am to 6pm loh... then after that went v8 work... found myself working weekends for them again i guess... but its always shit work lah... cos fridays are VERY busy days....and they happen to be very SHORT handed...

so even if i reach early, i also cannot eat, cos i just hafta go out and help... cos there are like 2 new people out there, on a friday night with a short handed situation... lols... so i find myself doing two or three people stuffs...

super irritating... i feel so overworked... but at least this is something i can always handle with confidence so at least its not so bad... hahas...anyway, guess the people there getting more and more inconsiderate... like they dun really leave food behind for me...zzz...

SATURDAY (02/12)

meet up with bee in the morning till late noon... then worked at OPH. hahas... meaning banquets lah... hahas...
went marina square with bee... forgotten to tell her that its gonna be cold there... sorrie girl... and i promise to make time out for her... been not meeting her for too long too long le...

tho the closeness is there, i shall not take it for granted...at least haiz, i know i can dote on her with all my heart... unlike someone who sometimes i wanna be like the past and dote but i hafta hold back, cos i just dont wanna be hurt again... theres just so many ways a person can get hurt...

anyway, shopping there with bee was nice, tho she din manage to catch her soya ice cream, hahas... i only wished i have had more money with me then, so that we both din hafta hold back muich on anything... but we did find alot things to buy... but since it did not go with her prom... hahas... we din buy...

im still rather proud of myself for not spending on any shopping stuffs anyway... hahas... and i took a lot of pictures... bee! all the best to your prom yea? and i kinda really missed joy... long time like never contact with her le...sad to say... this days i always have had contact with bo liao people...

actually im turning lazee, i just respond when msged and spoken to... so this days are just all the bo liao guys contacting me... not to hao lian or what... but i really feel kinda no life... what i want is seriously not all this... my passion for working is so great i think i sux cos i cant control myself...

i lunge myself so deep in i cant see anything else anymore... the worst thing is that there is no one to hold me back... you know what... i always tell myself... what for i care about this about that? because i feel that no one else cares... its like im single, im free to be anything and who cares if im like overworking, if im nt so ladylike or what...

i ask the same questions so many times already... why would people even like a girl like me? for sleeping she can lose all erm posture and ladylike-ness, if i have had any to start off with... and i think i wanna cut down on my eating.,.. its scary now how my body can react tand show all the extra food i have been eating... i scare myself.

and suddenly someone tells me he cares, giving me the shock of the day...

SUNDAY (03/12)

worked shin from 12 till 5... supposed to start at 10 but i was just too tired to wake early and i just thought i should give myself a break... really gonna break down soon... in terms of health or mentally i dont know. its not really the running about so many places that makes me sick... its all the thinking and actions i have to do and think that makes me sick and tired i guess...hahas...

there were alot of new things to be updated... they changed menus, changed table numbers, changed POS system functions and there were a few more new people, good for ed who managed to hire more new people also... but sadly, all foreigners...

and ed framed me for a mistake others make... and i corrected mistakes for others, with the fear of being accused of it as my own... pathetic isnt it... this moment ed says he misses me and the other moment he blames me for others' mistakes... wth... haiz... was so sad and disappointed...

the nmore this place upsets me, the more unwilling i will be, to work. even tho there will be people there who treats me not bad... but it just pales in comparison to the other places... ed, do u really care about your branches so much...? how i wonder...

after that went OPH work nights...was backstabbed and pushed aboput ard by ALOT black jackets... i hate ex... bloody hell... damn sissy, pick on a girl like me who has to take on all the stress of serving the VIP table, meaning the bride and groom table one by one on my own...

please rmb i only worked there for a month or so only... and i've worked VIPs so far and only twice of normal tables to date... BJ (black jacket) 1 says this, BJ 2 says that and now, who am i supposed to listen to? and do 2 BJs hafta quarrel in front of me? wth... zzz...

working there sure is tiring man... mentally especially and sometimes the people there de temper just sucks...

VIP TABLE (MAIN TABLE) NORMAL TABLES
60 plates 60 plates
30 underliners 30 underliners
20 spoons 20 spoons
8 sets of serving gear 12 sets of serving gear
1 ladle 1 ladle
1 tea pot 7-9 napkins
1 tea pot heater 1 white napkin
2 candles 5 glass jugs
7-9 green napkins 1 or 2 metal jugs
1 white napkin 5 small trays
2 metal jugs 3 oblong trays
2 glass jugs
2 big trays
2 small trays
1 red wine

AND! be surprised! BEE CAME TO WORK WITH ME. her partner saisd she did well, but i know its very tough lah, not everyone can tahan work banquets de... so i understand her working once and not wanting to come again le... hahas...

she said arthur talk cocky, which i agree with all my heart lols... but after work he really super nice to me lah... hahas... to know more details can chat with me for it... far too private for a blog... lols...

MONDAY (04/12)

worked OPH after school... kinda half rushed there and found myself there at half an hour before seven and slowly took my time in preparing... came out and realised roll call was over... anyway, was assigned to one person two tables... damn sway de thing is i never have had experience with normal tables enough and i spilled while clearing stuffs ytd... siann...

cos i gt sch and jiaxi hols ma so i GOTTA arrive late and so was assigned normal tables and jiaxi gotta be teamed with my fav huihui jie jie... the VIP pro pro... lols... she was the one who taught me, as well as jiaxi loh... i really missed her, whenever i got bullied or pushed ard... so happened that sometimes those that dote on me nv work, i DIE...

well, at least so far, already found people who dote on me le, but equally so it is for jiaxi... and she hasnt offended ex... i see him work i siann diao... beginning thought he quite nice de... bloody hell... must hope hope hope he goes back to working restuarant...

you can never know how things can go after work... hahas...am i wrong to wanna share cab and wait time for supper cos i dun wanna rush for last train? am i really after saving the cab money but also because i wanted to have time with the seniors? hahas... >_<

btw, few days agio i cun rmb when, i chatted with smartie back again... and shin has this girl same name as him xia... whereas v8 now got new guy named joey also... talk about haunting memories... and OPH has this guy that resembles joey pattern... o hell... and his 18, studying in np... bee gt see him before... she asked...

why do you go for tall guys? it juts happened by chance can? and it was funny and scary... when they (arthur and guys) pointed out say i liked him, all cos of his shirt... i said... "wo xi huan ni de yi fu!" meaning " i like your shirt" and they said i like him... cos inside the phrase contains "wo xi huan ni" meaning "i like you" dots...

but he really very nice.. like when i cannot handle and there was this day when he wore a BJ, he helped me, i responded or replied something... then he say i act cute... then i say cute anot, lols... he looked at me in the eyes and then i turned away (act shy) cos i think he gonna say something nasty....

and know what ma? after sometime he says, "not bad lah, hai ting cute de lah" and walked away... "
meaning, not bad lah, still quite cute loh" and he asked why i turn my head away xia... LOLS. then i say is cos i expected something nasty... he say no lah, "mei you lah and walked back to his duties... AWWWW, LOLS"

hmmm, i know bee thinks and feels the guys talk and think dirty and ain afraid to show it...its her first time encountering such people... i met before so i know... but somehow i feel safe with them, cos i know they are all just talk, for people like david, when he comes up close...

he doesnt say anything, but that doesnt mean he doesn notice or observes... sickening... im so scared of him now... he must thinkk im ungrateful since he brought me in to work and now im like running away from him... whatever lah... since mui arh pa ensures that he wun do anything with him ard...

so many questions to ask, so many mixed up feelings...haiz...

2006-12-01T16:45:00.000+08:00

WEDNESDAY

wed worked 7-10 for v8 cafe...was quite alright... had food to eat cos daniel saved for me... got soup to drink cos auntie mary saved for me... but the thing is, when i arrived, cannot eat... because it was busy at a okie level but there were 3 newcomers on ground...

food gets stuck and everything... everyone looked so stressed... and i felt like soe din like me or something already xia... i wonder why leh... zzz... and henry off that day so kinda abit sian... abit only... dont think so much...

on way to mrt station, met up with daniel... sat down there and talked, missed alot of trains... o my...i really missed talking like this... we talked about alot of things, updated each other, just like the old days... think now v8 all okie already....

daniel prob, ZQ is still a prob but at least we can WORK normally... henry is half half lah... but eventually he will understand we are like brither ans sister... which is for my case...anyway, he also going back to study soon le, in malaysia... after he makes enough money here so yea... hahas...

i wonder whether will i get another pay rise....

THURSDAY

meet up with bee, lynn and cher, go PS eat... can guess is cartel le right... damn, im kinda seriously broke and here i am, eating restaurants stuffs... i cant wait to get my pay... so that i can pay off my accumulating debts... shit man... since when i owe so many people so much money.... and since when did so many people owe me money and not pay... zzz...

anyway, it was a nice meeting,... and there was this despo girl keep asking me to help her with her projects... im still CONSIDERING... hey despo girl, you reading THIS? hahas... and beez got her dress already... so happy for her... was still cracking my brains of where to go... bee i look forward to shopping with u on saturday...

TO BE CONTINUED

monday, tuesday, wednesday

2006-11-29T10:57:00.000+08:00

MONDAY

came to school very unwillingly... because... it is the first day of TEP. 10 weeks of prison sentence, serving from 8.30am to 6pm daily. got give me things do still never mind... ask me come school and slack leh... i'd rather sleep loh...

and the worst thing is, govt slow... haven activate our cards... make us hard to enter the room loh... and opther teams all got things to do and can have senior briefiong them on what to do, we dont have. because team 4 was born just this semester, cos this semester got more students than usual so we are a NEW group...

and the people in my group so damn timid de... dun dare go out and eat or what de... super boring... hahas... lucky still gt msn... can pei me...

TUESDAY

tues had training at orchard parade hotel, banquet training... alot people turned up... i was late cos sch dismisses at 6pm...

WEDNESDAY

2006-11-28T10:25:00.000+08:00

THURSDAY

went out with my girls... going along lynn's wishes, we went PS eat... cos lynn wanted to show bee HER cute Edward which i din think he was cute... but well, in those days, nobody thought J was cute too... but at least i think his still better than Edward in the looks department cos at least he doesnt look beng... hahas...

but lynn and me taste very different lah, so also cannot direct comparison... hahas... bee is pro, she has the ability to get thinner again... jialat xia... and with attachment starting, how do i ever have the time to meet her out and really fatten her up? im sorry, beez...

anyway, the day was quite nice loh... anyway, kinda made up with cher already but things will never be the same again with the girl who doesnt apologise and the girl who gets hurt too many times... the worst thing of all is that, thew proven fact is that im no longer needed or as indispensible...

see le then realised i miss mz and beez as much... hahas... dumb jiajin supposed to come but i guess she died and MIA-ed... for the dunno how many-th time... ZZZ! and i realised my camera doesnt have flash... gotta buy external flash or try something funny... lols...

FRIDAY

worked shin... 2-11pm... was quite happy that day cos all the fun and nice people worked... but i was not really on good terms with people with authority... hahas... as in the assistant managers and bosses... of all people i only like kelvin... cos he very smiley and also greet people with respect and courtesy... he never talks in a proud manner also...

anyway, missed v8... guess thats where my heart is eventually... cos i will always long ffor the fact that people there dote on me...

SATURDAY

worked v8 in the morning and worked banquet at night... worked at v8 till 3pm only... ate chicken baked rice there, shopped around a little... called mz, wanting to talk to her and she said she was in bugis... so after ther friends left her, we meet... and i bought a third pair of court shoes from seiyu...

but who knows, when i trial it with shin bottoms, it was a failure... cos can tell that they are slip ins. hahas... the bottoms not baggy nor loose enough to cover... and i tell myself i want new formal dresses for banquets and also new sport shoes from Giordano for working at v8! hahas... PAYDAY HURRY COME ARH!

banquet was rather nice, tho being nice, i stood out abit too much and felt abit left out.... but told you all le, new work place, its always the guys that accept you first, then you see whether you are lucky enough to be able to join the girls and bitch around... as in gossip around lah...

i dun mind just hanging out with guys but being a girl, its better if i hang around with the girls and strive goodily well with the guys, you get what i mean... hahas... thats why i always tell anyone, whn enter a new work place, pacify the girls first cos the guys are easy people to get with... lols... cos girls hang in clicks, guys hang out with practically anybody... hahas...

and i worked for VIP table on my own, without huihui leh...hahas... it was a wedding banquet again... hahas... and was super wishing i do not have to serve the normal tables in any instance, cos i already got used to serving VIPs le... hahas...

went to watch movie after work.. damn tiring and i reached home at 5 plus... watched the movie, "battle of wits" dont tell anyone but i fell asleep halfway... and got weoken up by huge explosion... zzz... even tho i said abot waking me if i sleep... i pushed Arthur away when he tried to wake me, asked him not to disturb... lols...

(arthur is the operation manager, the guy i get my money from after work and spend it away with... zz... the 36yr old uncle...who lied to me abt having a shot gun 19yr old son... and he picked the wrong guy to lie, cos he far better looking than his "son" already and the age do not match... hahas...)

SUNDAY

today was the supposedly temple banquet that im supposed to work at for stewart and meet brandon... but somehow, it got cancelled... hahas... hence i worked for tung lok banquet again loh... hahas... but this time, not good... i gotta work with JULIAN, normal tables.... omigosh... machiam like lightning strike me lah... i know it will not be easy de loh...

cos he liek to scold me dumb in the BAd mannered way... and i know nuts about working normal tables... cos for VIP is we portion every dish and serve... and there are other things to take note andf worry about... but i also enjoy the previlges of working VIP tables liao loh...

cos all the black jackets will come and help here help there cos thats what they are for, you know... hahas... black jackets are the captains... hahas... so in the end, half heartedly and super unwillingly, asked julian for things to do and everything loh... dumb! he never explain, really just ask me do... zzz...

P.S. julian is a dark tanned skinny 15 yr old who has worked for half a yr there and is bad mannered, smokes and is proud... zzz...but sometimes he can talk fun too lah, i wun like totally dicriminate against him butm, he is rather annoying you know... with that character of his...

i made a mistake in distributing bowls... i distribute to the guests as their personal bowls instead of putting it on lady "susan"... (lady susan is what you call the spinning plate on wedding banquet tables, susan is pronounced as susan but its not spelled as such btw...)

and upon realising my mistake, julian got super angry and scolded me afterwards for being such a PIG. ARGH... almost wanted to quit lah, i know its my mistake but i ain old bird leh, uncle... zzz... huihui not ard also cos she working VIP... poor me... where have all the good people gone to...

and there was this guy thats quite lame, its like everytime i work, i see new people... i wonder how long must it take for me to have seen all their staffs... hahas... i was carrying heavy things at some time, then i needed someon to help me open the door... this guy stood in front of the door, made the gesture to open, then he stopped and ask, " whats your name, how old are you, got bf anot? "

i was like diao diao diao three lines three lines swear drop sweat drop... and i replied... i only wanted you to open the door for me... hahas... and so i went out loh... i guess if he wanted to know all this, ask in a better way and not when people work and sweat outside lah, mr CHINA black jacket... zzz...

afterwards, was damn tired already... AND... went for supper just to share cab also... guess mummy must be feeling so sad... ot seeing me reach home before she has to go sleep... but i kinda have no choice... banquets dun end early and i dont even have time to catch last train or what... too late to even catch also... zzz...

TO BE CONTINUED

PSA scenery

2006-11-25T03:15:00.000+08:00

what you see is what you get

2006-11-25T03:09:00.000+08:00

it says on the cup, "there are many kinds of love, one of them is tolerance."
"ai you hen duo zhong, qi zhong zhi yi jiao bao rong." PSA lunch banquet... this shows their menu, the dessert, tea cup, water glass...
the day i was forced to wear skirt... hahas...
wedding banquet de table... bride n groom table... the chairs got rose de leh! so mei can... the table napkin holder even more nice lah! its a flower with a swirling stem like that of a straw... cool!

PS PS PS

2006-11-25T03:03:00.000+08:00

what i ate for dinner... the fried rice at PS food court is seriously nice... hahas...

see what i mean? hahas...
how cute the way the lightsigns outstand anything else... lols...
the dessert i ate at cartel... and their service seriously CMI... tho cher n lynn were nuts abt one guy each there... hahas...

furniture shop classics

2006-11-25T03:00:00.000+08:00

painting only, you will think right? nope, is OIL PAINTING. got diff de, got the different layers of paint de... hahas...
there i show you the layers... can tell already ma? hahas...

range of flowers for sale just below the painting... all were rushed shots... cos i did not know whether cams were allowed inside shop... oops... >_<

candid shots meant 2b ugly

2006-11-25T02:56:00.000+08:00

peiwen, huiyu, yi yong and me were in school canteen, food junction, aka FJ. peiwen gt bored and started taking candid ugly shots of huiyu as revenge, cos huiyu deleted the those oeiwen took last time after ur formal role play... hahas...

im innocent but i got caught also... zzz... i swear i din know she was taking... hahas...
huiyu.... abit not in time to dodge... hahas... blurry!
yi yong de sha xiao...
there? i said i din noe already... also dunno what i trying to do BUT my eyes were slits! dammit... how sad lah... ='(

PS gathering trip

2006-11-25T02:52:00.000+08:00

cher in background, beez and lynn in front! focus? duh, the xmas "trees" lah!
ain the lights nice? i wonder why mui cam no flash de... zzz... external flash for offer anyone?
lynn, cher, beez, me, joy behind... poor gal gt hidden... hahas...
tink this pic is nicer cos can see everyone liao... but i see pple acting cute! alamak whole body gets uncomfotable liaoooo.... lols...

BUGIS xmas lights

2006-11-22T01:41:00.000+08:00

night time lights! yue ye yue mei li! do u agree? hahas ....
e pic e boss insisted on taking for me when he saw me and auntie mary taking pics... -.-''' see e forced SMILE? hahahas
day time lights! erm see any lights ma? hehehe...
somehow... me and auntie mary blocked all the lights... lols...

zi lian kuang!!!

2006-11-22T01:31:00.000+08:00

S$1000000 Question: what do normal people do when they buy a new camera?
S$1000000 Answer: they start taking pics of themselves... hahahahas...
was so surprised my red highlights from a millenium ago showed up! hahahas...
did u notice?
well, this is not MY room... hahas...

braces vs retainer

2006-11-22T00:23:00.000+08:00

recntly been quite busy with sleeping and stuffs.... anyway, i received a mega sized complaint from some Ms Chua that my blog is all words and no pics.... it isnt that i dont have, just that i dont have time to load it you know... anyway, im reader friendly, so i shall post some pics ba... hahahahahahas...

MONDAY

went sch for proj... had dental in morning. was late for project meeting. was made to write out the whole script for another project as a result, or so i think... and i took out my braces liao... but had to wear retainers... dammit... cant speak as well as braces xia...

braces felt better than this man... like back to the teeth mould days... super terrible... tho it looks like nothing on the surface... and before eating must remove, after eating must put back... morning must brush it, night must wash it... zzz... machiam denture xia... zzz...

WEDNESDAY

told mummy i need reach school by 11 or 12. she mistook it as wake me by 11 or 12... obviously, got hated by group members but they kinda diam diam cos the script was all written by me... do i ahve a choice... sent them the scriot then they nv say anything also...

i mean also me sway to leave 2hrs away from school you know... hahas... today went dental, return home, watched bleach, went for work... ate chicken rice! good auntie mary! that day said i wanna eat it and she cooked it since she knew i today coming... hahas...

and shawn actually bought me bubble tea, his treat leh! lols... i just say say de... *innocent look*
hahahahahahahas... but today stoopid henry attitude me xia... but i think is cos he unhappy cafe cut his OT hours lah... cos full timer OT hor, even more than 1.5 de leh...

kinda looking forward to tml yet dread tml... haiz... anyway, i recently fell in love with this song... not a new one, but a nice one... here are the lyrics...

HOME
MICHAEL BUBLE

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Babe I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
'Cause I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
That this is not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m doneI gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XOB03kAFLr0
this is the video... hahas...

UTADA HIKARU
HEAR ME CRY (FINAL FANTASY)

You couldn't say
Needed someone new
You actually thought
Deep inside I knew

Can you tell me how can you say
Why this should suffice
You passed me by
And your heart's as cold as ice
(You passed me by)

Did you see me cry
(Did you ask yourself why)
Did you see me cry
(Did you ask yourself how)
Can you hear me cry
(Did you ask yourself)
Will we ever grow apart

You couldn't say
Needed someone new
And you actually thought
Deep inside I knew

I wonder where we will go
Will we be the same
(You passed me by)
I laugh inside I think of you
And the love we made
(You passed me by)

Tell me why this should suffice
I hold you through the night
Now will I let it go
Soon I'll let it go

Can you hear me cry
(Will you ask yourself why)
Can you hear me cry
(Will you ask yourself how)
Can you hear me cry
(Will you ask yourself)
Will we ever grow apart

You, I'll stand by your side
I'll be there for you
(You passed me by)
You, I'll stand by your side
Please just do me right
(You passed me by)

You, I'll stand by your side
I'll be there for you

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mtDrYIt4us4
this is the video for this song... nice... i like... tho v sad de melody... haiz...

desire to soar, lack of wings

2006-11-19T23:34:00.000+08:00

i have a desire to soar up, far and high. but i also do realise i lack wings.

THURSDAY

on thursday, i was supposed to meet cher after school and go shop all the items we yearned like mad. i was so looking forward to thursday bcos i was really itching to shop and needed the items urgently. know what? she left her phone at home, after msging me saying she had to work. now even a sorry except a "sian" inside her msg as an "apology."

i almost scolded mz mum when she picked up the phone, thinking its her. lucky i din cos auntie did not deserve it. i called cartel, thinking that i should go down and scold her, cos i was really damn angry. why did she have to do this to me? if wanna work, cant i work too?

hello? i got 3 places to work at leh... and each is higher earning? if i were not to work bcos i dated her and she put me plane cos she went to work and left me stranded like a mega mega idiot, i think i lost out more right. wth. i guess thats what frens like her are for.

saw loti on msn and complained and she offered to pei me, tho her work ends at 6pm she must be rather tired. its all abt effort, cant you see? i dont even get a call from the person who stood me up cos i dont think she been working continuosly for 2 days without going home, without access to her phone.

hence, im pretty sure she jolly well thinks im dead. and i need to do my projects but i do not have a thumbdrive to use. cos i lend her mine and its not an extra anyway. am i dumb or nuts. i must be retarded.i really do not know what to do already. loti says she's dependent on me.

but if thats really the case, why doesnt she need to at least call me once every two days? i might be dead but she doesnt know, unless mz or who tells her! hahas... even mz also sensed im unhappy and she's the cause of it. great. i cant imagine how she passes her day without thinking or recalling anything to do with me cos i cant and i hate myself for that.

anyway, enough about people who live in this world to hurt me when i just wanted to be there for them. so anyway, lynn and loti and me went tamp, eat Hans and shopped around for all we needed. thanks girls. din noe what would i have done without you girls... cos i really needed to get mui top... =D

i need to get mui camera and it was not bought as promised. ha, tell me why man. so anyway, i decided to postpone buying it for as long as possible. but im gonna get it before mid dec anyway, so as to capture all the lovely images! all the gatherings! haiz...

FRIDAY

went back school to write out script for tml's role play ica. it was tiring cos i did not have enough sleep, rushing projects and of cos, watching Bleach in between... im officially hooked, all thanks to mui brother. he siao eh, he watched until 100 plus episodes already and passed on the disease to ME. poor me...

Bleach is really touching for all the stories in the episodes... as far as i rmb, i watched till episode 11 already and for all the episodes when a story comes to an end after explaining the story of a Hollow, mui tissue box would be halved... hahas...

this anime (as corrected by miss joey) is about shinigamis referred as soul reapers in the anime, destroying Hollows and the story of the Hollows and the story of those they harmed. Hollows are souls with the chain of Faith connecting their chest to the human world broken, causing them to become monsters having no love and only thinks of devouring other souls de souls.

Hollows are much stronger than souls, are invisible, unless to people who high level of spritual senses and have their faces hidden behind a ghastly white, hard skull mask. they come in alot shapes and sizes, powers and tricks up their slevee. after saying so much, i guess its worth a watch ain it? hahahahas...

TODAY after script writing and planning, i went to work for David. he owns the Club Chinosis at Orchard Parade Hotel. its a very posh place and the restaurant functions on the fusion of chinese and western culture and settings. cool. you should have seen their glasses, super BIG can. hahas...

wore their unifrom and went onto the bus for sending us to the Istana. working the function in which George Bush comes for dinner you see. damn impressive de saying wor... hahas... but you know what? waited outside the security check point for abt an hour before we can go in for they have not affirm our identities... damn strict xia...

the place is very big, got slope, and alot gardens all around. there were alot of armed guards around. but i would not have noticed the guns if David had not pointed them out for me. lols... to satisfy your curiousity, David is a 24yr old guy, slightly on the short side but super fit if you get what i mean (the kinda guy thats super capable of bear hugs lah i should say) and the best i want from him, is his rosy cheeks.

wth, red by nature... if it were mine, i would not require blusher anymore, lols... but i recently also haven been applying it lah, cos i think its kinda unnatural... hahas... if only i dont have dark eye rings! then i would not need to put on any make up at all and not scare others while feeling super inferior... sad le lah... sadded...

anyway, back to topic... everyone seems so experienced! im so green, lols... and a guy named "i din catch his name, he said suan le so i call him suan le" guessed im 19! what audacity! im only 18, you idiot...
and his 15 lah... i hate having younger peeps ard me can... make me feel so old...

if not then i always mix around with uncles... make me feel so despo... but i do know they are the ones who can show me things and teach me stuffs that guys our age cant. David says he wants me to see and learn, and then work for him... Brandon works for Stewart, the guy working for an agency...

David works for his boss, the big boss of Tung Lok company... you know Tung Lok ma? "tong le ji tuan"... 20 branches internationally... and i saw all their bosses today! hahahahahas... and i saw Wu Chuo Dong also! alamak... hahas... and his wife, George Bush and alot of big shots and ang mohs... hahas...

machiam like movei like that! before movie, they stand in an area, talking, conversating with each other... while i serve them, wine and juices in glasses on trays, erm simply put, cocktail party like that lah... hahas... then after which they dine a 5 course dinner, lasting around 45 mins cos must minus the 15 mins speech, in a room with live band playing and singer singing while struming the guitar independently... cool!

it was really an eye opener for me... first time leh... and this guy that works in the restaurant while calefaring tonight (the 15yr old guy) keep scolding me stoopid! walau eh... a 15yr old scold a 18yr old... where can like that de... angry xia... as in the qi gei way lah cos we squabbling, not quarreling... if you get what i mean...

anyway, realised how lousy i was lah... guess this industry everyone started out earlier den me... very sian... he worked high class straight while i had to work my way up... like from cafe, to restaurant and then finally something more in touch with the hospitality sector... hmmm...
better buck up... but im so thankful i get to learn so many things.. =D and im scared i might really be getting a little ***** lah... hahas... or maybe its just that all the ****** seem so much better ba... and they really are i guess...

MISTAKES MADE
1. carried too many glasses on my cocktail tray
(heavy and no need for that)

2. made too much noise
(shoes and arranging of cutlery)

3. asking guests to be seated before BIG shots came in
(i was asked to ask if you get what i mean)

4. crossed over guest when distributing cutlery
(ain supposed to do that)

5. gave ladies n gentlemen cutlery by status
(wastes time and is not necessary)

THINGS LEARNT
1.always serve from guests' right

2.cocktail is for show, a few glasses will do

3.do not cross over guest when distributing cutlery

4.food should be served, lowest ladies, higher ladies, lowest gentlemen, higher gentlemen, highest lady, highest boss. (high low in terms of rank or status)

5.after asking whether guests wans chinese tea, one shld take off the cover and clear, OR just place the cover against the tea cup stand. (this is so that the person pouring tea knows who wants tea.)

SATURDAY

went shopping at J8 with joy... after nt seeing her for the whole of her exam week... hahas... i waited one hr... cos i arrived too early and she reached abit late.... hahas... super long journey de 53 bus! lols...

i walked ard... saw a few things that i want n bought it when she came... hahas... and! we were wearing the same shirt (planned) and bag(unplanned)!!

we ate at ajisen... hmmm... J8 ajisen sucks... food wise, okie okie only... service wise, cannot make it... chefs, uncles... service staff, kinda dao... guys okie okie, gals cannot make it... lols...

work at night was nt good... upon reaching tio gan liao... siann... cos of schedule thingy... cos R din noe i going beforehand tho boss ed knew... but e main point to me is that you lack people i come despite anything, ain that gd enuff already?

whats with the damn schedule fuss? actually i do not believe in the dividing zone way of handling the place... cos the places, gets filled up part by part, correct. but when we do rounds, we walk ard. not abt e same zone... zzz...

and when you walk past and customers call, you hafta serve de what... so whats with the allocating zone thingy...? its better to stick to positions like sashimi collar, grill collar, kitchen collar, ordertakers, setters and clearers, tea refillers, private room handlers... by tasks, rather than area...

anyway, in the beginning was so pissed off that i almost quitted on the spot... bcos you can say i dont work good enough but you cannot be biased against me. cos if thats e case, i wun even wanna do anything abt it loh... and what can i do?

well, anyway, if you not gonna dote on me, its fine. im not a magnet anyway but at least treat me right for my effort or what... now e old birds call me muscle woman, the guys call me queen of clearing...

i reply saying, i do not have good looks, i am not cute, hence the only thing i can do is to smile as often and do more than others to prove my worth... cos we cant deny having gd looks or being cute paves a smoother way ain it? and dun call me muscle woman... very nan ting leh... lols...

and our mr charming changed targets already... im sick of changes. CHANGES SUCKS BIG TIME. dunno what other words to express how i feel le... argh.

and i must learn that work is work... colleagues are colleagues, boss is boss and i must not expect too much of either... haiz... learn learn learn, you idiot. bakado.

SUNDAY

work today at v8 was nice... ytd talked ABIT to boss ed and we better alrdy... but well... nv as good as before for sure but... aiya... and he asked me work today morning but i agreed v8 12-10 le ma...

but in e end i got msg winner lah, say i go at 5pm can anot... then she say she lack people also... so i just msg boss ed say i cant le... so i kinda irritate both parties lah... haiz... whatever lah...

and today mabel come work xia... zzz... she weird lah... and i realise maybe daisy is not s simple as she seems... haiz... she so changeable...
poor soe and me i suddenly feel.... we both are victims of her changes...

hahas...but spending time with auntie mary has always been good... have been super happy during work today... hahas... except that henry is sick and that some silly mistake today was indirectly caused by me... siann....

so e kitchen winds turn this way and that way lah... but i noe they treat me much better than other kitchens i guess... today gt 2 gals come for interview... wah honoured xia...

suddenly all e full timers cun be bothered... ask me interview and handle them... lols... of cos was pleased lah... but do rmb e case i worked longest for all outside staff... hahas... if only susan was still around... our pillar... haiz...

today i scalded my hand quite badly... felt the burning for at least 2hrs afterwards... siann... so thats how it feels like... no injuries or what but just skin feeling limp and cannot touch any hot stuffs... zzz... haiz...

so hard to find a good working place le... i think im too emotional for WORK PLACES le and the one to suffer shld be me in the end, taking so many things, some for learning purposes, some for emotional reasons...

but the talk with boss ed did remind me i was one of his first waitresses, who went thru all the courses... together with him, started working the moment the business is open... haiz... and i realise...

that all the concerns he said and i felt previously was really blinded by my pissed off at manager that i really decided to quit. and the fact that everyone just worked... no joke... etc...

i guess its really the "you laugh, whole world laughs with you", "you cry, the world spins on its own still"... siann...

i freakingly hate it when people attitude me. other than being emotional, im moody... so dont mess with me or you will get worse... i can dont care who needs me anymore if im not appreciated... i can just stop working and rest or whatever...

work all your staffs to death, they will not be happy either... worse still, dont provoke me so much till i say i will come for work and not come... hope nobody shall compel me to become this kinda person... yet.

moody mood

2006-11-14T14:34:00.000+08:00

hardly rarely felt happy these days... dont ask why cos i dunno either... but ytd talking crap with bincho and mashi maro made me rather happy... tho they bincho kept asking dumb questions like "i wanna ask you a sensitive question... how do you make sashimi salad?" so i said vege below, sashimi by the side displayed out and seasoning on top...

then he said im cute cos i answered... nt cute lah... ask questions dont want pple to answer de meh... and more lame questions like, another sensitive question and asked... " what do you do if you find out toilet no toilet paper?" hahas...

so i answered say i always check to see if it got, if got then i enter de... which is very true but if its packed then of cos no choice to check lah... hahas... and mashi maro was asking me where i live and keep mixing up the place tho i typed out whole address... zzz...

anyway, today got woke up by a call from faizal... wanted to intro job to me... jialat xia... i go one event nia then job offers come from all over... now there's one for thurs and one next coming sunday for freelance jobs and then office job from faizal and another from teddi... alamak...

think anyone lack of job can come find me okie? i gt tons of lobang... only no time to work... cos got projects and stuffs coming up... i must not stress myself too much if not sure screw up de... hahas... stoopid cher de fault... now i want eat pizza hut de garlic bread liao... ji dan gao... hahas...

was talking to ed's friend online... uncle as he might seem, but he really understands what i feel and he can even put what i think into words when i could not have put it better into words myself... here the conversation goes...

A BIG THANK YOU to ALL THE GOOD GUYS & GALS that TOOK GOOD CARE of ME in TOWN OFFICE says:
wa lau
A BIG THANK YOU to ALL THE GOOD GUYS & GALS that TOOK GOOD CARE of ME in TOWN OFFICE says:
y sound sound so sad
A BIG THANK YOU to ALL THE GOOD GUYS & GALS that TOOK GOOD CARE of ME in TOWN OFFICE says:
u not going back to vivo to work liao mah

™MiSs RaiNiEtInG™ ...(｡◕‿◕｡) says:
gg back ba...
™MiSs RaiNiEtInG™ ...(｡◕‿◕｡) says:
dun wanna give up so easily..
™MiSs RaiNiEtInG™ ...(｡◕‿◕｡) says:
but i also dunno how much ed cares abt me...

A BIG THANK YOU to ALL THE GOOD GUYS & GALS that TOOK GOOD CARE of ME in TOWN OFFICE says:
thats the spirit
™MiSs RaiNiEtInG™ ...(｡◕‿◕｡) says:
mayb too dispensible liao
™MiSs RaiNiEtInG™ ...(｡◕‿◕｡) says:
hahas

A BIG THANK YOU to ALL THE GOOD GUYS & GALS that TOOK GOOD CARE of ME in TOWN OFFICE says:
that guy is like that one la
™MiSs RaiNiEtInG™ ...(｡◕‿◕｡) says:
me go le he can always hire another one de ma
™MiSs RaiNiEtInG™ ...(｡◕‿◕｡) says:
hahas

A BIG THANK YOU to ALL THE GOOD GUYS & GALS that TOOK GOOD CARE of ME in TOWN OFFICE says:
he seldom show his true feeling
A BIG THANK YOU to ALL THE GOOD GUYS & GALS that TOOK GOOD CARE of ME in TOWN OFFICE says:
anyway u shd have mroe confidence with urself
A BIG THANK YOU to ALL THE GOOD GUYS & GALS that TOOK GOOD CARE of ME in TOWN OFFICE says:
u r more than capable for this job
A BIG THANK YOU to ALL THE GOOD GUYS & GALS that TOOK GOOD CARE of ME in TOWN OFFICE says:
further more u once told me u like this line
A BIG THANK YOU to ALL THE GOOD GUYS & GALS that TOOK GOOD CARE of ME in TOWN OFFICE says:
on top of that u r not working there becos of the pay
A BIG THANK YOU to ALL THE GOOD GUYS & GALS that TOOK GOOD CARE of ME in TOWN OFFICE says:
so the more u shd stay on and work wat
A BIG THANK YOU to ALL THE GOOD GUYS & GALS that TOOK GOOD CARE of ME in TOWN OFFICE says:
i think ur bosses are all nice people

™MiSs RaiNiEtInG™ ...(｡◕‿◕｡) says:
tats y...
™MiSs RaiNiEtInG™ ...(｡◕‿◕｡) says:
but now they start to turn nt nice...
™MiSs RaiNiEtInG™ ...(｡◕‿◕｡) says:
and ur right...
™MiSs RaiNiEtInG™ ...(｡◕‿◕｡) says:
i do feel im da cai xiao yong..
™MiSs RaiNiEtInG™ ...(｡◕‿◕｡) says:
u get what i mean?

™MiSs RaiNiEtInG™ ...(｡◕‿◕｡) says:
i work chinese banquets...
™MiSs RaiNiEtInG™ ...(｡◕‿◕｡) says:
i earn 7 an hr leh...
™MiSs RaiNiEtInG™ ...(｡◕‿◕｡) says:
if i work for money i wun stay le loh..
A BIG THANK YOU to ALL THE GOOD GUYS & GALS that TOOK GOOD CARE of ME in TOWN OFFICE says:
long time ago i can see liao
™MiSs RaiNiEtInG™ ...(｡◕‿◕｡) says:
but it seems like pple there v work based...
™MiSs RaiNiEtInG™ ...(｡◕‿◕｡) says:
if u nv work they dun care much abt u de...
™MiSs RaiNiEtInG™ ...(｡◕‿◕｡) says:
but hols i can i work almost everyday
™MiSs RaiNiEtInG™ ...(｡◕‿◕｡) says:
but now i where can ?
™MiSs RaiNiEtInG™ ...(｡◕‿◕｡) says:
den cant blame de ma...
™MiSs RaiNiEtInG™ ...(｡◕‿◕｡) says:
im full time student, nt full time waitress...
™MiSs RaiNiEtInG™ ...(｡◕‿◕｡) says:
shermaine also cun stand them liao...
™MiSs RaiNiEtInG™ ...(｡◕‿◕｡) says:
and even kitchen aunites also leaving...
™MiSs RaiNiEtInG™ ...(｡◕‿◕｡) says:
cos its unfair inside n outside...
™MiSs RaiNiEtInG™ ...(｡◕‿◕｡) says:
u get what i mean?
™MiSs RaiNiEtInG™ ...(｡◕‿◕｡) says:
hahas

A BIG THANK YOU to ALL THE GOOD GUYS & GALS that TOOK GOOD CARE of ME in TOWN OFFICE says:
if u ask me
A BIG THANK YOU to ALL THE GOOD GUYS & GALS that TOOK GOOD CARE of ME in TOWN OFFICE says:
work is work
A BIG THANK YOU to ALL THE GOOD GUYS & GALS that TOOK GOOD CARE of ME in TOWN OFFICE says:
if u think that this place is not treating u well enough
A BIG THANK YOU to ALL THE GOOD GUYS & GALS that TOOK GOOD CARE of ME in TOWN OFFICE says:
then i think u shd move on lor
A BIG THANK YOU to ALL THE GOOD GUYS & GALS that TOOK GOOD CARE of ME in TOWN OFFICE says:
frankly i do not know u for long
A BIG THANK YOU to ALL THE GOOD GUYS & GALS that TOOK GOOD CARE of ME in TOWN OFFICE says:
but over the past few meetings i can see tat u like this line
A BIG THANK YOU to ALL THE GOOD GUYS & GALS that TOOK GOOD CARE of ME in TOWN OFFICE says:
and i also know that with ur kind of service u can serve in better place
A BIG THANK YOU to ALL THE GOOD GUYS & GALS that TOOK GOOD CARE of ME in TOWN OFFICE says:
so if there is a better place outside that can pay u better
A BIG THANK YOU to ALL THE GOOD GUYS & GALS that TOOK GOOD CARE of ME in TOWN OFFICE says:
my advice for u is to move on
A BIG THANK YOU to ALL THE GOOD GUYS & GALS that TOOK GOOD CARE of ME in TOWN OFFICE says:
frankly u do not owe them anything
A BIG THANK YOU to ALL THE GOOD GUYS & GALS that TOOK GOOD CARE of ME in TOWN OFFICE says:
wat i think u miss most are the early days when u all fight on together as a team
A BIG THANK YOU to ALL THE GOOD GUYS & GALS that TOOK GOOD CARE of ME in TOWN OFFICE says:
and the friendship that u gals and guys and build up over the past month
A BIG THANK YOU to ALL THE GOOD GUYS & GALS that TOOK GOOD CARE of ME in TOWN OFFICE says:
that is something that u feel that u cannot let go
A BIG THANK YOU to ALL THE GOOD GUYS & GALS that TOOK GOOD CARE of ME in TOWN OFFICE says:
i might not be rite
A BIG THANK YOU to ALL THE GOOD GUYS & GALS that TOOK GOOD CARE of ME in TOWN OFFICE says:
but when it comes to a time tat u start questioing abt whether is it worth staying to work for them
A BIG THANK YOU to ALL THE GOOD GUYS & GALS that TOOK GOOD CARE of ME in TOWN OFFICE says:
i tink it is time liao lor

what to say? i also miss the tired but happy face me... for now, that place holds disappointment, hope and troubles... also dunno how to explain... or rather i dont want admit the feelings im feeling for there ba... hahas... and im recently hooked to this song by cyndi, huang hun xiao... dask's dawn...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=57724TOF-lE

go watch the video ba... and listen to the lyrics... nice...

another video in which ronald macdonald intro me de is rather cute i think... by hossan leong... hahas... abt singapura de... go watch if ur feeling bored or moody, just like me! hahahas...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VWmLAui6OOw

hahas... enjoy! till next blog entry... hahas...

last but nt least

2006-11-14T00:40:00.000+08:00

THURSDAY

it was my only off day for the whole week... i went out with cher... went to her house after school and accompanied her to eat at compass point with jt and alvin... they said they dun mind coming along... so yea... after that we went cher house... collect her things...

and i had to rush down to shin to take shatec test... took cab down... alamak... no cab want me cos i wasnt wearing skirt and the cab that took me was a uncle that nv go vivo city before... *faints* and he took half an hr to fetch me there... almost same time as mrt but like erm 6 or 7 times more ex... wth...

now i hate to rely on taxis... they now same time as trains but haiz... waste my time... esp money cos equally ex... wth... the test was alright... im not so pro at the written test as there were some pauses here and there...

the napkin test, was brillant... i totally totally forgot how to fold my napkins can? alamak... but he guided me along loh... and in the end his overall assessment of my practical testing and questioning was a PASS. there is only pass and fail lah... and he wrote comments as CONFIDENT. hahas...

rushed back cher house...lost my way and got to layar... wth... so meet her inter with my bags and stuffs... know what? left my cosmetic bag at her house... genius... so rushed back to get it, while fearing her sister home already... then run for bus...

i nv tried running for bus, seeing it at bus stop A picking up pple, run all the way to bus stop B just to catch it there... my first time xia... lols... on bus was talking talking emotional topics... i hate to tear on bus... even if its in the eyes rolling also dont like... hahas...

anyway, had a sakura dinner wth loti, suyee and shu xian... was so tired that i went home before chatting with them... if i can fall asleep during dinner, now, that really is seriously tired, you know... hahas... and i really like their fruit punch lah... hahas...

FRIDAY

had no school... so was intending to work spilt shift but gt arranged at 2pm instead... but i fell asleep and reported for work abit late... tho tired, but i was heart aching the dollars i lost during the late hours and hours i would have earned should i have worked from morning onwards... anyway...

work was alright, tho shermaine was not there... and everyone was lively and chatty... something that is lacking in v8 now... hahas... so i was actually quite happy that day... hahas.. if i din rmb wrongly... but one mistake...

i hit ed too hard already... when he cursed at his own takeaway counter... i felt bad and apologised afterwards... but i somehow already feel like we are different... no longer that close... maybe its just his boss status shining thru or that, he doesnt need me that much anymore... and the bond is some how broken... tell me...how...?

SATURDAY

working chinese banquet at expo... wanted to find someone to pei me eat... so asked mz... she arrived super late... and we ate together... after that we took cab down expo hall 3... big event... shining glasses... hahas... nice... and i was made zone ic... meaning i had a number of pple under me...

and pls rmb its only my first time working banquets... and im working a leading position... stressed leh... but i get to play with the mike...walkie talkie tingy! hurrays! hahas... its fun... and happy when pple reply... esp when the place so noisy... hahas...

the plates are all so heavy... the trays are so big... i have that feeling that everyone's looking... cos im a young girl, carrying so much things, wearing a tie (the servers wear bow tie i wear tie)
and im always on the move...

others slowly guide me along... and i monkey see monkey do... cos brandon wasnt really that kinda teaching person... so i learnt more on my own more of less and from the bosses and instructors... cos i ASK. hahas...

the dinner went quite smoothly, i say quite... cos got this girl who wore wrong shoes to work and cannot walk throughout the dinner... so she wasnt a great help, yea? sian... but at least the guys were willing to carry loadsa heavy stuffs for me... while the girls half try their best...

after majority of customers left, we had to clear table cloths, seat covers, glasses, rubbish in floor, cutlery on floor... tiring and heavy xia... i worked till whole body ache xia... and now i got three blue blacks... one on knee...one on wrist... one more on the left heel "egg"... really really painful i say...

my feet were hurting like mad i mean it and we had to try to get all the chairs into the storage area... tiring xia... and i paid for the cab, having to land last.. sian... but i told the cab driver i wanna get to 7-11 buy food cos i was damn hungry...

he said he would wait for me, encouraging me by saying its all on company expenses... lols... hahas... so he waited while i bought alot of food... ALOT. three types of microwave stuffs, one chocolate, one big bag of mix and match and strawberry milk tea and large gulp's ice lemon tea... pro hor...

and i went home, ate and fell asleep on sofa for a while and gpt ready for bed...

SUNDAY

was really late for work... worked 2om but went for 6pm slot and was still late and reached shin ard 6.30pm leh... im too much le right? hahas... cos thought i forget tell mummy what time i need to wake up...

but at night, she told me that she asked me in the morning but i was really not awake and i had super dark eye rings that scared her... can imagine ma? really is "your mother see le also scared"... hahas... she said i answered her im not working and called ou byebye to a friends... sleep talk!

work was bad... dont really remember why now but i was really thinking of quitting lah... so after work, was so sad that i cried behind the restaurant... in front of vivo city' night view ... sad case hor... and of all pple! lamley, aka lamely walked out to smoke i guess...

he said you crying izzit? dont cry leh... then i just say i never, take my bag and walked away... he don chase or what lah... zzz... he surely doesnt know how to console a girl lah... zzz... and to think the so strong me crying... ha ha ha ha ha... joke of the year... started to worrie he will tell all around...

MONDAY

worked spilt shift today... so tired... lazee to climb outta bed... went to work... heard from beer that few days ago they were drunk due to william's bdae and that photos were taken of drunk people and that lamley was made to answer some questions which he answered... omigosh... stoopid beer...

no matter how also dun want tell me what happened while lamley, obviously, told beer the issue that i cried... jerk! today was quite relaxed... even the night... maybe is enough staffs or whatever ba... erm and yea today got new girl... veronica... we call her veron...

she came together with R... so hahas... sure biased liao le de... and she got prior experience and she is a full timer at that... sure stuck up liao... and her character is really stuck up... just come in like want to show me she super pro like that...then let her pro show loh...

i mean you come new place, behave like a new comer and people will be more willing to teach you things, behave stuck up-ly... people dont tell you extra things... and mui blue blacks hurt the whole day you know... shit lah...

and today really gotta know that alot people will be leaving... sadded le lah... matches the thing that alot people unhappy or dont hafta stay lah... i hate it when i get attached to people and they leave... sian... and i caught auntie zhuang crying today...

omigosh... i hate it when i see people like aunties cry... sommore she so nice de.. will chat with me then also very polite... always do her own things... and i always see her kenna bullied de... she work is for fun... she gt maid at home... is home too bored... ke lian xia...

think she quit le also good lah... eave this place good... ed off today... hope he use the time to be with his wife... hahas... but sad thing is, he wants to maintain a boss subordinate relationship with us... no family no more... hahas... time to go...

im not the type to boss here boss there then after work ed here ed there... i am me... i dont change... and i dont want to get close to any guy there... bcos im not interested and they all smoke... ZZZ.

in a week, at least got 4 or 5 times i get asked why i do not have a bf.. simple... i want a good one... nt a perfect one but a good one... one i dont hafta worrie about when im not with him, one that can really be by my side...happy or sad... and one that interests me... very diff arh? hahas...

aybe it really is ba... and i dunno what age he shoud be limited at... hahas...orh yea and that veron guessed im 22 when she herself is 21.. wth really wanna slap her already loh... which blind of urs tell you i look like 22? wth...!

NEWS UPDATE

lazee and dont want to update bcs family blues... make myself tired every night and sleep better then facing it... papa and mummy quarreling... this time really very serious... got third party even... talking about divorce... who takes who...

did not blog it down cos dont want ALL my friends to worrie... only a few close ones know... just in case i need to stayover or something you know... hahas... but its good now that they made up, hence me telling you guys now... tho mummy refuses to tell me how they made up... hahas...

now, after work, i am very tired and has no interest to even care abt ICA1 now.. nights pple... its already 4am in the morning...omigosh...imma ZOMBIE... a tired unwanted zombie... nights people... shall update when im free or feel like it again... zzz...

_no longer MIA_

2006-11-09T02:09:00.000+08:00

joy, this is from and for you...

IN THE PAST 24HOURS HAVE YOU:
1) Cried: yes
2) Wore Jeans: yup, cos its part of mui uniform for v8.
3) Met someone: the crowd counts? or friend? i did both...
4) Done laundry: nope.
5) Went Hungry: yea. thats what work is kinda about actually...
6) Talked on the phone: yea, im a social animal...
7) Said I love you: no and haven for a long time.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
8) Yourself: most of the time
9) Your friends: yes.
10) Tooth Fairy: only read abt it.
11) Destiny/ Fate: with all my heart...
12) Ghosts: yes i do...
13) UFO: nt interested...

FRIENDS AND LIFE:
14) Do you ever wished you had another name?: no. rain is good enough for me...
15) Do you like anyone?: of course!! alot of people actually... more than my dislikes...
16) Which one of your friends acts most like you: most arh... hard to decide... each has similiarities, hence goody friends ma...
17) When you cried the most who was there: the mother.
18) Whats the best feeling in the world?: to be doted on.
19) Whats the worst feeling in the world?: rejection, social failures...
20) What time is it now?: 2.38am on a thursday morning

WHICH IS BETTER:
21) Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate.
22) Coke or pepsi: coke.
23) Love or LUST: love.

YOUR PICK:
24) Mac or KFC: foldover from mac, ILT and chicken from KFC. BOTH please. hahas...
25) Single or group dates: im alrght with both actually... depends on the guy more ba...
26) Adidas or Nike: nike.
27) Lipton Tea or Nestea: lipton.
28) Cauppucino or coffee: neither... i dont like caffeine...

YOU:
29) smoke: nt even over my dead body...
30) Curse: as in scold severly or scold vulgarities? more of e 1st, lesser of the 2nd of cos...
31) Take a shower: definitely. duh...
32) Have a crush: nope...
33) Think you've been in love: been misled, yes...
34) Like school: depends on the mood of tt day.
35) Want to get married: at correct time, with correct person, correctly...
36) Think you're a health freak: if i say yes i guess pple who know me will die of laughter... hahas...

IN THE PAST MONTH:
37) drink alcohol: yea... friends, work, chocolate...
38) Gone to the mall: yes yes yes.
39) Been on stage: nope.
40) Eaten sushi: yes, one of my fav food types...
41) Been dumped: nope. haven been in my life...
42) Gone skating: no... you wanna teach me ma?
43) Dyed your hair: no. does highlight count?
44) Changed into who you want to be: nv been able to shine...
45) I love: numbing myself, being honest to self...
46) I hide: from guys. whats wrong with me...
47) I miss: the feeling of real happiness and being doted by people...
48) I need: an exciting fulfiling life...

anyone who wanna do this is welcome to... =)

_pain and plasters start with P_

2006-11-07T00:13:00.000+08:00

P. pain and plasters starts with P. hahahas...

SUNDAY

supposed to work 10-5pm on sunday... however dummy me, woke up late and reached work place at 10.30am... after which due to serve feet pain that threatened to handicap me, i had to leave work at 4pm... sorrie eddie, din mean it but it really hurt too badly...

and i become one of those want mei dont want life de liao... it looks really more professional but it really hurts, so much that i bravely walk while outside but behind the curtain, i pause and squirm my tender bruised toes inside... OUCHHHHHH... if only i can have my darling $23.90 shoes... awwwww....

anyway, work was alright loh... i kinda think they are training xiaoyan to be collar cos she has been the collar for quite long since i remember bcos she's been doing collar a number of times already... i saw QN, but i felt like she's changed, WEIRD i say... why? i also dunno...

and i saw elaine! OMG... well... i did miss her and she looks as chio as ever... hahas... too bad i wasnt working till night... if she was disappointed in that slightest bit, i will be damn happy already... hahas... i guess im one that's hungry for recognition... hahas...

and im very disappointed can...i went thru all the trouble to buy chui kway for them and they were not in the least bit appreciative... sian... still tink v8 de pple better... at least i buy for them they will thank me leh... the human nature sux such that, when you're with A, you miss B and vice versa... shit.

went out with joy joy... went tamp o look for my $23.90 shoes there... shit.. no stock either... so i left mui name and everything, asking them to contact me asap when the new batch of stock arrives... seems like there are alot of others wanting this pair also! they have good taste! just like me. hahahahahahas...

and i cut my hair... cos joy cut and since i decided not to curl so soon le so i cut also... now freaking short can! aiyo... and the hair that washed my hair, looks like 20 cos he has got SO MANY piercing around his mouth can? if not actually he quite alright looking de loh... zzz... and his younger then me xia... *stuns*

i dont really like the girl cutting mui hair... cos they way she talks is damn offensive... and she doesn smile to show that she is kidding or something... wth... joy thinks she's damn chio while i think she's alright only... as in nt bad but nt WOW you know... and i still insist i more correct then joy... in terms of taste! hahas...

think people that work in Jean Yip all got attitude prob... cos they dnt like to smile... and did i mention the hair washing guy has atrocious hair? its more to the left than the right if i din rmb wrongly and its purple on top, black behind, morhawk (however you spell it lah) style? super nan kan can... aiyo...

after which joy and me went bugis... i got another pair of court shoes, same price of $19.90 but really ALOT more padding... so sure not that pain le ba... and i bought a pai of slip ins also... like finally found lah... but i still like mui white one alot tho i threw it away le... too tyco le, not nice liao...

and joy and me ended up buying some kinda "outfitter girls' shirt"... hers says "friends dont let friends talk to ugly guys". while mui says "explain to me again why i need a boyfriend " and the same one as joy's. cos we like the same shirt so we have two matching ones again... hahas...

i like lah! must wear to shin and show everybody the "y nit bf shirt"! COOL>>>>>^^

MONDAY

today worked at v8... got released at 12pm and rushed there... know what? in my semi awake state i got off at dihby ghaut instead if city hall and took train back to somerset...!!! IDIOT!!! then i got down, went back to dohby ghaut and waited for the same train i alighted from 10mins ago... tell me how dumb is that?

but bugis is really much nearer to my school then vivo... i must really be kinda retarded lah... hahas.... find poly go so far de... work find also find different line de... so far from school also... what am i thinking? lucky i wasnt late for v8... think only auntie mary missed me lah... hahas...

daniel too... henry i dunno but i really wanna kill arh han lah! or making fun of me and henry... whenever i talk to him or vice versa, either chatting or over work, arh han will always mumble mumble to daisy or daniel... irritating fellow... you jealous izzit... zzz...

anyway, tonight tho tired but i still rmbered to look at the Raffles Hotel ppt and to watch mui dearie smiling pasta... to find that! alas!!!! its the last episode liao... lose something to look forward to liao lah... sad sad sad... any more new nice shoes to intro? haiz...

_golden collar_

2006-11-05T02:13:00.000+08:00

collar. it is the position in a restaurant whereby you handle completed dishes from the kitchen, tell servers or runners where to send the food to. it is the job whereby you have to handle stress, handle all the questions about where food ahs gone, which foods have not yet arrived and of cos, to hurry the kitchen politely about dishes that MIA for a long time...

this is a very challenging post... inside a restaurant, every post is not easy doing... however i am very interested in being that, cos i know that position is not easy and, auntie mary is good at that position.. hahas... she's my favourite auntie you know... must not let her down, must be good at it... so was happy when Ed made me collar...

but obviously M likes to be collar alot too... i saw her always doing it... i mean as in nobody assigns her and she just stays there, so somehow, in an unspoken way, she becomes the collar... today she was doing it again and i was doing it with her till Ed asked her to go out... she said okie but i know she wasnt pleased... zzz...

and she kept coming in, asking me if i was alright doing the task, with the SUPER FACE of i can take over one you know... LOLS... of cos i was irritated but i kept my mouth shut... R loves her, i must keep quiet and all i want it to do well in my collar duties... but there are always crop ups... i dont understand why...

now the grill is so much better already but the kitchen! their actions are really slow... their main courses go out before the appetizers... this is bad ain it... this is a problem i notice with ajisen nowadays also... they now serve my ramen first before they serve my sashimi sides! bad bad bad...

but their membership card is damn nice and stylo i tell you... kinda worth the $5 hahas... cos it makes me proud to carry such a mei mei de card... hahas... its black, has two of the cute ajisen girl, one in colour the other a fading effect and it has my full name together with the expiry date and everything in etched sliver characters.... cool man! hahas...

i like the new shoes and the way they make me feel.. dont know how to explain but i just feel more feminine in it... but i still hope hope hope that i was able to buy the pair i really wanted... the $23.90 pair... i really want it alot lah, tao yan. and the new shoes hurt sey... its either its too small for me, cos the sides hurt or that the shoes haven been seasoned yet...hope is 2nd reason cos i cant exchange them liaoooooo...

about today, thats abt it... worked five today, wake at 3plus...just nice, you guys know me huh... but bad thing is you dont get to eat before you go work... so you basically starve... and at night those leftovers, i dont get to eat de... sad case...

hair loving ting has been eating maggie mee goreng at hm for THREE days liaooo... lols... and tonight when bathing my hair keep dropping... omg... hope no hole xia... aku still mo curl hair de leh... haiyo... lols... and joy is cutting her hair tml... dont tempt me cos im almost about going to do something about my monster fringe! LOLS.

think i should go do some colouring to my hair first... rather than curling it, cos i think when im older than i try that kinda styles... cos i dont wanna LOOK old... hahahahahas... so i should save my colour contacts and hair colour for Christmas! i love festivals! *beams* get together for friends and family... exchanging presents, celebrating LIFE!!! =D

_Slithering Thoughts_

2006-11-04T01:19:00.000+08:00

yo! i just watched Slither... hahas... wanna comment abt e movie and add in some tots i forgot to blog down earlier... the movie is rather a success... hahas...

__abt Slither__

its about a story setting in which this college school teacher and her husband are both researchers of bio stuffs... hahas... and so the husband, Grant, finds this weird sticky goo dispensing creature in the forest after leaving the house due to a reject from the wife to ahem ahem...

he goes near the creature and gets aimed by a arrow from the creature the same second he says "wtf"... and so, the arrow penetrates his brain and stays there... from then on, he has to eat alot alot of meat, while keeping everything a secret from his beautiful, shapey wife...

the story escalates when he, in love for his wife, turns to eating another woman who often seduces him when his urge comes... from then, his wife starts to notice things are wrong and everything goes super wrong when Grant is a wanted figure...

now we look at Bill, this very handsome cop which i think has a thing for Starla, Grant's wife... he protects her thru the show and a very lucky girl who escapes being inflitrated by the slithering worms and gains the worms's history and memory during the process of escaping...

in the end, as Grant is killed by Bill giving one of his two tenacles gas (the other tenacle is in Bill, attacking him viciously)... Bill urges Starla to shoot her husband and the whole of Grant, together with every worm in them, making all the dead/undead another of Grant's voice, explodes and dies...

the surprise of the whole movie is that it did not show a worm slithering away at the end of the happy ending, because i have this perception that ang moh shows always like to do stuffs like that... but i really hafta cimpliment on their visual effects on bio stuffs... super awesome i say! *thumbs up*

__lessons to share__

maybe what im gonna say is what you guys have heard before, especially the Christians but i will say it here, for all those who haven heard it before to know... ytd i was quite upset, cos i was hungry and the other girls are eating... so after work, while waiting for my long awaited pay...

i was talking to liliana and nick at al fresco area... we were talking about fairness... nick is a Christian so most of what he teaches comes from the bible... he says...

"now let me state an eg. if im a plantation owner and i hire some workers to work 7 days a week, i offer them one gold coin and they agree, they start work. on the following day, i haire some more workers to work 6 days a week, i pay them one gold coin too and they start work..."

so he goes on to say till the second coin...

"and at the end of one month, tell me whether it is fair when i pay everyone one gold coin, when some work two days and get it, some work seven days then get it?"

know whats his answer ma?

"it is fair. this is because, when i say i hire you, it was agreed upon the number of days you work and the amount you will be paid. as for the others, if i decide i want to pay them more when they work lesser, you cannot say its unfair. this is because, this is my money, i pay staff the way i want. as for you, you should only care about whether did you fulfil your own responsibilities of covering your workload. "

__hmmm__

he says this world will always have slackers in work places... why care so much and make myself so upset when it isnt any of my business at all...? full timer or part timer, as long as you got do what you should, why care about do they work... as for the bosses, if they want to pay slackers higher pay, its their money...

i wun say im enlightened but the thing is, it makes me realise i should see open alot alot... i know i always has this dou ji yan de problem... i sometimes take things too hard le... hmmm... maybe is v8 ba... there were always the good old times when all the senior staff work together, we were fast, efficient, happy and whatever you name it...

maybe im abit at a loss here... in v8, the old times it was trying to exceed your abilities and out clear and out speed the other... i know even for susan's era, i move too fast, she says im like cartoon character... but at least it ensures i deliver fast service during peak hours...

but now, i must learn to be graceful... i must learn to depend heavily on tray... now is not about abilities but about displaying gracefulness... im not that kinda porcelain doll even tho i look skinny i know...i dont need to cat walk or parade around any FnB place and be able to carry alot of stuffs...

can be even more than guys... even tho they have more strength but im already stronger than alot of girls or i made sure that i was... if you are not super pretty, am super accident prone, and do not have a size that petite as compared to other girls so much so that people wanna dote on you...

well, its time to get up and work like hell to make people like you, kitchen dote on you, boss to appreciate you, manager to put more of your schedule... so on and so forth...

__SHIN DOs & DONTs__

DO

1. smile
2. friendly yet professional
3. start every address with Sir or Mdm
4. maintain graceful posture at all times
5. be as patient and tolerant
6. equip self with tone as tho customer is bigger than your dad (or whoever you wanna name)

DONTS

1. walk fast (im a cartoon character...you get what i mean?)
2. treat customer as your friend (overfriendly...shit, isnt this me?)
3. be hardy instead of lovely (well i dont wanna be lovely, i AM hardy; lols)
4. send food to wrong table (nt that bad, now i can agar table area so much better...)
5. forget to cancel sashimi slip before delivering sashimi (i always forget cos not seasoned to action)
6. make mistakes, even if do, dont get caught by aw...

_night of torment_

2006-11-03T22:40:00.000+08:00

THURSDAY (ytd)
work was lousy... cos i felt like i was working and the others were eating...ain i hungry also? ha. ha. ha.
family wise was lousy, to think my parents asked the agent out and took things into their hands... only mz was on my side... c'mon, ain saving a good thing? *scoffs*

supposed to meet cher yet she put me plane yet again, without informing NOR responding. wth. not the first time already... wanna go eat supper with Li Fang and Sherine also cun, even tho i was freakingly damn hungry. zzz... i miss bonding with them... i wanna have supper with them!!! sorrie girls... haiz...

guess i must be such a failure being a waitress... the more i listen to the briefing, the most i think im not suited... maybe v8 suits me more afterall... no frills no stress... and i have people who dote on me there... sk i think only gt 3 people better to me only...as in working kindness good to me...

what am i doing...trying to compare... the two places can never be compared.. what i've learnt and went thru with v8 and what i have started out with sk till now can never be compared... yet both teaches me and affects me in both ways... im glad i entered sk with experience...

for at least i learnt harsher things at v8 but at least the people there were more patient with me... shall the place one day no longer tolerate my clumsiness, the clumsiness that flows in my blood, i will and shall be glad to go... for i can try prevent it, reduce it but things will not change that im accident prone... its in me...

i hate unfairness and i hate people who hurt me... i hate to care for everyone and give my heart to some and they use it to hurt me... i hate i hate i hate... why must i always be the one to be hurt... its been so long since i cried over work or family or friends and it all had to happen ALL in one night...

how to bear it? i wasnt prepared. i wasnt immune. i wasnt myself, the one who cried on the streets, late at night, left to walk home alone... in tears and with a broken heart. i cant exist in a place where im unhappy, else i will lose all colour, fade away and die...

FRIDAY (today)
went for school early after a emotionally draining night of angry, sad, frustrated tears... went to school with a and no soul... dragged thru lessons, as usual slept in class... cos was too tired already... cos rmb i said i was ver hungry...?

i ended up cooking instant noodles for supper or dinner or dunno what you call it... hence i slept rather late... haiz... actually wanna starve myself as punishment to who i also dunno... i just know it was meant to be punishment... but in the end, it dawned on me that it was my body, my stomach, my suffering hence, its punishing myself, isnt it?

after school, went to watch DEATH NOTE. like finally lah, the second coming out already then i watch the first... wth... anyway, the movie was nice tho the seats sux... and it wasnt comfy... but lucky beside me got nobody so i managed to occupy two seats!!! wahahahahahaha...

L is cute but not in the good looking sense, and his abit wacko... lols... two genius, one calm and composed the other gao sheng mo che... wahsey... tough fight... hahas... but lightto actually sacrificed his gf! who loved him! where can like that xia... super evil leh... and L is like me... eat non stop de! LOLS

and i wanna watch happy feet can! the penguins so damn cuteeee... hahas... i guess i must still be dreaming if i think i can get one of my another friends to go watch with me cos ta bian le... sad to say... dunno whether we still able to watch cartoons together anot... well... maybe we will meet in the theatre... lols...

anyway after watching movie, i go meet mz while jt went back shool and alvin balei kampong... hahas... and me and her shopped ard sk... bought shoes, wallet, ate at the food court... bought sweets and earrings and we also balei kampong... but the bus was damn uncomfy also... the seats too straight, sit or sleep also gankor...

long time since i giddy on bus liao... haiz... really feeling super tired today... what a miracle i can tong till now... and i realise work wise, im still not busy enough... cos i realised im no longer needed at both places... think i must be bian tai... lols... die die wan work at busy de places... hahas...

cos when i work i wanna be able to forget everything ma... i dont want to have time to rest... maybe i shld accept all those modeling places that pester me or that day that guy who asked me join his surveying group... zzz... and mummy wants to keep pestering me abt e money... ARGH. everybody please shut up, i just wanna sleep...

_food and movies_

2006-11-03T22:37:00.000+08:00

aijisen's SAKE SASHIMI!!!! yummy! and no wasabi please... hahahahas...
the grude two! i dont think its really scary but shall take it down outta fun... so glad that tho chocolate is only 1.3 megapix, the cam doesnt produce shit... thank heavens for that... hahas...
dont really wanna watch this movie but just thought the poster nice so i took pic of it anyway... since we got too much time before our movie... hahas...

HAPPY FEEEEEET

2006-11-03T22:27:00.000+08:00

i tell you, his damn cute!
penguins in ballet training!!!
everybody dance now!!
23th november!!! i die die wanna watch it... NICEEEEEE

_all the selfishness inside me_

2006-11-02T00:24:00.000+08:00

i AM selfish... i know i am only human... i know i am a full time student, part time waitress... yet i insist that i take two jobs... telling myself i will leave the old one as soon as i find a new one, when i know it in my heart fully well that i will not be able to leave neither, cos im not a leaver...

a leaver being someone who can have the heart to leave messes behind him or her and just move on...know why i have all this thoughts now ma...? cos everytime i lose my phone, i get another chance to get a new one... last time i got my N6280 by signing thru papa's line... and this time, i gt my chocolate by signing thru my bro's line...

its like everytime i have to bear something, i do not really suffer the consequences... *sighs* same as to work... i am such a rotten person... i will worrie abt what R might do to S but i did not consider what i did to v8... today met daniel cos he called and i happened to be in bugis...

i went art friends and visited li pin... miss her so much... after that went get my pay... did not get to see henry... but i went back after dinner... went to have dinner at ajisen with mz, cher, lynn and our hao jie mei daniel... lols... he tyco tyco always join me and my girls de...hahahas...

henry has been very unhappy these days or so daniel says... and i understand from everyone that its only when an artist dies, then his works will be popular... i firmly do believe so... bcos when im working, hardly anyone really talks about me but from what i heard from daniel is that i have been their hot topic for the week... zzz...

as long as henry unhappy they will say is we quarrel, o pls lah, like i will quarrel with him like that... he was msging his friend at boss hse party and damn arh han starts saying he was msging me all cos henry refused to show him the msges... all the san ba guys i know... lols...

but i guess since i wanna work two places, i gotta bear the responsibility of working at two places and not concentrate on either and neglect the other... cos even tho sk is new, its slowly getting on track already... maybe not to lw's expectations but i guess now things are far worse off at v8..

you will always find xiaoyu at the place where they are more needy... i guess at least sk is a livelier place to work at rather than v8 so i shld go there more often to spread some joy... im so guilty can... when today my dear auntie mary accused me of not working more... sob sob sob...

wed is normally the day me and her go shopping together de... but today was my whole only rest day of the whole week... haiz... i guess im really i very blessed child lah... and when reached home, mummy bought my favourite chilli crab!!! omg... if i die tonight, i died a happy girl...

poor cher... i will be hoping the sliver lining for the dark cloud she's under now de... and cher, you dont hafta rush and pay me the money you owe me asap lah... wait till you get your pay ba... =D

2006-11-01T03:05:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey! im back! hahas... got miss me anot? hahas... sorrie for lagging on blogging these days... same reason, have been tired and always reach home so damn late, i bathe and i sleepppppp.... and i still dun have enuff sleep... can imagine...?

sunday, i worked full day and i cancelled cafe's night schedule... you guys know abt it that my phone gt stolen right? so i was practically uncontactable these days... on one hand i was alright with it, the other hand i was thinking abt the people i will offend...

for sure, i will not and cant respond to their msges and calls de right... o gosh, hate to think who and what i have missed out... and friends in sch i meet these days are all complaining that i didnt reply... lols... and alvin and jt are asking me where my phone is... (they teasing me one, cos they knew i lost it... =.=''' )

work these days was fine, for ste had a off day and a mc day... i rmb ytd, (monday) when i just woke up mui eyes were hurting quite bad... cos i did not sleep well, was heaty and kept rubbing eyes the previous night i rmb... due to irritation... sad to say...

but ed msg me say nobody came and die liao... how to stay at home xia like that... so i rushed down loh... wahlau eh, look at the crowd ard vivo you sure giddy de... cos i did... and i reached there ard 1 plus? hahas... even lily on off also came back... mon was the day step mc...

sherine is at camp these days... mon to thurs... so these days shall be rather peaceful without any boycotting and stuffs... the new girls was alright, to me but i feel that something is lacking... something that i have more with the senior girls than the new girls... maybe they nt as open to me or what, i cant name it...

and yea, that day i called daniel to ask him help cancel my schedule... and everything we were talking abt, a girl was echoing it in the background... damn irritating can? and i recognised her voice... amanda. so i just said thanks and hung up, immediately...

who knows what they were busy with you know you know... and i called him like midnight? knowing he also night owl de? hahas...and today cher called me say gt urgent matter need to contact me... so it appears she was at mz hse... and mz said daniel was trying to reach me...

i have always disliked people who disturb mui friends when they cant reach me... and remind me to scold him for that... its not as if he had something urgent to contact me... and i wonder what winnie has in stall for me when she kept contacting me and calling mui hse... hmmm...

i typed out everything alrdy... and it gt erased... so pardon me but i guess i wanna point form things alrdy...

--was kinda irritated with someone who doesnt wanna talk to me...
--was happy for the peace in sk these days...
--i damn damn damn desperately need mui pay...
--i gotten new phone alrdy... pls start contacting me if need be...
(so that i can save all mui contacts de number also)

i miss bee alot alot alot alot.. and i'd give anything for her to be back to her round, jolly, innocent and loved child...not the girl that has the eyes of those who seen too much of the world and the frame of one whose been thru all the harsh weathers of life... mui poor darling bee... haiz...

i'd give anything for all of us to be back to how we were, happy and carefree, in secondary... i mean, anything.

2b continued...

_whyyy_

2006-10-28T02:20:00.000+08:00

every body has many different sides... sensitive, heck care, optimistic, pesstimistic... recently i just feel so much tempted to give in to my pessitimistic side... daniel called me late last night to talk and ask after me... and he showed me the pesstimistic side...

of cos i had to assume the optimistic side and tell him the good thingss but i myself also know, the things he said makes sense also...haiz... if it could happen to him, it could happen to anybody... and anyway, i cancelled my predential plan, bcos mummy threatened to fall out with me if i do not...

and the coincidence is that the agent talked to me online, so i cancelled it while being on the mummy... i lost my phone today... know why? cos it got stolen... dumb me... i think i must be seriously retarded and unlucky...

being here at cher house... i called back home to check cos i guess they should have called me... and my phone, being stolen, surely is phone off response... i cancelled the line already... and im ever so unwilling to tell mummy...

but in the end i still did and we both talked on phone till we both cried tons... haiz... its like, she said i changed and stuffs so we exchanged pointers, and she made me cancel the plan... we just hung up the phone... (3.21AM)

i have so many things to do and think about... but there's only one me and i do not have enough time to do everything... i want to complete alot of things but there is only one thing...

at my age, im still letting my parents worrie abt me and mummy finds it so hard to let me go, despite me being 18... i know perfectly why, its all bcos i haven grow up to be 18 yet, i have the looks and age of it, but not the maturity and the responsibilities...

seriously, i dont remember anything about my childhood, except from photos... i remember almost everything from my teenage years, tho not all were pleasant...

but i guess i hafta be thankful for all the luck i have also... for SK girls accepting me, for my friends accepting me as i am, be or without make up and in whichever mode i am in...

i suddenly feel that we all have no time in life to concentrate on insignificant things in life, but we are all so stubborn abt it, ain we... everybody is insignificant, so indispensible ...however, everyone deserves the chance to be happy and to be loved...

i miss home and i miss mummy...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOY!

_blessed with luck_

2006-10-27T01:30:00.000+08:00

SK AFFAIRS

today work's let me meet up with more of the new girls... and i do not remember their names just yet... all three of them, all aged 15 only... all no prior experience... Ed's gonna watse alot money grooming them i guess... but i hope they can really learn and work to help him and of cos everyone inside the restaurant...

i was rather happy that today i was given a chance ot be the collar, the position that is the most stressful i suppose... Elaine really works wonders! she's such a great one man.... hahas... but i was kinda pissed off that, even tho there were not many customers, LW should have stayed beside me for awhile and teach me some basics first or something?

cos im definitely nervous and kinda not used to it yet lah... and i did not see some of the kitchen copies, so i asked the kitchen to tell me the number... lucky that there was not much orders so they could help me... slowly i picked up and no longer needed them to tell me the numbers...

i was rather upset that LW was not there to help... i mean he supposed to be assisting or coaching me de right? and he just stayed outside and asked whether everything was alright ONCE. i asked him where was the new green tea powder holder if there was one...

he said there was a new one and ignored me from then on... made me hafta ask Reuben and he said there was no new one... i hate troubling people the last thing i want, is to be a liability... i want to be of help...gotta trouble kitchen people and Reuben all cos LW wasnt there... ZZZ

all the talk about him being mature enough... whatever ba... and i heard more complaints from the girls about seeing him show favouritism towards Stephanie... what to do? same old story again ma... nothing new... all i can do is ask them be patient and please be tolearant towards any unhappiness bcos of Reben and Ed who has been working so so so hard...

i have the kitchen to thank for helping me warm up on being collar, i hafta thank Li Fang and Sher for being ever so willing to help me serve my food items... if not for them, the night would not have been so smooth... im ever so lucky that everyone dote on me in their own sense...

i know the new people dont really like Sher, i know, cos she talks in a bossy manner... but she management staff so maybe thats why... she thinks she has been too friendly with us that she does not have a authoritive position so she wanna have it now with the new girls ba, for fear that they wun listen to her i guess...

im happy to say im really very alright with the anti-full timer group and the full timer group... im thankful for all of it and i hope i can make it that they can improve their relationship with each other... Sherine, i know her... she is unhappy and stubborn to change her initial views of people, but i know she is fair...

if she dont like you, it doesnt mean she overlooks your strength, thats the gd part, shall work on this to make her and Sher de relationship better i hope... when i see Sher's actions, i know that they are meant to be good, just that maybe she did it too harshly or something...

so i must try to remind her that i know she's doing good, but she must try see how it appears to others... i want everyone to be happy... i dont want and wun take sides... better still if there were no sides anyway... im starting to feel really attached to the place and i know i will stay...

the rough parts shall be trying to not feel irritated with LW i guess... boss yes, but a guy all the same... and i swear he biased against me but i shall not leave, cos the others care for me exceeeds that by aplenty...

TING AFFAIRS

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOY!
now that its past midnight, happy birthday JOY, mui dearie! hahahas... i know im gonna see you tml, but just let you know, i miss you alrights? =) one year older, must stay pretty and keep in touch with me... must not choose bf only, dont want me... hehe...

school today was alright tho i fell asleep... even the teacher also can do nothing about me... guess i gotten myself a reputation liao... lols... nvm, what she teaches is easy lah... at least for now... hahahahas... and i haven watch death note! i want i want i want!

and stoopid alvin lied to me can... he say jt is neutral liao but he is not can... today went out with him, alvin and cher and i sensed he is not lah... sian... I JUST WANT TO BE FRIENDS. he is a guy who can listen and i need a friend like that...

maybe along the way i might feel lonely or have the yearning to get a bf, however i would rather not have any if its not the type i want... i'd rather wait for the one i feel for, rather than to be with many wrong ones just for convenience sake... i pray hard that jt doesnt drop any more testing questions... pray for me too please, thanks...

dramatic night

2006-10-26T01:20:00.000+08:00

so as not to test my memory of remembering what actually happened these days, let me just say what happened today. im rather sure that it should be enough to entertain youuuuuuuuu...

MORNING

had to wake up early for school... actually there was no school today but i had a make up lesson... but im always seeking for fun and excitment... so i chose to skip mui make up lesson and crash cher lec at TAS (tourism academy at sentosa; if i nt wrong)...i reached ard 1 and half hr earlier...

and jt was msging me, peiwen was msging me, made me feel so left out actually, due to reaching ealry and skipping class that i actually regretted mui decision of skipping the make up class...but im already late, cannot cry over spilled milk liao...

so i waited for cher to come, had breakfast with her at Seah Im hawker centre... the food is nice and cheap... and i ate 4 eggs leh... the breakfast dunno how boiled kind? lols... talk about being hooked... hahas... and nai lemak loh...

and i had a huge quarrel with mummy and papa before leaving house... haiz... always de leh... cos papa dig mui bag and found the Predential agreeement i have, the one abt saving $70 a month de... and being able to withdraw money after saving for a year and can withdraw $500 yearly from 2nd year onwards...

they were ranting and ranting non stop after how dumb i was, why din i consult them before signing, and why was i so foolish to do it and why didn they do it too if it was really that good... but im already so old le, cant they let me decide what i want?

you know people are shocked when i say i let mui mum keep mui IC cos she's scared that i would lose it? but its e truth and i also dun dare bring it with me, cos i know i have a high chance of losing it also anyway... but some things i want to be able to decide, its just $70 a mth, with 2 jobs, dun tell me i cant even afford that...

and mummy says i have changed... people who really know me should know that i am always affected by words said like this... especially from people who mean to me... i mean at my age, i know i do really put mui friends as priority over family but i still do feel for mui family de loh... so what she says, hurts...

she says she doesnt know me anymore... so what is that supposed to mean... i reach home, dad's asleep, i reach home, mummy also asleep cos she gotta wake and work early the next morning... i can always say i prefer having a housewife-ed mummy but i know she is happier to be working and i respect that... but alot things have changed...

so many times i do not have her, i learnt to be abit more independent... i learnt not to cry that much, be that emotional, to expose myself to the whole wide world, tho mz always says that this few mths, i have been crying very easily over work, be it V8 or SK... and its always outta anger even tho i do hold it to the last sec... haiz...

but there was also one time when mummy said she thinks i have become stronger, ever since i had my braces, for i was so afraid of pain the last time i would cry when i felt pain or determined aches even tho i was a dare devil in games and trying out new stuffs... i do not want to backtrack and deprove...

AFTERNOON

went singing at k ster with cher at china town after sleeping at her lec cos its really damn boring... and the lecturer actually close one eye xia... and we sang all the way from ard one plus till seven close to eight plus... went to have our kolo mee...

we sang alot of songs leh... hahas... but today de mood somehow i handle sad songs super good, happy songs average only and challenge de alrights loh... cos mui voice wasnt in tip top condition from the beginning anyway... hahas...

and i was so looking forward to getting pay cos im really broke and need to celebrate joy bdae sommore... then what, joy can lend me money to celebrate your birthday anot? lols... kidding lah hor joy... lols... *dont bite me* hahahahas...

kolo mee was not bad, today i rather lame, actually wanna da pao kolo mee ask whether SK pple wan eat anot de, then after that decided not... what if they dunno what is kolo mee, what if they think its not nice, what if i buy le they dun want, what if i buy le not hot liao ETC, hahas... so i din buy loh...

NIGHTS

went back harbourfront... rotted ard, waiting for SK to be free and me to be receiving pay... poor cher, rotted with me... to be chatting outside while sitting down is nice but we were both very tired girls just wishing for sleep... lols... and the retarded girl sudeenly declares she wanna eat TAO HUAY...

this kinda time, where find that? and she suggested Geylang... auntie stolen, aku no have transport except bus 11 leh... haiyo... then we were behaving like bims, when beer called out mui name while squatting beside lamley and having a smoke... lols...

i was about to leave already when i saw Ed at the door... speak of the devil... think of i mean... and he said he needed to talk to me but cher was hungry and im very very the cold you know, so we left for HBF point, and bought stuffs at cheers...

actually i wanted to go home liao, thinking Ed kidding ard, but he called me up and asked me back so i bo bian loh... i asked cher go home first liao, she say she pei me... haiz... thanks and sorrie... but i was glad that she was there lah...

and Ed told me something that made me feel STUNNED. STUNNED is the word... he said, I FOUND YOUR BLOG.

ED, LW : :

i read back all mui entries already. im sorrie on the point that i did not think it would do any harm to the business when i blogged anything. it was all abt mui work place, from mui view... to think that actually when i posted the photos i just wanted to show mui friends how mui new work place was like, and whether this could increase popularity for SK.

anyway, i dont think i will be removing the posts cos there is far to many, all mui memories... starting fromt he courses we had all the way till now... still far from capable but at least i see something... and i realise, i will not editing the posts either, in terms of words i mean...

because i find that i did not behave or think differently as i blogged the stuffs myself... im unhappy i tried to smile, im happy, i smiled, all as said in mui blog. for some of lw case, its just i din say things out, i did not act differently or faked anything. altho i was rather surprised why he did not tell me he found mui blog... and when did he find it... i do not say i dont like who and behave super well to who so i guess im keeping it all...

but its so hard not to mention mui work place inside mui blog! mui blog is what i feel, what i think, where i go, who i am with... and i want mui friends to know how im doing... this is important to me... gotta mention mui work places, cos its part of mui life, not to por or whatever, but as a matter of fact...

so i decide to put password to mui blog instead....so only mui close friends will know whats happening or what, and not the whole wide world who uses google and gets the 6th result... haiz... to be blogging this now, i know i gonna be tired tml but there is simply no time i can fix in to blog all these stuffs already...

actually i also dunno why i was so shocked and stunned when Ed told me you guys found mui blog...i guess its the way it got found ba... but next time whenever i see you guys, its gonna remind me of this and i dread this... but i will try work as usual, to the best of mui abilities but i need time... im not a task orientated person... X<

I WILL BE PUTTING THIS BLOG JUST AS IT IS FOR THREE DAYS AND AFTER THAT, A NEW PASSWORD WILL BE IMPOSED, FRIENDS WHO KINDLY WANTS TO KNOW ABT THE PASSWORD, PLEASE TAG MUI BOARD. THANKS AND SORRIE FOR THE INCONVENIENCE. =)

am i wishing for too much

2006-10-24T01:14:00.000+08:00

actually few days ago i was actually thinking of the evrything i went thru with cher... her with jonathan was the ultimate low... cos she cut off contact with me totally... after seeing what she wrote in her blog ytd, the part about having the cherry necklace actually means she treasures me and the friendship among us... i was very happy...

today she supposed to crash mui class and meet me after mui work at Vivo City... but she didnt come nor be contactable... after calling her hse repeatedly did i know she was sleeping... anyway was late for class today... but by abit only lah and the teacher was not very fierce... hahas...

and alvin was super mean today... really is the Meanie A xia... hey u reading this ma? lols... brother of Mr Bean aka Mr Mean... hohoho... anyway, today i super clumsy can... the Ms Tee who kept repeating her room number and why it is impt, is so damn boring can? (i still rmb her rm is D406, see she how power)

i was abt to fall asleep, thats why take sweets out and eat... wanna offer everyone wanna eat anot de... and guess what? the sweets drop all over the floor liao... ZZZ! summore mentos (as spelled by jt) not very small leh... drop hor very noisy de xia... sian... everyone look at me...

and peiwen and huiyu was damn mean can? sit another table and laugh... after class liao keep saying i damn throw face... zzz... summore you know what... i tried to pick up the fallen sweets then more drop... i mean those that maybe drop on chair, not floor de, continued dropping lah!

then the attention on me again... wah... damn sey can... hahas... then the teacher summore asked for confirmation lah... do i still hear somehitng dropping... erm, yea... just now haven finish dropping de... zzz... and i just cannot sit still or when i really sit kinda still, it means i falling asleep liao... so know what she do?

she use mui name in examples... rain here rain there rain everywhere... accumulate into storm liao lah... zzz... anyway, after school went eating with peiwen and huiyu, saw alvin and jt... so we ate together and crapped all the way... tho a bit silences here and there but overall it was nice...

worth me postponing mui schedule to 6pm instead of 5pm... hahas... and damn cat is still so slack and auntie mandy is so mean... she said something damn mean lah and she still dare tell kenny i talk super mean to make him always use that to say against me... zzz... bloody helll...

and i really wanna slap cat liao... she damn irritating can? anyhow anyhow give black face... got chore do, she saw and walks away from it... we clear things and wipe table all at one time... only three damn bloody cups and she just take cups, never take cloth when she walked to table from COUNTER. damn bloody hand broken liao izzit...

so busy de time everybody takign orders serving food, know what she doing ma? serve ice water... WTH. anyway, enough about her, must not let her damn name occupy so much of my blog... talk abt cher now... after work i go find her, intending to drop by and pass her SOME food... cos today da pao frm v8 alot food...

when i reach, waited damn bloody long for her, then she changed, dumped me with one of her colleague, and joined her other guy colleagues, all cos we taking different train lines. GREAT. and she mentioned beofre she was hungry, and i was thinking since i have mui instant noodles...

i gave her mui, so i called her back gave it to her, said she can leave liao (words of anger of cos) and she really say byebye and gone liao... THANKS. then, good show always behind behind... so when i turn away from her colleague awhile and turn back, know what she doing ma? SMOKING. double double LOVELY.

everyone who knows me well... dont TING just LOVE smoke in her face?? and so me and her colleague wait for mz together at dobhy ghaut station... took last train home and i reached home disappointed and angry with cher and myself... why did i hand the food over? ain i hungry too?

why did i go find her? transport ain cost nothing you know, and what am i exactly hoping... she was not wrong to choose her colleagues over me right? in terms of train direction...? hahaha...

gosh, i feel so drained and tired... maybe working myself to death and get home be so tired everyday is the best solution ba... i dont have jc studies to brood about, i dont have male colleagues to fuss over, i dont have tedious studies to piang, nor a bf to get busy with, so work is the next best thing?

hur hur hur...........................................................................

and shitty thing is i miss Shin and the people there are getting more and more TASK ORIENTATED.

wo men dao toy r us dai chi yi you...!!!

2006-10-23T01:07:00.000+08:00

proof to show that we were at toy r us! we were caught on their cam! nonono, is we were caught on our own cam while being caght on their cam OR their cam caught us being on our own cam! heh, confushing ain it! hahahahas...

its all abt vivo city~

2006-10-23T00:59:00.000+08:00

some promotional tingy going on in vivo city... with pple standing in boxes, talking...
stoopid cher, wan take photos, wan buoy guys... lols...
successfully acting cute to act play water... multi actress xia... hey, i guess i just discovered ur talent!! hahas...
one of the edges of Shin display, thought it looks artistic so i took it down... artistic ain i? hahas...

joy zest julie

2006-10-23T00:57:00.000+08:00

since everyone already know they are together, i can post pics of joy and zest holding hands le ba... hahahahaha...
julie... joy de maid... her 25th bdae... hahas...
all the plates... nice hor... AKU arrange de! hahas...
the cake... after removing candles... sorrie it was not a really nice shot... hp cam on low batt anyway... hahas...

halloween halloween halloween!!!

2006-10-23T00:54:00.000+08:00

cher acting cute in her witchy hat...
i was looking at some kid lah... hahas... infant that kinda kid, not guy alright... hahas...
say hi to geoffrey to giraffe! hahas...
me with geofferry the giraffe! i really hafta admit tho vivo city de toy r us is cold, but its also very interesting... we were taking pics everywhere and its so nice lah can.. kids paradise... hahas... im still a kid! im loving it! hahahaha

vivo city guang yi guang

2006-10-23T00:49:00.000+08:00

from DASHING DIVA de necklace...shui bo? hahas... frens forever!
cherry, cheri! means to cherish... awwww... taken from Ai Qing Mo Fa Shi... i love cherries... as opposed to joy's strawberries... hahas...

a display from a shop in vivo city that makes me think of the standard orchard merchandise display window... hahas...

no life freak?

2006-10-22T23:41:00.000+08:00

today's work in the beginning was nice... as in im back at familiar grounds... and maybe is cos too long never work already... so they really smile and brighten up upon seeing me... hahas... but i really hate it lah... everyone de work attitude is like so, DEAD.

im not tired i also sian lah... but i be clown for like ard until 6pm plus... went toilet once... after having worked very hard for the day, then i started to get this head ache... and suddenly everyone's asking me to work...

i drink drink, soe ask me go out work, i clear plates, auntie mary keep pushing out dishes ask me help her send, and every dish is as urgent as the other... really is head ache xia... and daniel came... i din smile is cos of head ache at first... after that is cos of what he said...

cos the night before, he called me again and we talked over the CT tink, tho im really dead tired cos i know if i dont talk it over, he will pester me till the end of time... *sighs* and we talked about watching midnight show also...

then i damn sick and tired so i testing ask him, you today really want go watch movie de arh? know what he say? " wah, you think i today really is come find you one meh " what a bloody brillant reply huh. last time mui dearie (nt stead if thats what you are thinking) said something similiar in attitude but very different in issue, i also very angry loh....

mui dearie leh, less say daniel (so called also will take care of me de kor, so far nt really that gd anyway)... no difference loh... and i super despise kenny can? every work day he has to irritate me de loh...bloody hell...

everytime he quarrel lose to me will say alot of senseless retarded rubbish. really dislike him till utlimate already... cant he just get over the fact and behave gentlemanly? bloody idiot... nt every girl on this earth has to like him de loh... and his nt any worthy material anyway. zzz...

and i regret telling daniel abt e wu gui mei tingy cos now he kee calling me that... nt that i dun want to be caled that, but not by him anyway... zzz... and i think i really kenna attached to uncles liao cos i find muiself missing Shin, tho i always gotta kio sai there... die le lah, ting... u die le lah...

anyway, something nice today is that, got this table of guys... there was this particular one that was like super polite, keep smiling at me when his friends are neutral... i felt it was okay until his friends grinned at him and he gave back a super, super i say, mischievous smile... lols...

then i gave them abit of the weird look and they felt like about to burst... hahas... and everytime i serve them i cant help feeling conscious, i mean of cos i do not show it but feel it lah... and when i really bill them they gave that look that make me feel like laughing lah... idiots...

but alright, that mean altho ting recently only has had contact with uncles and not really any guys in particular, she still erm, has some girl charm can i say that... dont refute it okie? cos then you will break mui heart de... hahas... *innocent look*

cher was uncontactable for the rest of the day...she was supposed to come find me at v8 and meet mz at her hse but she just went MIA like that... i was dead tired but insisted in contacting her before i sat on the massage chair to rest...

first things first, mui gut feeling was to call PS cartel, call erwin and ask whether did cher leave that place and did she say where she was going...ain i damn bloody smart or what? SHE WAS THERE. angry lah, why not?

the person whom the previous day just called me a no life freak, all cos i said, if next thurs night you gonna be working then i might as well be working too, worked today and went MIA on everyone... so tell me whose the no life freak? zzz...

and lastly to conclude, i do not hate PDA bcos im single but i hate it cos it feels super paiseh to watch pple PDA and them to act as if it was something proud... how revolting... holding hands alright, holding waist i give allowance...

but holding and hugging so tightly, putting hands around each others neck? keep talking in each others ears? wa piang eh, on train leh... u might as well start kissing and do all the whatever not lah... degrading younger generation sey... zzz...

and some uncle on msn is msging me like crazee... HELP, i need UNCLE REPELLANT.

MIss Kio Sai

2006-10-22T00:33:00.000+08:00

FRIDAY

was working spilt shift at Shin Kushiya... very tired as usual... miss B said she was damn tired and had the day off the previous day.. but as i see, shermaine is like obviously so much more tired than her loh... and she has not have had her break for 2 weeks already... poor girl...

as i heard, stephanie said she was half dead, than how was everyone? he said she's best pals with
Sher and she actually fought with her over off days... as Sherine said, miss B (stephanie) came to work with her breasts and asses de. and i totally agree...

we always see her take sashimi from the chefs just like that to eat, see her flirting around with the bosses... what is this man... if she works with her breasts and ass, im sorrie to say that she doesn not have plenty of any either... not to be mean but i mean it...

i anyhow also win her can? and you guys know how little i have of each lah! lols... at least i have more butt than her! hahahahahahahahaha... dunno why Li Wei like her also... NO TASTE. was damn exasperated at her cos she always get food to eat...

and im dismayed at the fact that Shin girls get doted not bcos of capability or talents, but if they flirt enough. sian loh, i wun stoop to their level de loh. even if anyone offer me any food, i also buay gian liao loh. bloody hell. aft that lamley got offer me food but i din take... he offered ME leh. wonder what got into me.

and i went drink kopi at Starbucks with Sherine and Li Fang and Reuben joined some time later... and we chat so long can... i tried their pasta salad and it sucked... i ask for seasoning, they din have so they compensate me with another salad, potato salad... and it tasted weird too...

and in the end mui mouth itchy still go buy... then Mr Nut (he said his named nut, some malay guy btw) i said i wanted something banana to make things difficult for him... and he looked ard, looked blur, then introduced a nice banana muffin!

and its damn nice can... cos they still heat it up for me ma... NICE!! i crave for it liao... die le lah...
then we talk till late late... den Sherine friend send me and Li Fang home while Reuben go back Shin meeting with Li Wei...

her friend is called (line-er), dunno how to spell... his van damn interesting can? the back of it, where me and Li Fang sat has 2 seats and it moves cos its placed in the middle of the back section and has nothing all around... hahas...

COOL! so exciting can? hahas... like the van moves, it moves too... hahas... nice nice... and his a nice guy... how lucky of Sherine to have such a nice guy friend... (they friends only, hahas...) and Sherine send me till lift door leh... how nice of her lah...

been long time since i had anyone send me till lift door le... haiz... started thinking about...

SATURDAY

bloody hell... was so tired that i woke up at 6pm to house phone call... picked up the call and got scolded by Joy... she say Cher has been calling and waiting for me since 5pm... rmb mui phone no batt? and i so tired that i din charge and obviously i was too tired previously to hear anything ringing.. haiz...

so i just rushed outta house loh... no make up, wore specs, anyhow wear a top and three quarter pants go out liao... hair like just wake up like that... i mean i did just wake up also lah... lols... see? big sacrifice leh...

like today holiday leh... outside sure alot pple de and i still go out looking so ugly... lols... dont think superficial pple worth making friends also lah... hahas... and i wanna take cab from hse de but none stopped for me...

so i took bus to inter and took cab... and dammit! take cab faster than train by few mins nia leh... and the bloody cab driver actually attitude me loh... bloody idiot... and it costed me a ten bucks instead of the $1.16 leh! think back liao also angry... shld not have taken cab...

everybody, its TRANS CAB btw... and i hope the TRANS CAB company can like see this or something... its all about customer service loh... bloody hell... and i slammed his door so damn hard that everyone looked at me... he let me down at pedestrain crossing lah... WTH.

but the steamboat is nice lah... MZ joined us and we all stayed there from 6 plus till 11pm plus leh... hahas... and the CHINA guy keep flirting with cher lah... zzz... work that steamboat de all CHINA pple lah... hahas... no denial i gt discrmination against them but if they an fen, im alright with it...

NOTE

sorrie ladies and gentlemen, to anybody reading mui blog... i know this days de blog is ever so boring.. but i gotta i really not free to upload pics, i promise when i have the time yea? sorrie arh... recently mui everything just low batt lah... hp, mps player, bluetooth device and ME. =)

damn pissed off

2006-10-20T01:05:00.000+08:00

im pissed off with people who do not respond to mui calls.
im bloody pissed off with epoplew ho mess with mui stuffs and says im messy.
im damn pissed with people who lim bei here and lim bei there. lim bei LIAO BU QI.
im damn bloody pissed with people who raise their voices at me.
at the people who make me pissed can jolly well go and die. bloody hell.

cant they just let me rest? whats wrong with just wanting to live a life i want?
whats wrong with wanting to have privacy, to let the things i own be sorely mui.
why must people tamper ard with mui things, do they have a problem with their nose?
get a life, live ur damn bloody ruined life and stop ruining MINE. suckers.

i have enough to deal with without people who claim they care for me becoming mui problem. PAIN IN THE ASS I SAY.

BLUR blur blur

2006-10-19T14:00:00.000+08:00

the skies are blur, cos of the haze...
i am blur, cos mummy borne me this way...
and i was damn irritated the day before and ytd cos some gal messed with me... zzz...

ytd i did not work full day, because i was too tired and not feeling really that well, so i decided to give myself a REST. so i went for work at 5pm instead... it was alright except that there were 3 more new girls i saw... two of them are friends, the other girl i dunno but she resembles Pebbles de pattern xia...

ytd work was rather sucky, cos mui blister hurts like hell and it just wun heal... you burst and clean the fluid and after sometime you see a new blister... where comes all the water xia... dammit...

so, if you think wearing slippers with blister is painful, try covered shoes... wth, super pain can? and a waitress is supposed to walk here and there , doing things on the move...and... a bitch keep getting in mui way during work...

claiming mui hard work as her credit, snatching customers who were chatting with me over, shouting loudly at me to get out of her way, just bcos she's holding that mere few bowls of udon... zzz... cos this couple who were boss' friends recognised me...

and initiated a chat with me so we were happily talking about where i was studying at, what were their careers, talking about growing up, the age we would rather be at and everything... until miss B and Li Fang came over...

i dont blame Li Fang cos she came to ask abt a order outta stock...but miss B, obiviously was here to take over the conversation... so in the end, i was walked away, pissed off and i seriously mean pissed off...

bcos of mui name, i get a lot of customers making fun of it and also alot customers like just wanting me to serve them... so there was this table that wanted me to take their order i said okie, sure, when you have decided what you want (cos 2 other customers just came)...

and when i gave them a little time and wanted to ask them, i see miss B standing at that table... how not to be pissed...? full timer liao bu qi arh? everyone has got a problem with her loh... and i find that alot people asked after me.. i mean, people whom i wun expect, in the least...

Sherine, Li Fang, Edwin... Shermaine...when i was super upset, about to burst, she was looking for me, wanting to let me try the dessert everyone said was nice... talk abt being handy and me being needy eh? haiz...

i already tried to smile le... for me, its like i don not show a black face to people who din offend me when another have done me wrong... i mean the rest is innocent de loh... but Sherine said i looked like i was about to burst, did i? i swear i smiled... zzz...

but cher said its good that everyone sensed that im unhappy... maybe its cos i have been too smiley during work already that they know something is wrong when i do not smile as frequently ba...

anyway, Sher did a long follow up of the reason why i am unhappy... but i still did not tell her specifically anything... but when i was about to go, miss B came uop and apologised to me... whatever lah, but Sher made me not that angry already cos i know got her dote on me...

i like the way she works, she does not slack or flirt with the bosses, unlike miss B. really dislike her xia... zzz... but guess im stuck , cos she is full timer, unless she really leaves like she's been ranting abt for so longgggggggg...

anyway, enough of it... cher came and meet up with me after work, after her Cartel test... touched leh... she finish like damn early and she waited for me all the way... i supposed to end work at 11pm but i told Reuben i dun wanna stay anymore so he said alright and let me off at 10pm...

me and cher wandered ard and finally decided on eating Mac cos its the only that's open.. actually still gt Subway but they close at 11pm, can order also cannot sit down eat and enjoy... dramatic night lah... me and cher talk till lose track of time...

and we don not have enough money on us to take separate cabs home, less say share cab... lols... so we decided to go her house (sengkang) and me stay over until she needs to leave for work at 10am the next day then i leave for home...

mummy said okie but when we were on cab, father called and said he will meet me at her house de temple and he bring me home... damn! die die must be home... what for scream and shout? i mean everynight i reach home, ur asleep already what, i home a not does it matter? zzz...

cher says he just want things his way, he wants it, he doesn care... how true izzit eh? haiz... we got off cab, walked a distance and a bus honked at us... so we ran for it after i made cher realised it goes to her house by asking...last bus btw...

and only i tapped card cos her card is negative value liao... typical her lah...on way on bike home... i tot abt alot of things, while blasting Jay's Ting Ma Ma De Hua... cute song btw and i jst decided tio be the one to bring joy to everyone and try mui best not to show im unhappy...

cos as unlucky as i am, i do have people who get affected by mui emotions and that they will feel sad for me if im sad... and i realised that im always in a rush, be it to school, work or outings... so tired... im so tired...

and i the night before just cupped daniel's phoen call... cos he really too damn irritating liao... cos i was not feeling good abt him andf CT being so crappy de good partners during work so i buay gian him ma...

then he was calling and calling to settle the issue but i mean buay gian is buay gian lah, but you not mui who or what leh so i just diam diam loh... and i was damn tired taht day and he keep ranting on the topic...

so i just asked to to shut up and i capped his call... mean i noe but im really pissed lah... him talking aboput mui fav topic (CT) at thje time when i was so damn tired and just wanna rest... i mean its no fun working at two places in a day in btwin before and after school you know... zzz...

and i watched smiling pasta already... its nice and i do not have a biased perception towards cyndi like cher does... lols... i admit her hair styles kinda act cute but it looks nice and cute lah tho is act de... lols... lalalalalala, lalalalalala, this song goes out to one girl...~

breaking down?

2006-10-18T00:42:00.000+08:00

i want to rest...
i want to be immune to pain...
i want to be holiday-ed.
i want to break down...

i hate blisters. they really HURT.
i hate ACBC gals. they really SUX.

sucky agenda

2006-10-17T14:32:00.000+08:00

MONDAY

10.00am--01.00pm Shin Kushiya
02.00pm--05.00pm NYP-TEP studies
06.00pm--11.45pm Cher House (movie marathon)

TUESDAY

09.00am--01.00pm Shin Kushiya
02.00pm--05.00pm NYP-TEP studies
06.00pm--10.00pm V8 Movie Cafe

WEDNESDAY

no school... so...
10.00am--11.45pm Shin Kushiya (split shift)

THURSDAY

dont know whether need to work in morning...
02.00pm--05.00pm NYP-TEP studies
06.00pm onwards Dinner with Joy, Cher and Loti

FRIDAY

no school on friday either... but...
10.00am--11.45pm Shin Kushiya (split shift)

SATURDAY

thankfully its not filled with anything yet...
cos i promised netiher work place this day... =)

SUNDAY

12pm--10pm V8 Movie Cafe

ytd internet connectionn was sucky... i typed finish blog post already cannot post... cannot even save as draft and i lost everything... so here i am, in class on a tuesday noon, typing this down while the teacher is ranting away... zzz...

ytd was in a hurry to get home, so much so i banged into SK LRT card tapping barrier, HARD, and it HURT. hahas... guess i got a new blue black now liao... and ytd time was never enuff with Cher to talk but i had to go...

and Sundae actually bit me! guess its cos i might have food smell on mui fingers... but it hurt too... was watching movies at her house, namely, "Ella Enchanted" and "PHAT ladies"... Ella is a show dipicting a girl being bestowed the gift of obedience...

this means that if people ask her to hold her tongue, she will be obliged to do so by magic, and she is forced to almost kill the guy she loves under a evil character who orders her to do so, upon finding out her secret of obedience from her stepsister... (always a evil step-something in a fairytale huh... hahas...)

i love movies with a touch of magic... hahas... it feels like anything could happen and i like that feeling... PHAT is a movie showing how fat ladies find their true love and learn to love themselves despite being plus sized ladies in a "skinny-ladies-are-beatuies" society.

it always feel sad to see such discrimination being put out in the lights... but there is no denial of such discrimination anyway... like good looking vs plain looking, slim and thin vs fat and plump, males vs females, right handers vs left handers and so on...

INTERESTING AND SAD FACT
over 2500 left handers die every year due to operating devices suited for right handers...
because there are more right handers so obviously, machines will be designed for them...

but one truth is also outstandingly obvious in the show...

"one can only love others when they love themselves."

is it worth to work so much for Shin?
i really dont know but im sometimes happy and sometimes not...
and i was so much happier during the holidays than now...
one place dont bear to quit...
one place dont bear to leave them alone...
die le lah...

LESSON OF THE DAY

WYSIWYG is an English word... meaning... What You See Is What You Get...
PHAT stands for "Pretty Hot And Thick", thick meaning fat in a nice way.... =)

losing balance

2006-10-15T23:51:00.000+08:00

i know im crazee im mad im nuts. i know i know i know...

was dead tired and slept till cher called my house and got mui bro to wake me up... zzz... woke up and went Sengkang to find her... supposed to shop for shoes but she was like one hour late? so i shopped ard on mui own, (ting doesn like to shop alone, wun die but dont like.)

and today mui left eye gave me alot of problems... so i threw it away... heart ache leh... was a complimentary pair of O2 lenses wor... damn ex to buy de leh... lols... to top things off, i had to bear with the half blur, half clear equals to shitty kinda vision the whole day loh...

and to give a climax, cher manager ian, had to call and ask her to go work at Cartel ard 6 plus... actually today when i woke up i was kinda worried for Shin, cos they lack people and alot like me, starts school on monday... and so like me too, not working...

she rejected... good for her... keep apologising xia... poor girl... i worrie that they cun handle it, she worries that she might get bullied and attitude-ed by them since she rejected them... haiz... poor us... lols... talk abt work bluessssssssss

i die le lah... im getting attached to the place liao... and the uncles... i mean say funny they uncles lah but they actually 30 plus only loh... i know the time is very hard now... but i still want work all the way with them... for Edwin i guess... he really needs us...

but the moment i get attached to them, ain i giving them a chance to hurt me le...? if next time they scold or attitude me, guess i will feel helpless... and im kinda shifting the centre of mui attention from V8 to Shin... i feel so guilty...

its partly because in V8 i know perfectly well how to handle mui station and i do it with ease... but at Shin, if i learn something lesser, i might just fall behind... how how how? and i dont want to see uncle L... zzz... help help help please.

shopping today was alright... went Montip (i missed it!) and bought rubber bands (flower, button, lace ribbon; sounds act cute i know but i promise they look better than they sound, me gt taste de you know) and a pouch to put all mui make up stuffs... sad to say, Shin requires make up de... hahas... VIVO big ma... lols...

and i bought a top... all cos cher say wear le gt HEBE de STYLE. awwww... mui darling chio bu ... lols... (see? told you mad and nuts liao) but i broke le lah... cos rmb i took 200 give mummy... hahas... so this motivates me to earn more so i can spend and still save at the same time... without suffering... hahas...

daniel msged me... asked me what happened to me... with all the skipping work and stuffs... haiz... reminded me to be guilty... today i went there shop also nv go back... dunno who working... if they question me worst loh...

and i just gotta know mui timetable is 2pm -5pm... siann... so tat means i give v8 de schedule nt accurate de liao... zzz... argh! so must change to 6 earliest... haiz... and im working Shin tml morning... sure drop dead tml de... hahas... anyway, just a joke or you guys...

ARH BENG AND ALI

Two rich men were talking over coffee one day and one of them said to the other one. "Hey I tell you my driver is really stupid. If you don't believe me I'll show you."

He called his driver Ah Beng over and said, "Ah Beng, here is $10 note, go to the car showroom and buy me a Mercedes". To which Ah Beng replied, "Yes Sir! Right away, Sir!" and rushed off to the Showroom.

The rich man then turned to his friend and said, "See I told you he was stupid." The other rich man said, "That's nothing, you want to see stupid, I will show you stupid." And he called his driver, Ali."Ali, go home now and check to see if I'm at home. "

To which Ali said, "Yes Sir! Right away, Sir!" and ran home. "See what I told you? He doesn't even have enough brains to know that I cannot be at home if I am here."Later on, the two drivers met on the road.

Ah Beng said to Ali,"Eh, you know my boss is sooooooo stupid. He gave me $10 and asked me to go to the car showroom and buy him a Mercedes.....Doesn't he know that today isSunday lah, the showroom is closed!"

Ali replied,"You think your boss is stupid? My boss lagi worse, he asked me to go home to check if he is at home... He got handphone what, can just call up to check lah, bodoh!!!" =)

and i gotta wake up damn early tml... gotta go slp like dead pig le... nights... and alvin, you better watch out tml... dont say i din give ample warning hor...

me and?

2006-10-15T04:21:00.000+08:00

Shermaine and me...

Michelle and Shermaine... Liliana and me...
taken by one if bosses de pilot friend... =) nice guy. (uncle? hahahas)

shin flower bouquets

2006-10-15T04:15:00.000+08:00

shin inside n outside

2006-10-15T04:13:00.000+08:00

the actual signboard...
the takeaway counter...shin to go...
the reception corner...

Shin bosses n familiar faces? lols

2006-10-15T04:11:00.000+08:00

Liliana, me and Liwei
Qin Ning, me and naughty Nicholas!
cher, me and lynn... they visited me today...
me, Edwin and Shermaine...

shin

2006-10-15T04:07:00.000+08:00

the not so nice flowers Sher picked up from the congratualtory flower bouquets...
vivo city view
another view.
i like this, this is damn cool. "she waits, you dont"

shin kushiya

2006-10-15T04:03:00.000+08:00

the takeaway grill... hahas...
had to peel quail eggs during lunch break time... see the shells i peel de...? one whole stretch de leh... but got one broken de, broke till so nice summore...! hahas...
the completed ones! hahas...
the icebed with displays... looks nicer in real...

time FLIES

2006-10-15T02:59:00.000+08:00

FRIDAY

friday i was working full shift, as primised to Reuben, cos i left early on thursday... hahas... mui first time staying whole day leh, till night also actually... and im expected to do everything liao... like taking orders and stuffs... but there was restaurant-wide confusion...

as waitresses struggled to figure out the table numbers, the position of the orders on the POS system and the kitchen with producing food to meet the needs and expectations of the customers and also the promises of the service staffs...

there were a few major hoohaas but i wasnt really thinking that it would all work out, the business i mean, even tho i hope it will no matter what... i broke a few glasses because i was holding tray with glasses on it above Li Fang... she stood up and i lost balance with the tray and so, it broke... during dinnertime... cham eh? lols...

and if i say im not thinking of quitting, its a total lie... because the manager treats me like shit and even tho Edwin, Nicholas and Li Wei are nice guys, they do not appreciate us enuff... (excluding Edwin ba)... cos he really shows his appreciation... anyway, Nick too... so that leaves?

Li Wei is a good good mister... the kind that cheers everyone up when everyone else is cracking up... and know who cracks me up ma? Reuben. like expected huh? cher was telling me to leave unimportant people out of mui concerns but how to... if i can make it, then i wun be rain lee liaoooo...

SATURDAY

work was tiring and overworking as usual... hahas... but the different thng is, i stayed back to celebrate Nicholas birthday... hahas... cos i was waiting for Shermaine and all the other girls left le, including Stephanie, cos her birthday was on sunday... hahas... not without asking me to take care of Shermaine of cos...

Sher and them were drinking and i was drinking too... but they drank sake... and me? ILT. lols... and Mac's milo... and they offered me full sake glass, i poured away alot alot and left a sip for myself... i dont wanna get drunk... first time staying back anyway... lols...

and those guys (bosses' friends) all uncles, they keep getting Sher to toast them! Sher worked in jap fine dining restaurant before and can really hold her liquor... i know... and it takes three bottles of 1.8 sake to make her drunk but in the end she did...

and the guys were playing ard with her and i dont like the way they are behaving... i forgot our age difference... and they threw ice into her top... wth... and she was clearing up in front of them... how nice it was for them lah... damn Reuben... never tahan any sake for her also...

but i must say, everyone there who knew me protected me... to be fair, Reuben too... he help me tahan one glass also... haiz... while all the other guys, esp a jap hao-lianing guy keep asking me to drink... say workin jap restaurant had better know how to drink and etc...so i agreed...

and had a competition with him... i was rather adamant and how to say, kinda agressive and we settled for a bargain if him having to finish his beer in a gulp and me, COKE. lols... but coke is gassy drink, i where can take it... stoopid fellow refused to sette for ILT what can i do? cos at least ILT no gas de you know you know...

obviously i lost and it was terrible swallowing all that gas... argh. at least im not drunk... and at some part of the night, i said to Sher, can you please treasure yourself more? "ni ke yi zhi ai yi dian ma" and then i was bear with it for 5 secs and turned away from her and... broke down upon reaching the takeaway corner... haiz...

and to make things worse or better i do not know but... Edwin was with me... seems like he know i did not sound okie when i say im alright when he offered me a dustbin nearby to throw the servettes i used to clean up Sher when i steered direction from him... (i mean why show him i cry?)

yet he was behind me... haiz... had already started squatting in a corner and cried when i realised he was there...

EDWIN: "rain! are you okie? what happened?"
ME: "im okie, of cos..." (lying blatantly)
EDWIN: "nono, rain, you are crying. obviously you are not alright. come, tell me whats wrong"
ME: "cannot, crying cannot talk de, will cry even more de... *sobsob*"
EDWIN: "tell me slowly, i will listen... im here with you alright..."

ME: "i dont like the way the guys are taking advantage of Sher. i ont like the way they touch her and the way she makes herself drunk and the way they try to make her drunk, at their very best. big group of guys, only one Shermaine, what is this... HAIZ. *sighs*"

i forget the age difference between us and just felt heart ache when i see her behaving like that... guess im just not used to that kinda situtation...i guess im not mature enuff to be her friend...(and i was thinking back abt how cher felt when she worked at kallang ktv... haiz...)

EDWIN: *half hugs me; i need the warmth* in this world, there will be good guys, and also guys who behave like what you saw just now. its just the way the world works, but i dunno how to explain better to you or say to you but this is what Sher is doing, im sure she knows what she is doing... dont worrie, she has seen this world before...

*checks that eyes are white and leaves the room with Edwin,feeling shaken, hating all the guys in the meanwhile (except the good ones maybe?)*

IN THE TOILET BEFORE GOING HOME

was pretending that all is fine and kinda apologised to Sher for losing mui cool... i mean it did not make her feel better at that moment of time, did i? haiz... and she broke down... cos she said i really cared... and she told her that her bf of so long doesnt want her anymore...

dont wonder she tried to get herself drunk...haiz... so we ended up hugging each other and cried... so much of tears in a night... haiz... a dramatic and saddening night... and its like the kind of we stop and we start again that kind... hahas...

GOING HOME

she was dead drunk, told me her address wrong twice... but in the end, we manage to get her to call her bf... she cant even walk steadily... haiz... so we got the right address and i talked to her bf and gt him to come down and fetch her... end of story... what a tiring night... haiz...

SUNDAY

today was fine but i was damn tired cos i was working 11am at Shin and i reached home ard 3 plus 4 ytd night/morning. (lols) and before i reach Shin, Reuben called and i realised the whole bunch of spare locker keys are with him and he is very angry abt it... siannn... and i fergot mui name tag in a hurry... din bring... and i went to search all mui bags for mui POS card already, but to no avail... zzz.

reminded Reuben abt mui card just before lunch break and kenna scolded say "can we talk abt this later"? like damn attitude can? sian... spoilt mui mood totally loh... haiz and stayed unhappy whole day... stoopid lw din ask after me also... zzz... alrights...

and during dinner alot more attitude problem came from some stoopid guy that i do not wih to disclose and i was working like HELL. i even helped wash dishes... the bosses did not express any concern, im so damn pissed off can? haiz... or am i just wishing for something i will not have...? haiz...

and Sher was asking me not not not to wash le... and a few other girls... haiz... and the rest was ard eating food... be it leftover stuffs or what... and even, listen carefully, Reuben, served me food. what a surpise,. lols... call mui name and pass the food to me somemore loh... wasey... hahas...

enjoy the pictures!

food and friends!

2006-10-13T03:49:00.000+08:00

Gervais, Althea and Vina's cake! baked by Celina! an it tastes nice leh... ain she pro? she say it took her 3 days... all the love and care gone into the cake... awwww.... hahas... thanks Celina!
erm, Cher de skills...CMI arhhhh... hahas... Xin Nee (xueli friend), Athea, Gervais, and Vina (sitting down)... HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
hey hey! mui skills! on the fact that her cam low batt liao... lols...at least can tell da face you mei you? lols
the sets we had at Ajisen! this time round, even Cher got the big big set... good good... and did i say we she blew 10 on hse of dead 4 and i blew 20 on hse of dead and 2 on drumming... zzz... piangsters sey...

Cleo BarBie Design Comp.

2006-10-13T03:42:00.000+08:00

This model originates from the idea of BarBie playing ard with the furniture of her house,.. so here come all the different styles and flavours of furnishing... the ruggard, exotic, 70, 80's feel and everything... rather nice...
This is namely, mui personal favourite from all...! hahas... this is bulilt based on a shi wai tao yuan idea... a place away from the city and is more of a spa place... gathering place for friends and relatives also... hahas... cool to have a place like this, ain it?
imagine having abed in the wilderness like this? so damn nice can? what a bed!
super chio loh, the BarBie de hairstyle... the one sitting down on chair de tat one... i also want! hahas...

darn busy n tired lah

2006-10-13T00:45:00.000+08:00

firstly, mui dearies, let me apologise first... for not blogging these days... been very tired and busy... reach home so darn late, no batt left, less say time to blog also... hahas... but if you guys really need to talk or miss me so much (lols), i can fully understand and just talk to me... i will try my best to answer you guys asap.

MONDAY

worked 12-10pm for v8 if im nt wrong... im not very sure ba im rather sure i saw pauline... hahas... so i guess we did closing duties together eh... hahas... and this day when i was deleting all the junk msges... and rmbed how nice smartie was to me in the past...

so i gave us a chance and msged him... his reply was disappointing, for he started to sound like his best bud... sad ain it? hahas... lost another friend le... *sobsob* working was rather pleasant... maybe is cos dont have cat ba... it was her off day... hahas...

TUESDAY

worked at Shin from 2pm to 5pm... so sad i gotta leave Qin Ning... she's mui fav girl you know... she super cute... and she resembles abit of Hebe de pattern... must be her bangs lah... she pure Singaporean but she looks abit chi-na i must admit but i still dote on her all the same... hahas...

hahas... so i left at 5pm and Shermaine appeared to miss me and Michelle alot like that... hahas... but she somtimes very bad lah... today i almost cried... outta anger... cos i gave out 3 boxes of name cards leh... and! when i see Reuben slack outside the takeaway counter, i ask why he dont go and distribute cards...

then Shermaine said "you where can ask my darling go xi shen se xiang?" and Reuben answered "ya loh... that kinda thing is you do de. " WTH. then what was i doing when i was giving out the 3 boxes of name cards? FAKE DE ARH. wth wth wth wth!!!! damn Shermaine lah... and what does Reuben mean by saying this kinda thing is i do de? ARGH!!!

so i go take more namecards and distribute loh... and eyes was watering on the way out... i think Edwin caught it but he din say anything lah... haiz... he just say no need lah but i just say nvm loh... i mean face other people better than facing those busted-s at the takeaway counter dui ma? haiz...

aft work...meeting Daisy, Pauline and arh Joe at East Coast Park but i finished too late and they already finished cycling... so i meet them at Marina Bay instead... hahas... and we went eat steamboat... hahas... DO NOT go Pin Fa eat... even if they tell you they got transport or what... just die die wait for bus go Zheng Fa ba... hahahas...

the steamboat was rather nice... tho they dont really have stamina... eat eat eat then full liao... hahas... i was the one who took many eggs... drank alot soup de... hahas... guess when i good mood i eat alot ba... we took photos also! hahas... nice nice! hope gt next time... SWIMMING!!

WEDNESDAY

i worked for Shin, 2pm to 5pm... hahas... i was originally working for v8 from 12-1pm de... but i changed it to 3pm to 10pm on mui own accord... and daniel keep msging me during work at Shin... very distracting but he told me cat was looking for me... so i called v8...

turns out that stoopid cat wanted me to come at 5 or 6 instead... siannnnn... i want to earn the money can? wth. so i wanna join Joy and Cher de... cos i know is Cher off day and Joy end sch early and they meeting to go shop... but haiya! they decided to go eat Sakae Sushi Buffet... and its 3-6pm... so i LL... i mean bo bian ma...

and lucky thing is Michelle is getting off work at same time as me but she abit dragging her time lah... so i finish changing le i just wait for her loh... and she told me meeting a friend to buy something at his work place cos i ask her why she dress so mei ma... hahas...and she intending on skipping lunch...

and when i heard Cher n Joy eating the buffet then i say i pei Michelle eat loh... cos she need me more ma.. and we did... but i reached MRT station early... and Michelle sent me there... nice ain she? and i waited and slept inside e station... really too darn tired le lah! hahaha...

met them le then chit chat at bugis platform... Cher then went home, prepare for last min Cartel work (7-10pm) while Joy waited for Zest to end his meeting from school and come meet her... good decision of Cher to accept last min work... at least earn $$$ and nt be lightbulb...

and thanks to Suyee for standing up for me... lols... (cos she say i ke lian be their lightbulb e last time i went out with zest and joy hahahahahaha) yee u reading this ma? hahas... but at least lucky Joy no meet me super less after she start school and got attached... hahas...

working at v8 was alright... not that fabulous but at least i could kinda relax... cos im in a place where im familiar in and everything's under control... and i have people who dote on me... hahas... daniel was working... henry was working instead of hen li... hen li is henry also but the more bad guy... lols... hard 2 explain to ni men also lah... hahahas...

went to meet Cher after work... she was working 7-10pm rmb? so went to meet her, pass her some spagetti and we talked till we hafta leave for last train... we chatted inside the train station... smart hor! so we wun miss it and can hear the announcement... but bad thing is i gotta take cab home... too tired to walkkkk....

THURSDAY

worked at Shin today... 2pm to 5pm but i stayed till 6pm cos there is a function at night and i they were all busy... Reuben got ask me work or function, he offered me 2 to 10pm but i guess i chose friends over work cos i decide with Cher by my side...

she changed le ba i guessed... cos she now thinks that friends are more impt than friends but Shin is new work i was kinda scared to offend Reuben again... i mean restaurant haven even really open... how to end it before it begins? haiz... so in the end i work tll 6pm... Reuben say he night need people he din say there was a function loh... haiz...

and Melissa and Li Fang is so selfish... ask them what they do for the function they say just serve food... turns out that they get to eat the leftovers, learn more experience and of cos, Li Fang told me it was okie loh, tiring only... zzz... haiz... dont like them...

and Reuben planned me tml split shift, morning 10am till night closing de 11pm... and tml is restaurant grand opening, confirm no postponing le... wed was supposed to open le but now become friday le... so i hope tml i wun make alot of mistakes yea? hahas...

im nt that familiar with the menu yet and all the other girls look quite can make it xia... i hate to know that i missed stuffs and lag behind them already... i cannot stand Shermaine also so act cute de voice (i know guys might like it but nt me, sorrie)...

i just want stay far far from them, meaning Shermaine and Stephanie and just stick with other girls except Li Fang and Melissa also ba... orh yea, and today , everyone said mui earrings are nice!! hahas... so after work , i went to meet cher...damn phone low batt, no reception... wth...

then went sch for Gervais, Althea and Vina's birthday celebration... hahas... and i so nearly SABO-ed Gervais! wth. so near to it le.. but he super hump ah... siam so damn fast xia... cun get him... ZZZ... and he had to constantly remind me that i almost gt him!!!! and i said i tried mui best liao... no fast meh...

den JT and Alvin had to add on to mui pain and say "wah, she say she very fast le leh" ji dan gao! hafta suan me like that de meh. stoopid jt for initiating the suan... !!! stoopid idiots! JT! I NOE U READING. U ARE AN IDIOT, NOE MA? ARGH.

their 18 yrs old no 18 yrs old like that... cos no kenna sabo, no rich life and fun... ZZZ de loh... cun see their ugly pattern... and Gervais like to ask super funny questions... "why you come arh?" "you got put make up arh?" question mark question mark question mark...

but i guess i did miss seeing all of them ba... and i was damn surprised Joycelin was there... so i tried to chat abit with her but she gave bitchy replies... like i just ask her some questions then she gave sucky replies and say she's tired... ZZZ. then you vent it on me? go away bitch...

guys like you doesn mean i think ur great... great is from personality, not from looks, (dont think you've got plenty anyway) or the bitchy way you carry urself... ZZZ... even Cher also get irritated at your replies loh... talk abt a good first impression...

went for dinner at bugis ajisen...saw arh May there and Din, the manager there... hahas... he still remembers us! hohoho... hahas.... and there is a few more new staff there le... i guess ard 4 or 5 new staff ba... and one of them damn kns de... cos she was starring at us... bad manners... so what if we left late... SERVICE alright?

and their membership renewal is $5 liao... listen carefully... new membership is $3 and RENEWAL is $5. what math is this? and i ask the another girl got what extra benefit for the cost she say like that loh... what kinda service is this? and bugis is ajisen HEADquarters... what a irony...

so tired now... tml sure nt enuff slp also de... see now so late le... 3 plus le... later gonna wake at ard 7 plus and slog the whole day at Shin... kill me lah... haiz... argh... m i becoming a work freak or what...?

crap ard us and esp me

2006-10-10T00:36:00.000+08:00

DOT DOT DOT facts of the week
1) CT did NOT go boss house
2) cher is getting thinner
3) xiaver is not what he seems, no more envy from me , lols
4) i really DUNNO how to reject pple's requests...

WOW facts of the week
1) mui name is kinda all over cher de blog, lols
2) everyone noticed and missed me when i din go boss house
3) alvin is so damn WOW: lifesaving and gold medal in swimming
: blackbelt dan 2 in tkd
: medal for running
: medal for high and long jump
4) shin DID NOT priortise me in terms of schedule etc damn reuben...
5) someone said im cute and chio (cher de fav compliments)

SUNDAY

worked at shin, 11pm to 4pm... cher and mz come find me... and they said the uniform suits me... lols... cos its pink... hahas... i cun bear to leave their uniform le lah... the top only tho... cos the pants is so damn big lah... but im not attached to the people working there... except shermaine and Edwin...

im kinda attached to the restaurant also but its kinda disheartening that alot people can be talk crap buddies but they cannot be co workers nor colleagues... they show a totally different pattern when they work... haiz... and cher says we, this bunch of jie mei huas are very fussy... over friends and work to put in a impt position...

i totally agree with that... i might have alot of friends, i might have alot of hello, hi, bye people in mui life but i surely choose whom i let them be close to me and i get attached to them... and when i do, im giving them a chance to hurt me or let me be sad and affected over them... haiz...

there will be times when i feel like letting go of v8 but i know there are people who really dote on me there... much as i dont want to admit that so that i can leave peacefully... that is something i cant find in shin, bcos there are all girls... so what makes them treat me better than the other girls? and by the schedule, can already see that the manager not shiok me le right? haiz...

shin is in vivo city... i dont deny that there are plenty of opportunities... you know ma... actually if i want, i can really learn fast and die die memorise the everything shin has, but to me , at least now... i wun loh, bcos i have the feeling i gonna leave soon or is very easy to... so i where put in full or any effort...?

but i cannot dont put in also, bcos the manager will always aim me and i dont want to satisfy him loh... wth! and i guess i have too high de expectations of myself le ba maybe? or maybe mui experience was all a rubbish in the beggining... haiz...

went mz house watch buffy... it was nice but made mummy angry... cos when girls and shows get together, normally, time is in the forgotten zone and i went home 2.20am, reached ard 2.30am or 2.40am... haiz... and next day working v8, 12pm to 10pm... nt very long working hours lah hor... no split shift btw, but i like it this way...

MONDAY
today dont have chiu ting. always dun have cat. so today went pretty well... but! was damn angry when i found out that she did not go boss house! @#$%^&&^%$#@* and winnie saw me today and asked why din i go her house... so i just said mui friend had something urgent upcoming loh...

and i actually regretted not going...arh han came, in the end... heard that everybody crap around... the main reason i din want go was bcos she was going and it turned out that she n cat DID not go... dammit dammit dammit... but nvm lah, not at if go le make them superior... at least be happy i did not have to take cab home loh...

soe very funny! she always wanna try introduce me to her relatives... say im her meimei and last time she introduce two already not enough... still want introduce more today... hahas... orh yea and ytd i kenna eye infection! so today i wore specs... and they all say im ugly!!

wth! then until at night then shawn say i actually look nt bad with specs also... lols... the first xia.. and henry was leading the others in saying i was UGLY. watever lah... i think i look studious and guai LOH. and daisy said i looked like teacher!! see seee? hahahaha

and i after work, still went give cher salmon soup and bought her coke... she broke le ma... lols... so i machiam like her nanny like that... who ask her never eat anything... but dont always like that lah, idiotic gal... like that i tired leh... everyday wreck brain think of how to fetch you food... lols...

talk about the work blues we both facing... and i really hate to always hurt mummy like that.... haiz... always for friends or for mui own funnn... haiz...

hazy plaza singapuraaaaaaaa

2006-10-08T02:15:00.000+08:00

so hazy!
so blur!
can recognise is plaze sing ma? see...? so blur and hazy... hahas...
never ending blur and hazy road! hahas...

salad, cake, idiot

2006-10-08T02:09:00.000+08:00

smoke chicken salad of bugis cafe... hahas...
their mega big carrot cake... hahas... as big as 2 cakes, as said by cher... hahas...
sey liao le de cher... slack jiu suan le... still use pple deco chair de cloth deco herself! lols...

food and drink!

2006-10-08T02:05:00.000+08:00

the 3 unagi set! yummy!!! the $6.50 is so very worth... hahas...

the bubble tea that joy treated me to! guess? okie lah, is green apple green tea... hahas...

first day of work

2006-10-08T01:10:00.000+08:00

first day of work today! woke up super early! left house one hour ealier and went bedok inter buy food for someone who tried to starve to death... and the food goes with coke too u know? think i must open nanny agency liao... hahas...

reached work place early... the pants is so damn BIG. and the size is S. fancy that! hahahahaha... so now comes in the apron to cover e baggy pants... yoyoyo... hip hop style le lah... hahas... and put apron liao cannot tuck out lah! so very uncomfortable to dare to stretch de you know...

and today shermaine de friend come liao... and all the girls ai mei ma, so wear shoes that hurt... zzz... so they walk very awkwardly... poor things but blame who eh? hahas... and shermaine friend is full timer, damn smart lah... ask me do things that require stretching de and she assist me... like she pass things then i place it on shelf... ZZZ!!!

and she has PINK nail polish and LONG dangling earrings!!! wth wth wth... sometimes i think i shld not be so guai you know... pple during training no wear black shoes, wear open toes summore and pple when work got dangling earrings and nail polish...

so what am i doing? wearing black shoes and wearing ear studs and wearing clear nail polish (clear one is allowed as said by Edwin) ? lols... and joy dropped by today... once with her family and then again with stoopid zest and gang... on their way to sp musical...

what a waste! they just admire from far and did not come closer... i kinda miss seeing her sisters lah... even trixie was so friendly! hahas... so far i see her she always dao de... hahas... and i envy her freedom of moving around... hahas...

today work counter, i dont mind smiling and letting everybody stare... but the stoopid cashier is situated BEHIND the serving counter... so to pass $$$ and get change, poor me had to turn front and back... head damn heavy and i feel so giddy... i cant stand seeing crowds lah... haiz...

think maybe must be smarter... morning must do cashier... can learn cos not alot people and then afternoon be entertainer, entertain customers! hahas... and today Li Wei say im doing super well trying to introduce customers to our restaurant's opening! so happy! awhile de only lah tho...

and today Reuben gave abit training and he still aim me... cos gt Li Fang, Melissa, Michelle and me ma... then we take turns to be servers, 3 customers at a time... and when it is mui turn, he join in to be customer also... and he gave me a damn hard time... keep testing me on menu...

and i have such a happening life, where find some time to memorise... but im trying lah... was still wondering why they didnt not show us any menu... know why? bcos it comes only on tuesday... sad right... so damn slow... but the place looks so nice now... hahas.. and i hate the haze... hahas...

i saw Edwin sister today... she dont really look like him... but i like her... she same age as me and is so cute.. hahas... and i saw Edwin de another didi... hahas... younger brother of Edwin, elder brother to Elaine... hahas... =)

2b continued...

sad sad day

2006-10-07T01:43:00.000+08:00

today supposed to go joy school to buy her school fair de stuffs... but i woke up early and left house late... hahas... typical huh... and i gei smart lah... hahas... so in the end, we arranged to meet at tamp instead... so we went eating and i fell in love with Tori Q's 3 unagi set! hahas...

after that her friend joined us and her friend friend joined us... while waiting for her friend friend to come, we three went arcade play... played three puck play, bishi bashi and house of dead two... hahas... quite nice... but there goes $5... hahas...

and mz de movie super long lah, was calling her all along and she never pick up... busy le lah... and gave joy friend a chance to suan me, say mz dont want me liao... ZZZ lah... and! joy and her friend totally won me big time in 3 puck play... they had a score of 10 and me 5 leh... walau eh... hahas...

after some time, mz called so i went to meet her... hahas... and know what ma? we so good to go visit her at work again cos since we tot she ke lian enuff to hafta miss lynn de sentosa fun and mz and me de dinner... cos she had to work... so qian jiu her loh...

and rmb the boss house party i was saying abt? i did not go... because i saw CT and she was so damn dao loh... see her i turn off... and i saw kenny and his gf sitting inside v8... so it means he bringing her along and they were holding hands, hands on the table... what is this?

v8 gathering at boss house u bring ur gf along? too bad mz doesnt want to go... haiz... cos she say she doesnt know anybody there... if not i will go de... then i saw daniel and amanda... haiz... and henry was nowhere to be found... so truth is he sent arh may to the bus stop, so yea... i called and said i nt going... hahas...

dunno lah but im surprised at how fast i can cry this moment and just take the lift, head for the mrt the next moment with mz, white eyes, no red shreds in eyes... hahas... and went back PS visit cher again... but she gt friends with her already...

so yea, i decide to leave with mz instead... cos i cun possibly leave her alone also ma... hahas... was talking with mz all the way back... and we walked back home... hahas... orh yea and joy treated me bubble tea today! cos she lost a bet to me! *beams* cher owes me also!!! *giggles*

and i really envy cher for having such a guy like xavier... seriously... but i really heart ache bee n cher de weight loss... really drastic... i ask myself what i can do for them... i really dunnno... haiz.. recently i've been busy but really unhappy... i think i have been at least crying thrice in 2 weeks le ba... ha ha ha...

i hate growing up... the more we grow up, the more unhappy we get... last time de bee is so happy, so round (size), innocent and happy go lucky but you see her now? so thin and her eyes just shows that she knows too much, far too much for her age... haiz... i wish we can turn back time...

i heart ache for all mui friends, i wonder what i can do for them... and i dont even have enough happiness to share with them... haiz... guess only tears can show all mui hurt ba...

uncertain future

2006-10-06T00:30:00.000+08:00

today had work at 5pm... nevertheless, i pei cher go lavender get her long forgotten ic and we went to shop at bugis... we were on the escalator when i said, the girl in front super look like lynn xia.. so i try shout her name... guess what! really is her leh... kua tio gui xia....! lols... so qiao xia... hahas...

so we three went shopping awhile and lynn left to have lunch with her boss! lols... benefits of a senior staff! then me n cher shopped on loh, but we didnt find anything we want... funny... hahas... u intend to get stuff, u find nothing... u shop for fun, ur wallet slims... hahas...

anyway, today during work, time passes fast... daniel is damn sad and shows it... poor guy, couldnt even pretend or entertain anymore liao... hahas... i realise in now de v8, when u start to entertain pple, the place feels lively... otherwise, the place just feels so dead, everybody just works and works... and cat just slacks and slacks... zzz... slap her arh!

Shin is gonna open in one more day time... why dont i feel the excitment? mayb is cos reuben is damn irresponsible ba... never give uniform yet, never give schedule yet, never brief nor make sure we know the menu well well already... like that how to operate...? zzz...

and i bought smiling pasta soundtrack today le... i thought got the videos of the making or something but obviously there is nothing and im bored... tml boss house got party... shld i go? hahas... haven been to his house before... and henry they all keep asking me go...

and amazingly, i dont really have plans for tml... yet. hahas... so can go boss house at night... after everybody's work then go there with them... before that can still go out... tml going joy house! hahas... and im really sick of guys le... think the guys in the streets also treat me better lah...

they want find me talk and talk so little and short... im damn pissed... i reply so much and you reply so little... what am i? someone to talk to when you are bored and then you can take for granted de arh? seen too many in a day, im PISSED. bloody pissed.

today when we were at ic collection centre, there was this guy whom we didnt know de who bade us goodbye, funny! me and cher showed the ultimate BIM reaction...

guy: byebye
cher: he's talking to you.
me: no loh, he talking to you lah.

walks towards escalator and leaves, feeling guys eyes behindddddddddd

and tonight after work, there was this guy from the sony shop opposite the cafe that tried getting attention twice... after work i went toilet change ma, looked across and he waved... then after changing i went back to meet soe, henry, stephen... then the guy waved bye again in super kua zhang way lah...

cos his friend blocking him from my view (i din see his face the second time round) and he was standing up and waving frantically, machiam like he was drowning...! lols to that! hahas... anyway, all these are little things that make this day different from another day...

i might be busy every day, but it also depends on what im bust with and whetehr im happy... maybe im tired? hard to say... ahuh...

long awaited photos

2006-10-06T00:00:00.000+08:00

ivy, cher, me, jiajin and mr birthday boy... mr chew weijie... hahas... he took so long to send me e photos! hahas...
his cake! see e brown box? on it is the key of 21yrs, of freedom! nice lah... hahas... so cool de cake...
mz and weijie...
da he zhao! =) and he ferget send me e pics i took wif him... ='(

chinatown lantern festival lights

2006-10-05T02:45:00.000+08:00

chinatown lantern festival lights...

lights of chinatown, cafe cartel food

2006-10-05T00:58:00.000+08:00

lights of chinatown... =) tat day go k ster singing de nice lights!

what i ate in cafe cartel...

SK

2006-10-05T00:54:00.000+08:00

looking out from inside...

sea view of SK

2006-10-05T00:51:00.000+08:00

tyco tyco de SK

2006-10-05T00:47:00.000+08:00

this is the open counter where chairs are not yet there but the two counters are the so called show grilling counters... where they do the grilling of food as performance... hahas... the light! artistic hor... "xiao char bo, got nice nice de dont take, choose the ones still in plastic bag de to take..." lols
the size of the ice bed... they say until like so big and impressive... but i guess imagination and reality does have a GAP de... hahas...
the plastic takeaway container... cute ma? hahas...

sakae don and SK beers

2006-10-05T00:44:00.000+08:00

sakae de unatama don... simply means unagi, aka eel don... took this pic to show u guys that its so DRY can... idiot, sauce also stingy...
sakes of Shin Kushiya...
flavours of our cocktails... blueberry, blackcurrant, peach, orange, lychee, strawberry (joy? hahas)
all the big names... but i rmb one is called Diamond Dust... hao ting hor? hahas...

swensens mississppi catfish

2006-10-05T00:37:00.000+08:00

swensens mississppi catfish! i swapped ths salad to corn and kidney bean salad... cos i like kidney beans... best and sweetest found at near alvin house de hawker centre!
see e OIL? zzz..
isnt the muffin cute? and the salad is not nice... taste all onion-y actually... zzz...
all th OIL... on surface and under the fish... alamak.

miss anti pda!!!

2006-10-04T23:11:00.000+08:00

TUESDAY

today was cher's and my first day that we gonna be in contact with our new work places... im going to attend first day training at Shin Kushiya Restaurant at Vivo City, while today is cher's first work day at Cafe Cartel... hahas... im so very very tired...and i gotta be prepared for a construction site... i mean it... let's see...

we meet at 10am at Harbourfront Mac... its super duper early and im a walking zombie wearing red S and K top with spagetti inside cos the cutting is low and i treat it as a pullover... because they said its central conditioning, i assumed that it might be cold and there will be no way to control so i bao ba zhang myself... lols... (bao ba zhang-wrapped up dumpling)

and i find out that it is a retarded place, construction all over, air conditiong only available on the first floor, SK (shin kushiya) is on the second floor, sadly... lols... so poor sotong rainie#18 almost heated herself up with the clothes and with starring at all those pervertic lao arh peks there and all the bangladese workers... retarded hungry maniacs!!! brrr...

reached there. wanna wash cups, no water supply there... water supply available after stoning 2hrs, water damn dirty. know what colour de water ma? calcium hydroxide de colour, the colour after breathing in it of cos... lols... zzz loh... i think use that water wash le the cups dirtier xia...zzz...

im a road retard, like seriously... and reuben made me go buy batteries for them... vivo is so damn big i got lost but eventually found my way... haiz... wth lah... tired and lost... stares everywhere. pervertic, x ray scanning ones... ZZZ... i really start to think he dont like me lah! well, i dont like him either btw...

anyway, was damn tired le but still went PS support cher's first day at work... tried contacting lynn for 2hrs to no avail... was damn sad and disappointed... and joy did not come in the end too... and i still wore the earring she gave me for mui birthday just to show her i wear and she didnt come... ='(

and i saw outside PS mac de alfresco area reading story book, hoping lynn would respond... i was so damn tired i found my eyes shut from time to time... haiz... after that lynn called eventually after i msged her... said he rphone got technical fault. and she apologised for few msges and blew up. lynn is still lynn lah...

haiz but eventually we made up lah... im damn tired and im not gonna waste my efforts of going online to see Cafe Cartel number to book reservations and let it go to waste... see the effort i went to? to make sure we had seats... haiz... in the end, miserable two...

decide to wait for cher to knock off but it was really too late... me n lynn ran outta things to shop, everywhere was closing, we were damn tired, seriously and we left... after lynn tried for ard 15mins to get cher to look at her to be notified that we are leaving...

HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY

after her work cher called me... rmb i said i was damn tired...? well she couldnt sleep and was damn excited about her first day of work...and she refused to let me sleep and MUST talk abt her day... HAPPY is she said she missed me and is cos wed not meeting so she must must spill... JIALAT is mummy woke up upon us...let me describe to you...

Scene One
(mummy awakes, i turn silent)
ME: closes eyes upon seeing her approach, faking asleep mode
MUM: lifts blanket to cover me better, adjusts fan to not be directed towards my face
ME: thought i pulled it off

Scene Two
MUM: leans in and in towards me (hair tickling my face)
ME: thught she just wanted to get a better look at me...
MUM: raises hand to...

Scene Three
MUM: ...to...listen to my earpiece!!! (not bluetooth but real earpiece)
CHER: blabbers away and realising ting is silent she screams...
CHER: tingting! cannot sleep! listen to me talk and dont you dare sleep!! i dont allow!
(and her voice rings damn loud and CLEAR in the night)
ME: cannot tahan anymore le and i BURST out laughing! S-E-Y!!!

Scene Four
MUM: pushes my face deep into the pillow
MUM: so late liao dont want sleep! say you damn tired still talk on phone! smart liao lah. (scowls in anger)
ME: still in amused mode and depicts situation to miss-empty-vessel
CHER: says she lets me off ba but craps for 10more mins b4 hanging up

and the above depicts why mummy was angry with me and fell sick herself... and i end up going work on today aka wed in a kns state... zzz... lols...

WEDNESDAY

went for training at the stoopid place again... at least at 11am this time round... went there with an empty stomach and was late... hated facing all those sucky stares from all the suckier pple... did i mention i misplaced my make up? so i went out today without make up... sian...

rmb what i said abt my make up one and only purpose? to hide my dark eye rings... so yea, brought those rings out with me today... satyed in SK and ate lunch with Shermaine at Sakae Sushi today... as usual, their service sucked... hahas... and Shermaine, looking at their wet towel...exclaimed that they are reaching 10yrs old soon...

so i told her, and the day that their service sucked for almost 10yrs liao and i guessed we both laughed too loud. lols... the day ended alright... i learnt cashier's POS system and the super basic wine mixing stuffs of SK's cocktails... damn tyco... no cocktail shaker... pour the stuffs together liao just stir with straw... zzz...

any girls wanna work here? they still finding new staff... super understaffed... so said to be... hahas... just hope the pple there de will work de... training together shows it all you know... hahas... after training, when to to meet cher at outram park where our paths intersect... she on way to work at kallang...

talked and chatted with her... then went bugis meet joy for dinner... dropped by v8, old people there super welcome me while new people alright lah... mainly those in management levels not shiok me and miss CT. zzz... forget it lah, not gonna work harder at being friends with her le...

went swensens for dinner with joy loh... will be posting pics up later... and im so dead... i spent so much! i bought two more bags... one same with joy de... same design, same colour and said we would bring it out together! hehe... and a top i bought... long slevee-d!

realised im getting so stripey and going for colours i do not have inside my collection... hahas... how i hope i have a bigger house... own room, own wardrobe... then can store loadsa clothes! hahas... anyway, wanna go watch my smiling pasta liao... others watching, one thing is a new episode will be uploaded every monday night, for the show is screened in taiwan on sats or suns, dependent on the channel... =)

24 Questions of Love

2006-10-03T01:16:00.000+08:00

the following questions are taken from Joy's blog. hahas... she did not ask people to do this but i found this interesting, so yep, i decided to do this... finally something better to do...

24 RELATIONSHIP QUESTIONS

1) Single, Taken, or Crushin?
♣ Single.

2) Are you happy with where you are?
♣ im BORED.

3) When you meet the right person, do you fall fast?
♣ NO doubt. hahas...

4) Have you ever had your heart broken?
♣ i guess so...

5) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is acceptable?
♣ you kidding? i hate LIARS.

6) Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
♣ by MIND, i die die will not... by HEART, there's no confirmation i guess... im a SOFTIE...

7) Have you talked about marriage with another?
♣ yep yep! all the frank talks and husband talks! *hee* mui darling monday to sunday and ever de junjie...

8) Do you want children?
♣ why not? they are super duper universal CUTE leh... hahas...

9) How many?
♣ 2 (one shuai ge and one mei nv, HAO, lols)

10) Would you consider adoption?
♣ bring up as own kids NO i guess, but as GODkids i dont repel...

11) If somebody liked you right now, what do you think is a cool way for them to let you know?
♣ maybe some period of HINTING (i love guessing) and then SIMPLE and straight to the HEART confessions.

12) Do you enjoy playing hard to get?
♣ i dont enjoy and i dont really play hard to get. but HEY, im not EASY to GET too... hahahahahaha...

13) Be honest, do you play the "game" when you are dating?
♣ well, i can only say the guy that gets me is LUCKY, hahahahaha...

14) Do you believe in love at first sight?
♣ hmmm hopelessly YES. hahahas... and not like joy's LUST AT FIRST SIGHT. lols...

15) Are you a romantic?
♣ im BORN with it. hahahas... i dream and dream and dream.... *stares, oohs and arhs*

16) Do you believe that you can change someone?
♣ YEA, but it depends on the PERSON also...

17) If you could get married anywhere, n money is not an object where would it be?
♣ DisneyLand, im a KID.

18) Song of the moment?
♣ Cyndi Wang...HUANG HUN XIAO... (dawn's star: the liu xing that is seen before dawn)

19) Do you give in easily when you are fighting?
♣ it depends on WHO it is...

20) Do you have feelings for someone right now?
♣ GENERALLY, nope... DETAILEDLY,watashi no sure? hahas...

21) Have you ever wished you could've had someone but you messed it up?
♣ YES YES YES BINGO BINGO BINGO

22) Have you ever broken a heart?
♣ HURT yes but broken heart im nt SURE...

23) Would you get back with your last ex, if you could?
♣ NOT EVEN OVER MY DEAD BODY i dont believe in patching, i requested e break, btw...

24) Would you ever fight somebody over your significant other?
♣ it depends WHY and WHO i fight against. but generally, NO PROBLEM. hahahas...

I SHARE THE JOY OF JOY! so should everyone... =D

2days to his bdae...

what a day

2006-10-02T16:29:00.000+08:00

sunday
went for work after staying up till 7.30am in the morning and msging winnie to say im sick and went for work at 12pm. i was late! wth wth! lost 15mins of paytime to her... stoopid punch card machine! hahas... i asked her to let me go off t either 3pm or 5pm and she suggested 3pm but in the end i left at 4pm...

i know you must think im crazee... i wriggled mui way outta work, just to shop...sounds desperate eh? hahas... cos i was so bloody scared when attachment starts i will not have time to shop, lest say till i drop. hahas... so i met up with cher, not without buying three main ourses at staff pries and taking away two drinks.... lols...

everyone tot i was going dating! LOLS. cher loves coke ma... and me? coke gei sprite! lols (gei-plus in hokkien, dont blur lah hahas) and stephen was nice enough to treat me $2, the price of a omeltte... hahas... for mui birthday he says... suddenly like everyone super nice... hahas...

and hery actually bought me a present! lols... tho it lacks fashion sense but its still the thought that counts... hahas... went shopping with cher right, so i happen to see a wallet in wallet shop which i dont like the girl drawn on it but i like the way the wallet is designed cos gt alot card compartments! hahas...

watashi poor girl so wallet have many many many many discount cards you know... not to mention the alot alot alot alot member cards... hahas... but in the end i decided not to buy on impluse and if i really dont like the thing... hahas... and i start to like the wallet alvin and company gave...hahas...

so proud of myself that i did not buy it, hahas... $33 leh! but before that i already bought two tops and a eye lash curler... while dramatic cher actually bought fake eyelashes leh! i cant wait to see her effect! hahas... he always have nice lashes lah... so freaking jealous! hahas... nvm, i've got mui hair...lols...

and it so happened daniel went back v8 to get his pay and i was around and we had contact so we met up, supposingly for awhile... but we ended up going k ster to sing, yes, me cher and him! lols... when im supposed to have school on 8am on monday... who says 18yr olds are more mature and settled... lols... nono huh? lols...

anyway, called in at 7pm, since im a member and i called in advance, we got to sing 5hrs, same loh, just drinks charge... hahahahaha... but i had a sore throat cos miss-just-turned-18 ate famous amos chocolate chip cookies at 3 or 4am in the morning, not being able to resist the temptation...jialat lah!

monday
today is a funny and lucky day. reported in school earlier than 8am, i always do reach earlier de lah hahas... as usual... sleeping on bus today was quite nice cos there was little people, it was a double decker, except! the bus conductor die die wake me up to check card lah... normally alot see people sleep they never wake them up they just ignore de...

very bad leh! i gt concession de okie... and like that means he dont trust his colleague... cos when we get up the bus the driver looks at us to assure that we tap card de ma, lols! anyway, sch notified me that i belong to classical module, being studying first and that means... I HAVE TWO MORE WEEKS OF HOLS!

remember how i was whining about not having enough holidays? and i forfeited work hours wanna shop and in the end i get to sing as welllll... and now? more hols and more time to fit into Shin Kushiya, just like everyone else! hahas...

hmmm... and i realise i actually missed v8, the sunday i left.. daisy that silly girl, was hugging me when she saw me... hahas... and i missed shopping with auntie mary... and it turns out that auntie mandy asked her daughter to buy the present foe m since she was so busy... hahas... all the hearts...

anyway, decided i will work more at there then now ba... since it is what i am so familiar with de surroundings and stuff... hope they dont keep adding new dumb rules... hahas... better still, pay raise! lols... but mayb not lah, cos boss cutting down on expenses liao...zzz...

and the dumb boss now pays auntie mary $1000 only leh WTH and she has to provide for her godmother also... haiz... so i told her to start finding work elsewhere and just jump over when its time! bcos... $1000 is SIMPLY TOO PATHETIC, U DUMB ASS BOSS! haiz... all the bad guys everywhere...

in school today, somebody was behaving weird... dont he think he is avoiding and trying to act cool with too much effort? its kinda amusing actually but if this is the way its gonna be, then better lah... much better then the way gervais suggested... retarded suggestion... wt... hahas...

anyway, briefing and eating after that ended ard 11plus so i went home, thinking to change and throw excess baggage at home, and take nap. feeling so lazee that i dont care whether i should report early for Shin, hahas... but along the way was plagued with super flu bug and sucky voice, thanks to the sore throat, that i wanna pontank again le... jialat...

realised i've been wriggling myself outta commitments lately... mayb is cos i always succeed that i take for granted and leave as i please le lah... zzz... spoilt brat ting. and know what? reuben called to say the training is cancelled...

o woke up from nap, enjoying, wanting to all but found no courage to tell the lie, was typing the msg halfway when he called and spoke first! hip hip hooray wor! hahas... but tml gotta go harbourfront mac meet at 9.30am...why do they hafta be so damn pervertic? meet so damn early de leh... ARGH.

and i was deciding whether to meet cher an lynn for dinner cos its a late dinner and i hafta wake realy tml... but nvm lah... mui girls more impt so i shall end here first ba... if theres gonna be anything more, shall inform u guys again... miss me! =D "since when did smartie reply so damn slow... zzz"

BB: bored blogging

2006-10-01T02:27:00.000+08:00

blogging at this time, feeling ever so bored... hahas... was finally giving mui long neglected blog some attention... cos its almost 300 msges le... hahas... and intend to put some of the nice things i came across here...

FIND:
Find a guy, who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.

LEVEL OF TEMPER

ARIES MARCH 21 â€“ APRIL 20 (LYNN)
Nothing seems to ruffle you more than a lack of discipline, disloyalty and decorum. But Arians are also known to go into a rage very easily when challenged. Those of you who have been on the receiving end of the Aries temper know that if not calmed down they can even get violent. But one thing is certain if the opponent remains calm and does not react to their outburst, Arians cool down very fast. They are also the first to apologize, which makes them easier to forgive.

TAURUS APRIL 21 â€“ MAY 20 (SHERMAINE if i nt wrong)
You are generally quiet and have control over your emotions. It is difficult to predict what will set you, so when you do lose your cool, people dont know how to react. Your temper is like that of a raging bull, and anyone trying to pacify you will be the first one to get a verbal bashing. You generally get upset when you are concerned or when people accuse you of doing something wrong. You also hate being reminded about mistakes youâ€™ve made in the past. You also have the potential to be terribly vindictive if rubbed the wrong way.

GEMINI MAY 21 â€“ June 29 (CHER)
You are recognized by your cheerful disposition and your jovial nature is easily susceptible to anger. In fact, you are the best person to have around when there is an ugly scene at a party you can bring the warring factions together quite diplomatically. But when you lose cool, you yell and scream and will not listen to reason. You must have the last word in a wordy duel. Your capacity to argue aggressively is matched only by your seductive charm.

CANCER JUNE 21 â€“ JULY 21 (BEEZ)
Considering how charming, caring and kind you are, you dislike unpleasant scenes, much less creating one yourself. You have great tolerance and rarely get provoked into losing your temper. If someone is unreasonable or trying to create trouble, you are more likely to walk away quietly. But that does not mean you do not have a temper. When angry, in your effort to control your emotions, you tremble, your hands get sweaty and sometimes you fumble for words. Tears roll down your eyes easily and the opponent is touched by your innocence and will seek an apology immediately.

LEO JULY 22 â€“ AUGUST 21 (WEN BIN-MUI BROTHER)
If anyone has total control over their emotions, it is you. But then, you can be described as stiff, cold and uncaring. You are known to lack spontaneity but you really don t care about opinions. You don¨t like to create scenes and will never accept invitations to a party where you suspect the presence of an unruly lot. But your very presence seems challenging to some and they take vicarious pleasure in your disquiet. When angry you can use critical language. A dressing down can humiliate your opponent, causing a strain between both of you forever.

VIRGO AUGUST 22 â€“ SEPTEMBER 21 (LOTI)
Most of you are gentle and have full control over your emotions but those of you given to temper tantrums can certainly get violent. When see things with rage, you yell and shout and tend to break things lying close at hand. You can even harm yourself by banging your hands on a glass top table or wall. You should never get into any argument, for you are a sore loser. You feel that others are trying to persecute you and donâ€™t quite respect your opinions. When hurt, you can also hold grudges forever.

LIBRA SEPTEMBER 22 â€“ OCTOBER 22 (ME, JOEY)
Did someone say that you are the charmers of the zodiac? Well, itâ€™s true. Few have ever seen you ruffled or angry. You are very conscious of your image, and you believe that anger distorts your face and personality. You also think you are above things like anger. But wait before you get into self-congratulatory mood. Your family or those very close to you know you better. You have an unmatched temper amongst all the zodiac signs, and what makes it worse is your capacity to justify it.

SCORPIO OCTOBER 23 â€“ NOVEMBER 21 (JOY JOY)
Of course you donâ€™t lose your cool. But your very demeanor (manner) projects haughtiness (arrogance, pride), pride and grand disdain (disregard) for lesser mortals (human). Others are often found saying that anger sits on your nose and you are raring to give your piece mind to the first person who try to be funny with you. You are selective in the choice of your friends, and have a low tolerance for the superfluous (extra) types. Your tongue-lashing (attack) is generally in a soft hissing tone for when you scream, your voice tends to get shrill and loud and you do hate drawing attention to yourself! When upset, you are angrier with yourself for having shown weakness, for the last thing that Scorpio wants to show is being out of control.

SAGITTARIUS NOVEMBER 22 â€“ DECEMBER 20 (SMARTIE if i nt wrong, lols)
You are insensible and generally have no complete control over your emotions. You do get angry quickly and others marvel at your anger levels even when provoked. Actually, you get tongue-tied when angry and you will remove your anger waiting for the other person to calm down. Then you will reason with your opponent and convince the other person in a very gentle manner that the whole thing was just his mistake. Youâ€™re also likely to totally sever ties with someone when youâ€™re upset with them.

CAPRICORN DECEMBER 21 â€“ JANUARY 19 (MZ, GL)
Few will believe that a hardcore practical and materialistic person like you is capable of sensitivity and genuine emotions. You project a hard exterior but are actually very sensitive, a trait you successfully hide from others. You can see thing with anger but will not betray your feelings. But then, there are times that even you cannot control your temper. Under such circumstances you can shout and scream, more with frustration at the situation than with anger at any particular person. Your outbursts can shock others and can make them feel guilty too.

AQUARIUS JANUARY 20 â€“ FEBRUARY 18 (PAPA, MAMA)
You are noble and kind and dislike losing control over your emotions. It is very rare for you to get angry. You are also the pacifier in situations that involve arguments. It is always your endeavor to be perfect and socially correct in your behavior and attitude, but if misunderstood and slighted you can give in to an angry outburst. You will shout and scream and then walk out from the scene. You cannot easily forget the situation and will be bitter about it for a long time.

PISCES FEBRUARY 19 â€“ MARCH 20 (HENRY)
The only thing that can be said about you dreamers is that you appear even more attractive when angry. You are very sensitive to othersâ€™ feelings, so you rarely hurt them. But when others tend to hurt you, then things take a nasty turn. You will yell and use harsh words and feel inclined to shake everything and everyone up. Your creative imagination is at its best when angry, and you tend to get pretty dramatic. When upset, you refuse to listen to reason and wish to be left alone. But once you calm down, you repent your tantrums and seek forgiveness. SO nobody can be upset with you for too long.

WHAT TREE U COME FROM?
i come from a hazelnut tree by birthdate and this is mui definition... super accurate xia...
Hazelnut Tree (Extraordinary) -- charming, sense of >>>humor, very demanding but can also be very >>>understanding, knows how to make a lasting impression, >>>active fighter for social causes and politics, >>>popular, quite moody, sexually oriented, honest, a >>>perfectionist, has a precise sense of judgment and >>>expects complete fairness.

half of the day at shatec

2006-09-30T21:41:00.000+08:00

Shin Kushiya's bdae cake for me... also chocolate de! hahas...
something placed inside sha villa room... but looks interesting right? hahas... (just admit you like to take photos here and there lah)
see their mirror? damn distracting xia... lols...
the correct setting.... i noe how to fold that napkin leh! hahas...

Shatec and surroundings

2006-09-30T21:27:00.000+08:00

the cutlery used to test us on settings.. so many forks and knives...
the future names of shatec restaurant and branch... the present one will be named white instead of rosette...
singtel centre's food court, somewhere near Sha Villa de... i love the sprial staircase! hahas... like cinderella come down from it, wearing a gown! *dreaming again*
the parrot we saw, part of the coffee shop, right beside Sha Villa... pure white de leh! must be very expensive! hahas...

presents

2006-09-30T21:23:00.000+08:00

this is the handmade card bee made for me... being a jc student, i know she is very busy yet she took out time to make this for me...! *touched and i mean it*
this cap is what mz gave me and the notebook is what everybody wrote their wishes in and gave it to me... thanks guys... but i guess gervais acted cute and wrote on behalf of jason T, not even leaving his own behind... >_<
the flowers gave bee gave on top of the card... sweet as ever, she is... dripping honey!
the lamp jiajin and ivy gave... a nice lamp it is... bringing me light huh? hahas...

presents

2006-09-30T21:14:00.000+08:00

this is what cher gave... on top of the fabulous bbq, of cos...
this is from a wallet from bm0532 CRM peeps! namely alvin, ceina, gervais, jasonT, vina, althea, xueli, fizah, peiwen and huiyu...
this is what joy gave... can guess by the strawberry huh? hahas...
card by jiajin and ivy on top of the lamp... envelope by ronald, consisiting of 2 movie vouchers and the last of the three being a present (necklace) from xinyu and party...

birthday 2006 part 2

2006-09-30T20:02:00.000+08:00

after thatwe continued eating and everybody went home ard 11.30 plus while mz, bee, cher, loti, lynn and me went inter's 7 eleven buy drinks, i bought slurpee alright? hahas... and we went some park near the interchange to sit down and chat...

sorrie girls that i wasnt really concentrating well cos i was messaging some people whom gave me really really late birthday wishes... hahas... funny thing is that, they were fighting to be the last...! typical singaporeans, never fight to be early but late...

after that, we went home at ard 1 plus to 2am... cabbed home of cos... had a nice chat with mz on taxi... really missed them alot... hope to see all of them really soon again, but i guess that will be hard... bcos when school reopens in a matter of 2 days..

mui timetable will be 8am to 6pm everyday and i hafta work 7-10pm for v8 and then sats and suns for shin kushiya... talk about being superwoman huh? hahas... damn! i really dont want start sch lah... haiz... but what to do... i want the holidays to last... holidays are always too short lah!

i haven shop enough, haven meet enough of everybody, haven do the everything that i wanted, esp singing! and most importantly, haven EAT and SLEEP enough lah!!!! *whines and pouts* and i wonder whether the new job will be nice... i have my doubts lah... cos i start school already and they haven...i sure more bu shu with people there de...

im kinda scared i wun do well there you know... then how... i know i wun appear weak compared to the others as in the girly whiney ways... but to learn things fast... im doubtful lah... lynn is correct... she says... " we are full time students and part time waitresses". so you know which to prioritise le right?

BIRTHDAY DEDICATIONS
firstly, thanks to those who wished me :
(not in sequence due to different celebrations times)

*tues celebration group*
joey (he was first actually cos he mixed up the birthday dates, lols)
siwei, sze chia, sook theng, mei qi, lee pin, auntie mary, auntie mandy

*friday morning celebration group: Shin Kushiya*
shermanine, edwin, reuben, melissa, li fang, michelle, qin ning, all kitchen staff

*friday night celebration group: the closest to my heart*
cher, suyee, loti, joy, mz, bee, lynn, kelly, jia jin, ivy
yi an, ronald, maziah, hazwani, gao zheng, xinyu
alvin, gervais, celina

by msn:
ling ta, daniel, xinyu, althea

by messages:
joey, siwei, sze chia, mei qi,eda, henry, daisy, winnie
lynn, joy, bee, loti, enli, ming fung,
sok wan, cecilia, celina, gervais, vina, jason T, peter (JT friend, colleague)

people fighting to be latest:
jason T & peter, enli, gervais

AWARDS PRESENTATION

Special Msg Award goes to...
HENRY! (cos he typed out the whole song inside the msg)

Repeatedly Wishing Award goes to:
DAISY & WINNIE (they wished repeated times, maybe 3? lols)

Counting Down Award goes to:
JOY, DAISY, JASON T

Anonymous Award goes to:
92239818 (wished me but i dont have his or her number)

Blur King Award goes to:
JOEY (he wished me way ahead, cos he mixed up bdae date =.=)

Blur Queen award goes to:
PEIWEN (she asked whether it was today and then wished me, super blur)

Lame Wish Award goes to:
MING FUNG (he's still insisting im a 1000 yr old bone demon and wished me happy 1001th bdae...lols)

Bad Friend Influence Award goes to:
LYNN, SOK WAN (they reminded me to go drink, smoke, pub and club lols >_<)

SPECIAL THANKS TO:
CHER, SUYEE (for planning and organising the whole bbq)
BEE, MZ (adding to the surprise by lying that they nt coming, mz-for forgetting also, lols)
LYNN (for having to go off for her church and coming back later)
ALVIN, GERVAIS, CELINA (for their guest appearance, lols)

lastly, i hope i have not left out anybody... and thanks for all those who have always been there for me... i have mui highs and lows but no matter what, remember that im a "friend" person... whenever, watever, as long as im needed, feel free to contact me and ask me out... FIRST COME FIRST SERVE! hahas...

birthday 2006

2006-09-30T02:25:00.001+08:00

woke up damn early fot the shatec course... expected... ytd had a late night chat with daniel till 4am in the morning... then went for course... damn tired... i know reuben is not pleased, with me taking short naps in between lessons or teacher disappears de time intervals but heck care lah...

and joy was telling me that shes irritated at so many people and she is all alone that i left the Sha Villa early, leaving everything behind... its really totally unlike me but i really wanted leave that boring, damn bored, super bored place... Z was on his way to go pei her... so i was supposed to take mui own sweet time...

saw kelly, shopped ard in the mall with three of them before going to pasir ris park... through ming fung that idiot and celina that blur gal, i gotta know that there was a bbq arranged for me.... me, unknowingly, still told celina kinda dont come, lols... cos i told her my friends having dinner with me... not party...but alas!

it started with cher, suyee n lynn... then joy kelly n me arrived... lynn went for church... we rot for some time... they started fire... and i was notified that more people were coming... machiam like e4 gathering... i was so happy, so pleased... e4 gathering on my birthday! fancy that!

people who came: cher, meng zi, bee, joy, lynn, suyee, loti, kelly, alvin, gervais, celina, maziah, hazwani, xinyu, gaozheng, jia jin, ivy, ronald, yi an... so there were 20 people including me... i guess that makes me fortunate, ain it... the food was nice...

just hoped i didnt bore mui poly friends too much... and they got to see mui lang bei yang... cos birthday of cos got sabo de... and it was really nasty lah... mocha cake with it on mui face, kenna thrice... cos they thought the first and second time was kinda not enough....

so many people trying to hold me still but somehow they all fail... lols... they lucky i game enough if not they sure cun nab me de... *beams* after that i cleared up le, then there was second round... ronald poured butter plus honey on mui hair! mui lovely, pantene-d hair!!! but i took it of cos... *game enuff*

and he escalated the excitment by pouring our drink de syrup, (orange syrup) all onto me... onto all that rich rich oily butter and sweet sweet sticky honey on me... yuck yuck yuck you must be thinking right? hahas... go toilet clear up loh...hahas... took so much effort and i loook like shit without make up!!! PANDA.

2b continued... os im really tired...part 2 as promised tomorrow...

birthday 2006

2006-09-30T02:25:00.000+08:00

birthday blog

2006-09-29T00:27:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey! its my birthday! altho its gonna be any day that i will feel no further special, have a course to attend, job blues, every plaguing flu, but i bet that i will try my best to stay happy abt it! hahas...

today meet cher at ps... she was late! for 15mins... i damn tired xia... nt enuff sleep... all cos of ytd, wake too early for course le... haiz... not i want complain but its really too hard on me le... we meet le then went for LJS then go her cafe cartel interview...

they super lack people xia... keep asking me to join also, so i say "i dont think i can handle a third job lah, thanks" LOLS. hahas... and shin is having training on mon tues and wed straight after my school next week xia... must thank them for making it late all cos of me, but pls know its tiring on me too...

today watched movie at cine again... "Sukob: The Wedding Curse". its a horror movie... we watched it ard 6 plus so not that scary and will enable us to all have transport home... the show is philippines production and is rather not bad... alot parts i predicted it but there were parts it took me by surprise too... hahas...

after the show, while walking out to get to the lobby i tried frightening them cos i was leading ma... but i failed lah, tho the people following after cher loti and suyee gt scared... lols... call me prankster! its my middle name... hahas and i wanna complain... the guys in front sit so damn straight for what! block my subtitles view only!...

and loti n cher quarreled fiercely tonight... i was so disappointed at them... and so irritated to hear all the quarreling in the background... i walk faster and faster, and took out my mp3 player to drown out the noise in the background... and i get targeted by cher. wth. haiz...

i did not mean to cry on my birthday, seriously but a chat on msn with daniel made me cry, despite the many many birthday wishes and msges i got... i know im blessed... but only one call so far, sad to say... and nothing from mz... i hope she hasnt forget... haiz... so long never see her le... so many times think le also wanna cry...

like i lost so many loved friends to jc studies... wth... and talking with daniel brings me back to me n ZQ's quarrel... he got so worked up bcos of chiuting lah... i only tease her only loh... then say what i humiliate her in front of 3 strangers... (joey, siwei, mei qi)

all i did was ask her take order loh... all i wanted was let them hear her voice loh... wth! and daniel says he was scolding vulgarities and said chiuting was defending me... great! so now she angel i devil and that damn guy. never even doted on me once, only leaves bad comments for me, cares so much for her... and treats me so just for her... i wonder is i know him longer or he knows her longer... wth wth wth.

and i gave joey a chance to say "u jealous arh" when i updated them abt ZQ n CT... whatever lah... haiz... why does it seem that when i need somebody to talk to i dont get a single soul... haiz... pathethic right i guess... what kinda birthday is this...

and cher calling to ask about the time to meet tml makes me feel im such a burden, seriously... i did not ask for the course in the first place also you know? and they are my new colleagues and i cant really be impolite if they really insist on bringing me for tea or what right?

i really feel like staying home and just sleep tomorrow! birthdays SUCK big time. im a loser.

1st day of shatec training

2006-09-28T01:41:00.000+08:00

i got lost, called for a cab cos no cab was empty at that cursed road outside somerset mrt station... Reuben called and asked me to cancel the cab call... and he came down from Sha Villa to pick me... was kinda touched by the gesture lah... think is i too direction idiot le... describe also useless...

two more new part timers girls, Qin Ning and this girl i forget her name already but i rmb is a common christian name lah... the girl came with Reuben, was his ex waitress... zzz... Shermaine suggests that there WILL BE biased behaviour from Reuben towards her which i think so too...

the restuarant is not bad, they have people opening doors for you at the entrance, but they are not always there... and im damn disappointed with their toilets... so plain, no decor, so old, dirty as in low maintenance in making the place squeaky clean...

(not really very dirty but no the expected level of cleanliness anyway)... and their toilet mirrors are really not even half the standard of the ones in the lobby... zzz... but the tea snacks were definitely better lah, tho it was not served promptly... kinda sad, like they knew the knowledge but were not fulfiling and carrying it out fully de feeling... hahas...

met cher and loti after the course... they wanna go singing so i went along...J Box, btw... but there not super cheap but the song range really limited xia... they have people's second latest album's songs as newest... zzz... so they are slower by one album... for most stars, in this case...

have been listening to sweety de songs this days... haven learn yet cos i did not refer to the lyrics...which makes it a whole hell lot faster... what movie should i watch tml? shld i go singing again tml? i feel so tired now... physically and mentally especially...

to Jason Toh:
it is true that i dont like people running off on me in msn when we just started talking not few moments when you were the one who talked to me first... this applies to everyone, not just you. this is a matter of fact, not matter of statement against you or what... if you really want me to block u, let me know, no problem by all means... im so tired. coming home tired and sey and everything, i dont expect to get people irritating me anymore...waking up at 6am, reaching home by 1am, sleeping at 3am (estimated time) is not gonna be fun... and ur not helping, btw... zzz... haiz...

wrappin n unwarpping collage

2006-09-27T01:40:00.000+08:00

see the goong de logo ma? lols... dunno whether they noe wat bear they have bought me anot... hahas... and the wrapping, obviously took alot effort... cos its really nicely wrapped up... =D love them love them love them... its nice to know someone dotes on me... something i really need now i guess...

presents i got

2006-09-27T01:36:00.000+08:00

from auntie mandy... i love the wings... auntie mary gave me ang bao... =)
the book that lee pin and mei qi gave me... =)

from sze chia and sook theng... =D

v8 gathering (260906)

2006-09-27T00:15:00.000+08:00

went cine watch "John Tucker Must Die" with Mei Qi, Joey and Smartie... hahas... i was the latest as usual... but only for like 15mins, they dont hafta behave like i have been late for an hour right? cos the guys were sitting on the floor, giving sey look! lols...

the movie was nice and rather funny... hahas... seating: joey, siwei, mei qi and then me... (in case anybody was curious)... mei qi is still the same, siwei and joey de hair grow long liao... and joey hair look like girl lah... >_< and i dont like siwei hair lah... they super jialat sey, lols... shhhh...

and after eating at Long John Slivers, (i actually did not finish my soup, i repeat, DID NOT. haiz...) we went k pool see them play pool then me and meiqi sit down... i handle all smartie and stoopid kan's belongings... and joey even gave me his keys! lols... "wah, ren jia lian jia de yao shi dou gei wo le" wahahahaha

there were this group of girls near our table, one of the sitting down girl kept looking at kan... and she kept glancing at me! like wth lah, ur a girl, so look at a guy, and stop looking at me, i say... so to irritate her, i dont know whether did i succeed, but went up and talked with kan, obviously leaning in close to him!! hahaha...

then i went toilet with meiqi, she feeling cold ma... then when we went back, we met the group at the lift, they were leaving... lols... then i was wondering whether did they go get kan's number! lols... after that we went for the movie...

after the movie, it was going to bugis... so qiao! saw loti! or rather she spotted me lah... hahas... and kan and bug was acting dao lah... wth,... mei qi just gave weird look... hahas... but everyone very quiet... the guys, kept to themselves, then meiqi say got generation gap... so she diam diam also... i will die de leh, like that...

so i tell meiqi, does it make u better if i say i got generation gap with them also? hahas... bcos i really feel so... like they will walk faster, ahead of us or what... but in the later part, kan did slow down lah... and walk behind us and things like that... *slightly shocked*

after that, went v8 cafe and had a drink... kan ask me... "zhe li hen hao meh, wei she me zuo zhe li?" then the zuo he meant work, i thought sit, cos they quite lamers de ma... then i stand up and realise!!! lols... i thought he meant the seat not good... zzz... hahas... made a fool outta myself and let everyone have a good laugh le lah...

aiya i really not enough time liao...point form from here on ba, if not tml i sure like zombie de... zzz!

-kan damn funny lah... he imitate chiu ting voice! i choose her to take order de ma... LOLS
-kan and bug start talking to each other in her voice... damn funny! serious...
-i had alot of whipped cream for my smoothie but kenna complain i drink slow...zzz...
-smoothie supposed to be enjoyed de leh, not rushed... zzz...mui dearie mango smoothie...
-o yea, kan was laughing badly at the western fried rice! hahaha...
-bug finished his mango smoothie damn fast can... zzz lah...

-met up with sze chia sook theng and lee pin... auntie mary and mandy did not come...
-henry got heart i know, but no reason ask him pay $12 for that one hr of steamboat right? haiz...
-and he took it that is he disturbing us so we ask him not to come... haiz...
-and ZQ is a super petty fellow, he can be angry for all he wants. im not interested.bloody hell.
-went back mos from steamboat place to get my strawberries... ALONE... haiz...
-almost cried on way back lah, thinking of alot of things and i was alone... nt that hard anyway...

*thanks for the presents
*thanks for coming
*thanks for having doted on me
*sze chia, sook theng, lee pin, meiqi, joey, siwei, henry, daniel

i guess the things i have, seems like they have fallen beyond the sea and will never be back again... i wish and hope and want them so badly everyday i feel so tired and sad... if this is a bad dream, i hope i can wake up...

song of mood tonight: bei ji xing de yan lei BY zhang dong liang (cclia's arh liang)

time-LESS

2006-09-26T01:57:00.000+08:00

fine, dammit, im super pissed with my laptop cos it restarted... and i had windows of smiling pasta, loaded readily gone, msn chatS gone and my media player off. damn pissed off... heart ache most de is my BLOGGER! i was almost done lah, so now its all point form liao. cos im really time-LESS.

1) second day of training was shocked. i was unhappy with role acting results cos it ended with the tester thinking i have no prior experience!!! but i am super lpleased with the way i handled the GEMS related open ended questions... =D

2) i start to doubt shin kushiya cos it took up too much time for course training... cos i love my friends and i dont want to sacrifice too much time with them for a job that i dunno whether will dote and love me de ma... hahas... talk abt uncertainities... sorrie for my loved ones whom i shifted the dates ard... really sorrie... >_<

3) changing of job is cos i want to fall in love with another place all over again... i dont mind falling in love over and over, getting hurt... as love as im loved and doted before... thats what i want in a job... the human touch to the place... mui colleagues, mui customers...

4) i know what joy suggested for me is for the best for me, for work...work is work, colleagues is colleagues, setting a firm thick line between work + colleagues and fun + friends... but i cant do it, cos im ting and simply cos im also rainieting...

5) today ZQ came again, he came ytd to eat... he today damn flirt with CT, aku cant stand... so i went toilet to escape from all the #$%^&... lols... and come back, he still there... zzz... ytd he came with a grp of friends... one of them expressed interest in me and his quite cute lah... anyway it means i got market value, lols... who say single not as good as attached...

ZQ: my friend yao pao ni. (wan woo you)
ME: sorry im not teabag, cannot pao. (cannot soak)
(whole table of ard 8 cheers and someone commented "nice one" loudly)

6) arh han quit le... or suspended, so called... all cos of his mor-hulk (dunno how to spell) hairstyle... and he is freakingly pissed about them lah... had a talk with him on msn ma... while talking to cher n joy... conferencing by my hp... hahas...

7) wenlong came back cafe ytd and today, extra i should say... and i found out something that made me damn damn pissed abt him lah can!! haiz... but what to do? swallow the anger down lah... but i tried to make myself can dont talk to him... he play with me, use water splash me, then i act angry say if you dont splash urself back, dont talk to me...

dammit, i was so surprised when he did do it leh... more like washing face lah, but he did it leh, that stubborn, MCP... damn shocked lah... haiz... so i still had to talk to him in the end... actually we not bad terms de, as in he sometimes will call me and chat de... but i still angry lah... can someone teach me how to STAY angry?

...i love my silly little one...

CUTE little one

2006-09-24T01:43:00.000+08:00

see this cute little thing i bought from action city! it looks so cute... only that day the ones i saw at marine sqaure had a pinkier blush... think jj remembers ba... hahas... look at it! so cute and innocent lah! hahas...

FOOD

2006-09-24T01:21:00.000+08:00

baked fish dory spagetti... MY spagetti! hahas...

roasted chicken leg... CHER lunch... hahas... her mashed potato looks like bun right? that's what i thought intially too...
MY finished plate... im so proud of myself... must be bcos i didnt eat dinner last night... cos i slept all the way from 7pm last night till i woke today... >_< pro huh? hahas...
cher's finished plate... girl doesnt like the peas and corn and carrots... hahas...

today

2006-09-23T23:30:00.000+08:00

lazee to blog so shall do it in point form...just for today... >_<

-went compasspoint mall...
-ate at library's cafe
-3 course meal for $6.50
-borrowed books, only 3 sad to say...
-i want borrow MORE!!!
-da pao tibits and snacks...off to cher house!

-her jiejie was home...
-watched haunted apartments till it hang!
-like as usual, with cher's dvds... lols!
-so after her jiejie left...we shifted outside...

-her jiejie gt alot make up on...
-and she was on her way to club...sad case...
-feel tired to give her korkor chance, gt energy to go clubbing...
-*yawns* and when she talks, it feels cold... i dunno?
-so we watched Hot Chick and it was nice...

summary of Hot Chick
- jessica and guy accidentally changes body...
-jessica with a perfect life, wakes up to find herself, male...
-guy with burgler life (aka no life) wakes up being a female...
-jessica tries to cope and becomes dad's confidant and mum's advisor through being 3rd party...
-jessica loses her bf through being a guy...
-she gets her friends support and they try find solution together...

-guy uses jessica body and looks, lures men into alleys, beats them and steals their wallets...
-guy, using jessica body, pole dances and earns money at clubs and pubs... >_<
-thru all the accidents and incidents, jessica realises she leads a so perfect life, ever...
-she's cheerleading leader, has great friends, a cute brother who loves her for who she is and a bf who really loves her and is not all out for sex as she think he is...(he says: she is the one that is able to make my heart beat faster and slower at the same time. sweet, ain it?)

guess we should really appreciate the all that we have, dont we?

day 2 of CES training

2006-09-23T16:35:00.000+08:00

Day two of training

Day two ended rather quick… however I felt rather weird as shermaine arrived only in late afternoon, just in time for the assessment… this is because she was sick, suffering from cramps… poor girl…

It was rather lucky that by the second day covered mostly a recap of day one and only service recovery sector… we were divided into two groups and a half hr interval in between groups taking the tests…

I was grouped with Melissa while Edwin was grouped with li fang and reuben was in charge of grouping with victor and shermaine because we were of a odd number… hahas… I still don’t like victor, but I knew better to make enemies in a place where I would have to be surviving well in… haiz…

Anyway, i am just so sick and tired of having to communicate with uncles all over the days… cos all of them are middle aged, I should say… and as I said before, there are to be no male service staff… ain that gonna be boring? I mean to be either talking to uncles and aunties or just female colleagues all the time during working?

The people are nice, the restaurant sounds fabulous, with its sea view and all, I also feel like starting work asap… but the course learning and everything! and the people there do not treat me well enough for me to feel attached to them... shatec, they decided on mon and tues already yet this stooped blasted shatec changed the days!

And it has to be either wed and fri (fri is mui bdae leh, wth) OR next mon and tues, in which miss rainieting has already started school. So, tell me what is damn shatec doing? Haiz but how to take the course halfway also… and i really wanna learn what they gonna teach... cos mui course WILL NOT cover these aspects... sad to say...

As much as I want the job, I love mui frens! Haiz… and im starting to think that $6 an hour for a job in vivo city is abit too little… and too standard… but vivo city leh… cher says its gonna be good on mui resume the next time I look for work elsewhere…

Since the day and test ended around 3plus, I decided to drop by bugis… to confirm about tues’ steamboat date and to see how sadded henry is doing,… hahas… and! Since im free… can go visit lee pin also! >_<

This days Daniel keep asking me help call v8 find henry, say he’s gonna be late or he cant make it for work! And then comment that his giving me a chance to listen to henry’s voice…. DIAO! But I’d rather not hear cos nowadays he always sound sad… so anyway, I went bugis…

Went to find sook theng jie and then went v8… surprise! Ziqing was working! So long never see him le… hahas… and his hair longer liao, more shuai, lols… and super LOL! Henry finally cut his hair liao but he look so nerdy!

And ziqing said he looked like zaizai! LOL but he realy did look like leh… dun ask me which look better cos I did not really see clearly also..,. cos the new people were rather successful in making me feel unwelcome… haiz…

Anyway, brought out cheesy wedges for ziqing they all to eat cos auntie gave me and I don’t think im staying long enuff to finish it but thanks to her lah… and I takeaway v8’s bitter gourd soup, cos I couldn’t finish it too…

Went in kitchen and added chicken inside and was about to bring it to mummy de… cos I know that working at her stall is very heaty for health de and bitter gourd is cooling soup…But after that, I decided to go art friend visit lee pin… gave her s surprise cos i din call beforehand and just wished and hoped she's working! hahas...

And I decided to give her the soup instead, cos I guess she doesn’t get to drink it as often as mummy… cos when I work and auntie mary cooks, I will takeaway so I think lee pin should have the soup instead… and t turns out that it was her favourite soup! talk about lucky! hahas...

She very cute lah, she was so appreciative of the soup…. ZQ reminded me to ask susan along cos its more of a gathering than mui birthday gathering and I made it so and am happy it is so… but lee pin says susan is gonna be coming back until earliest by next year ba…

And lee pin herself, is gonna leave around next year and not come back again unless for fun she says… hahas… orh yea, and before I forget, sook theng and lee pin both said im fairer! I told them its make up but they both say there still is a difference… hahas…

So is there? Hahas… was on way back to bedok le… and he msged me… telling me happy birthday… and the silly fellow still said lucky I rmb… hahas… but anyway, he confirmed that he was coming… and that if we were to meet earlier, he is alright with it…but he will most probably be late... as usual... zzz...

would LOVE to see all of them again! *BEAMS*

CES and food

2006-09-22T01:27:00.000+08:00

the second piece is mui masterpiece! hahas... and the guy standing is the one i dun like... took him accidentally de.. zzz...
see? egg shape toothpick holder leh! cute hor... hahas...
apple salad... got cos she upgraded our meal to a full course meal, hence the ice cream, salad and lemonade... all for $4.50... =) [ice cream requires extra charge of 50 cents]
is the dress nice? and shit lah, the face looks fat... stoopid mirror... lols... and i didnt fasten the ribbon... hahas...

food 1

2006-09-22T01:24:00.000+08:00

what i ate at uma uma don... min ramen set, yea mini yea? lols
(supposed ot have 3 kinds of mian, ramen, udon and soba but i din want udon...)
notice the way the spoon is designed to fit the edge of the bowl perfectly? how cute lah! hahas...
what digusting cher did to the food... watered the wasabi, icked up the salmon and placed it over some rice and sprinkled some seasoning... !_____!
green tea ice cream!! surprisingly nice... hahas... and the lemonade there is abit too sour but nice too!

training at CES: day 1

2006-09-22T00:47:00.000+08:00

CES: centre for employability skills

i went there today to receive mui training as subsided heavily by the goverment, with the rest covered by Shin Kushiya... learned alot alot more about the restaurant today and i really mean alot... hahas... it was super early cos i hafta reach at 8.30pm which i didnt cos i missed mui stop while reading story book...

so i got off at queenstown and went back redhill again... zzz... the course was not bad, kinda similar to CRM (customer relationship management) except that it covers several different sectors bcos it is GEMS-based. (Go the Extra Mile for Service) this is the course i wanna go to but v8 was too stingy to send us to... >_<

course was alright, interacted with Shermaine (full timer), Melissa and Li Fang (part timers cum cousins O_o),
Edwin and Reuben (people in charge) and this irritating and pervertic fellow named Victor (asst head chef Z_z)... Shermaine was sitting alone when i went in, so i chose to sit with her... i went in with edwin and reuben...

and i realised all servers were wearing contacts except Li Fang... lols... and if im nt wrong, all were grey! mui too... zzz... hahas... everyone wore jeans... hahas... and the rest that came were the chefs... hahas... and some enthu aunties from carton bell, here for training just like us... Vivo City, here i come! lols...

Features of Shin Kushiya
-area of 4000 sq feet
-housing capacity of 180 consumers
-kushiyaki concept (zhuan shao)
-20m long receptionist area
-open concept kushiyaki, seating circumference of 23 seaters
-2 private rooms, housing capacity of 12 per room
-goes for the spacious concept, seaview available
- food displayed on ice bed for selection and view
-has its own Shin express, takeaway counter
-charcoal grilled food (others use electric grills)
-very eye catching signage
-shall add on if i rmb more... O_o

Definition of Shin (in jap)

- 心 (heart) -- we serve with a sincere heart
- 新 (new) -- we continuously provide and introduce new stuffs
- 真 (real) -- we produce authentic-ly cooked food, real fresh ingredients
- 信 (trust) -- we trust all our staffs and customers

Definition of Kushiya
nothing much, kushiya simply means the grilling of food on charcoal... =)

after the course and managing to almost not fall asleep at all, (i fell asleep for few second s and was offered sweets by reuben, lols) i managed to finish the thingy and went to meet cher for dinner... hahas... at uma uma don, now im really broke... great! ZZZ...

cheers from cher: (how she carries out her CHEERS)
lift the cup in mid air, draw the shape of a semi circle, shout cheers loudly and drink... lame lah her!!

how she loves her salmon sashimi:
dropped on the table top, throw it into ice water to submerge... dig it out and wave the salmon inside the water surface and dish it out again... (damn disgusting can? she changes ice water into "fish tank water" in split digusting seconds *turns away from the mad woman*)

after that we went window shopping abit, i went crazee and tried on a prom dress in metro... hahas... for fun ma... nan de got the mood! then after that sat outside the nail palor, near small kfc in tamp and chatted with cher till it was time to go... and we still have had so much more to say... >_< chit chat chit chat~

bonding with Shermaine
while waiting for cher to come, i pei shermaine go buy food eat and she treated me some tim sum cos i offered to lend her money this afternoon when she has yet to withdraw money... so nice of her... i didnt want but it was impolite to keep refusing first day friend's offer right? lols... btw, she's 21... hahas... but shorter then me... >_<

then after that, pei her go buy comics... we talk and talk and talk... like got endless stuffs to talk about... hahas... she and her bf 8mths already and she has 2 homes, one in tamp and one in yishun... hahas... i guess can say we are developing well for friends right? and we exchanged numbers... =) glad to have made a friend!

OVERALL ASSESSMENT OF TING'S DAY TODAY: tired but happy~

Food 1

2006-09-21T01:22:00.000+08:00

ajisen tomato ramen!! o mui love~ o mui darling! LOLS
i considered finished it le ba i guess... hahas... im so full can! hahas...
i finished the soft shell crab, white fish and sashimi... gonna gain weight le... hahas...
see? the sashimi so messy... no shape of a flower... hahas...

Food 2

2006-09-21T01:17:00.000+08:00

eggs mummy cook... forget when but i like to take pics of food lah... hahas...

bamboo shoots! its abit spicy but but i like! hahas... you got eat before?

the dishes for lunch before meeting cher... so tempting! hahas... nice but made me late for meeting cherlyn...

cLuMsY sOtOnG

2006-09-21T00:40:00.000+08:00

arh!~ today damn clumsy xia... hahas... dropped ice water cup at auntie arh hoon there while talking to pauline... lucky spill water only, not break anything... then today cat assign me help daniel close bar... i was so amused can? cos i didnt know can actually do that de...

then i joke joke ard with daniel say if she really assign that then jun jie will propose to me liao loh... lols... made a fool outta muiself... =.= like as usual... zzz... hahas... cut muiself while helping him close bar today... stoopid... damn clusmy sey...

then i suddenly, i mean suddenly, broke one cup! the one that held the syrup!! super duper clumsy till no reason le lah! damn... mui hand sweep it down, i also dunno... and syrup leh!! make the floor STICKY lah... and after i mop the floor with water...

and sweep the bar... and mop it once with detergent liao, asked daniel whether it was still sticky, he replied his NO too late le... so i decided to mop it again, cos i think if he take so long to reply, must be consoling me, or hong wo... den reply so slow de... lols... so i mop again... tired can? i mop with strength ma... zzz... hahas...

orh yea and in the afternoon! when i help daniel do orange juice, i made the juicer presser stuck inside the juicer... the stick that presses the fruit down for juicing... lols... we struggle damn long and used damn loadsa strength then got the damn thing out! jialat xia... i super extra hor... lols... "wo ye bu xiang de~"

then from time to time he was like i know you hate me lah... and along the way he was joking with others to... to lighten everything but i know he very tired loh, i also... today soe never work ma, and cat is like so damn slack de... and she keep targeting me lah... keep asking me go outta bar... its like i just entered lah... zzz!

after work, went drink drink with daniel... he proposed de, i tot he would be very tired... cos today alot people order bubble tea lah, cos now our passion bubble tea got offer ma... lols... all cos i told himi ytd almost wanted to call him de...

cos ytd night wanted to eat seafood porridge... then realised it all settled in lumps... then tot of that time at work, when i ate it was all smooth and nice... so tot of daniel that time must have stirred continuously, so got reminded that he dote on me de... and i shld not let the quarrel rest de...

and so i apologised and explained lah... i mean im the type if im wrong, i will apologise... but if im correct and you frame me, there's no way i will give in... unless you are some special friend, position or something special... lols... and we were talking about alot of things...

and i saw wenlong! he seemed in a rush to meet someone or something... he waked over but didnt stop for a chat or something... to think daniel shifted his position to let him sit... lols! he was dressed in very simple home clothes.. i wonder what happened, not some fight, i hope... haiyo...

glad that i solved doubts with daniel... hope to see improvements the next time i see and work with amanda... haiz... and i sincerely hope maybe some day, by some miracle, amanda can mature and think and do things that make sense... she can start from treasuring daniel first ba...I WANT EVERYBODY ARD ME TO BE HAPPY!

1) i hafta wake damn early tml and im not happy about that, definitely...
2) im damn tired...why does work always hafta be so tiring...ZZZ
3) i cut muiself on the same finger that already has a cut previously, yet to heal too...
4) i wonder why i still yearn on finding another job....
5) imperfection is what makes beautiful beautiful...

poor henry

2006-09-20T00:24:00.000+08:00

work today was rather fine... but something bad happened... poor henry lost his phone... i really hoped he knew about it at night, rather then in the afternoon... because at least he will be unhappy for a shorter time... and not ot even lose his appetite... i work outside i also cun really see him eat...

i got food for him liao he also like dont want eat... poor guy... to think the dumb kitchen guys still kidding, saying that it was a joke... see henry worried face where can suggest joke xia... ZZZ! and something i hated happened... haiz...

amanda came and she and daniel eat happily, in that corner of theirs, mui eyes got you, your eyes got me... kinda surprised they didnt feed each other im not jealous really... haiz... i just dont like them to behave like that during work... then after they finish eating, we were very busy... then she just sat inside the bar, slacking and kinda shaking her legs...

if you were me, sure hot de loh... but i heck le lah... when i walked past, i told daniel... "ur wife handicapped de arh" then we just kept well out of each other's way for the rest of the night... haiz... everytime b4 she comes, we can talk happily or what...

but everytime she comes, he becomes another person altogether loh... i hate this type of guys loh... why do you hafta become another person? its like he become her slave like that de loh... Her Majesty. only she matters, even if you do things that inconvenience others or make others suffer also doesnt matter...

if that's the case, fine... after i told daniel what i did, i realised that it was not time for her to work yet, not yet the 7pm stated on her schedule... so i wronged her... if he behaved alright or at least continue to do his job then i guess i will walk over and apologise, i really will... i mean its mui fault...

but he spent the rest of the night slacking away, and her just standing in front of the bar, doing "alot" work... it must been so hard on her... everyone was rushing, she was slacking and we happened to bang into each other and i apologise... and she shrieked like as if she been hit by a 10 tonne lorry can?

then i was telling auntie she must as well behave like she needs to be hospitalised for at least half a month lah... zzz... then i got scolded off by auntie mandy... haiz... she say i talk too bitter and evil liao... i bad face awhile then talk better of it, thinking that maybe i really let irritation get the better of me... she bad i must not be bad like her ma... haiz... tho i never was any angel in the first place...

why do i get so affected that some people are not working the amount they should... and why has it become that i let it get in the way of me working... like she's not prone to help me and vice versa? haiz... sometimes, i really yearn for a piece of white paper...to start everything over again...

i know its not that we cant click, before we dont know that they are attached, i remain daniel mei and i remain best crap buddies with her, im serious... look at them... they go all obvious at work and i go all extreme on them... haiz... work is work, stead is stead...? bu shi zhe yang de ma?

today went si ma lu buy vege with auntie mary... then we talked and chatted... everyone asked how are we related... the vege sellers and dried products sellers... cos they seen us go a few times le ma... then got one suggested sisters! lols... then auntie will always reply im her daughter... hahas... thinking of whether should call her god ma anot... but since didnt always have the habit, starting out might be tough... haiz...

im really confused, i keep saying i wanna leave that damn place, think you guys read also read until sian, i tell you i type and think until most sian arh! but i also confused as to who really dotes on me there... and even if they do, i know that one day, any day, anyway, anyhow, i might lose it also... haiz...

today went home with stephen... was chatting on train... he still talking about me and joey... and he said that henry told him me and joey held hands... like when de case lah! lols... if we ever did, i dont think i will forget loh... hahas... lols... i still scare got people think anything about me and henry...

actually really feel like his a brother to me... like i want him to be happy, just like he would always care for me... hahas... if ay stead, it would not be impossible cos we are not far in age but we are impossible cos his a malaysian... have had bad encounters before and how to maintain long distance relationships? hahas...

and im not that despo anyway... with ot without girls commenting that i have a "common face"... since i have already been waiting for so long, i rather have a good one... if there is no good one around, i rather remain single... then to be with the wrong guy... heart ache? to be avoided at all costs, kuai le di yi! hahahahaha

escape trip part 2

2006-09-19T01:18:00.000+08:00

the ride named disco revolution...lynn, cher, suyee and then me... hahas...
ferris wheel ride... nice hor...
suyee lynn and cher... im the photograher!! applause please! hahas.. we were all wet from wet and wild... hahas...
me! half laughing and look-at-that-ing the big big fat fat candy floss! pink de leh!!

cher's job interviews

2006-09-19T00:04:00.000+08:00

woke up at ard 3pm at mz's call... meeting her to collect back the money for suyee present and the liquid paper i bought for her... kinda guilty that i asked for payment cos i know she not doing very well but i broke le... and not to mention the oncoming birthday celebrations... hahas...

went mz at bugis asap and then went to meet cher... was late for meetinng her at 5pm cos! i ferget what i wanna give her so i ran back home from mui house car park... then was in the lift, on mui way to first floor when i realised i ferget bring mz's liquid paper... so rushed back to get her liquid papers... !!! tired leh... so lang bei lah... zzz...

and outram is damn big can? all the exits... ranging from exit A to exit F, made me and cher at same station but cun meet and end up being exasperated at each other fer not being to find the other... but finally after 15 mins of struggle and entering the b4 tapping area we gotta meet... zzz!

today walked alot wor... we went two places for cher's interviews... one was at kallang, near the national stadium, the other was at outram park, near china town... mentioning the places, can agar guess what kinda places she interviewing at le lah hor... lols...

outram place
-totally black, cant see through doors
-dim lights (i like! mui eyes always prefer darker lights then bright ones... hehe)
-strong air con (i think cher will suffer xia... she scare cold de)
-heavy smoking and beer smell (mui super number one X)
-loud music, got projector screen...
-$10/hr pay
-operating hrs: 6pm to 1am

kallang place
-bright open area
-some distance from kallang stadium drive thru mac
-rather small area
-working days to have only 4 staff on ground
(1 cook, one manager, 1 supervisor, 1 waitress )
-get to learn bar, music-mood coordination, grilling etc.
-one week advance in quitting
-no CPF
-$5.50 starting pay
-operating hrs: 6pm to 1am
-top uniform provided
(demin skirt for bottoms acceptable)

you realise the kallang place offers more information? cos at least i asked or reminded her to ask! the outram place she haiyo never ask then just conclude the interveiew liao... wasted... the kallang place still got two more bosses, one jason, rather fat but nice, the other erwin i think (im bad at rmbering names) super dao tho he the better looking one...

and adrian was the one who interview us, he look nothing close to his name lah i hafta say... cher say he sounded nice and professional on the phone but i think his voice sounded okie only... zzz... hahas... but he took a super long time lah... we reached ard 6plus started finding the place and left the place at ard 8plus close to 9pm loh... zzz...

after that went back v8 take mui $21 then went ajisen eat... new menus wor! tried white fish... it is nice! hahas... and their sashimi, no improvement... still so thick... tho fresh cos it arrived this morning de... and arh may came back le... so qiao... today her first day back at work... hahas...

and Shin Kushiya called me when i was taking neos with cher! hahas... so she decorated alone while Shin notified me say they sending me for courses! what a pleasant surprise... hahas... the course are on thurs, fri, next mon and tues... thurs and fri clashes with joy n mui date and working day... while mon is fine but tues clashes with mui bdae steamboat with v8 pple!!! so damn sway...

this teaches me not to be busy and plan all mui things ahead of time! >_< but sch reopening soon le leh, i gotta make sure that i send the rest of mui time meaningfully and with the right people what! hahas... speaking of right people, recently, i realised i haven been treated right online... so i guess maybe its time to disappear and appear offline liao...

so irritated with some people who choose to irritate me and show me attitude... wth! i have got better things to do, nicer and more human like people then YOU to talk to loh... dont make me ignore you. better still, BLOCK you.

loti's birthday chalet

2006-09-18T02:26:00.000+08:00

the 2kg cake!
ain the melody cute?
the sleeping cutie cum beauty of loti's bf's 2nd younger sister, angela's cat... i hate the way she handles the cat, so damn rough can? but what can i do? zzz... she very young and small only, still feeding on milk only loh... so damn cute lah... adorable sey... so happy she rather stick me... hehe... and she like to sleep alot... lazee like me! =D
the birthday girl, with arms around the birthday cake...! 18th le wor! happy birthday loti!

loti birthday chalet

2006-09-18T01:10:00.000+08:00

supposed to wake at 8am to go pasir ris escape at 10am... in the end, as usual, woke and stopped the phone and slept back again... ZZZ... i too lack self discipline le... cos sleep late ma, as usual... somebody please control me! hahas... funny loh, i wonder who can lah... zzz...

escape was alright, kinda boring at first then brightened uo when lynn came... guess its the weather n mood also ba... hahas... sat on the wet and wild for 4 times, can u believe it? partly also there was nt many pple ard lah... hahas... but we didnt sit on the go kart... too many people Q-ing le... hahas...

and there was this rather cute guy at the kite flying there lah... tan tan de, then abit boyboy type... hahas... then we kinda erm... nth happen, just a few smiles here and there but we were passing glances lah... *blushes* and lynn was telling me abt her new attraction at work... how...erm...distracting, nice topic i mean...hahas...

then we went sit the disco revolution... then the staff very nice, offered to take picture for us... and when we passed them the cam so that we could sit on the ride peacefully, they took their own photos also... lols! then exchanged contact, so that we can send them the photos... funny lah! hahas...

and i went the haunted house! slow lah, i know but it was alright but not very nice... not bad yet not very scary... cos the leading girl walked too fast... we were trying more to catch up then to enjoy the trip and look carefully at what's scary... so rather ZZZ lah... hahas...

today chalet was hiccup cos loti gt worked up when others coerced cher to sabo her, cos its her 18th birthday ma... and she blew up... i think she should not have, cos it made both of them in a awkward situation, she cried while washing up you know... haiz... and the others, if they wanna sabo, they should have done it themselves...

and i was rather fed up lah, when one of her friend commented me with "common face", like wth lah... you very pretty meh? but commenting me, that and in such a loud voice, by not having the slightest bit of courtesy, i mean im loti's friend and you dont even know me at all and you pass such a comment ever so loudly in front of me, you are so bitchy... bo liao... are you just jealous or what??

today, cher was sick, bought panadol cos she having fever and headache cos lack of sleep and played the escape games... i was sick when playing the games in and during abit here and there cos lack of sleep and hungry lah... cos they not hungry dont want go eat and i haven been eating for the whole day... haiz...

then lynn and cher acted up after we ate and went back chalet... but cher still entertain here and there... extra loh, sick still dont want rest... and she still drink lah, dammit it, scream and shout liao she still dont listen! i mean, even when andy keep asking me drink or what i also dont want, ask what i dont dare to drink i also ignore...

i was already drinking strawberry milk le what... (joy u reading this? hahas...) then he still say i only drink milk dont dare drink alcohol izzit... wo ren~ haiz... then also dumb lah, when i left, i forget to leave behind the extra foundation and the contact lens solution i brought along for cher... siannnnnnnn!!!

and i hafta repeat a million, a dozen times, if anyone talking with me on msn wanna leave, if mui status is online or busy, as long as not away or brb, can you guys just nudge me if i haven reply and ur going off?
cos i wanna say byebye or nites to mui frens and not SEE them saying it to me... zzz... cos i hate pple running off on me... zzz... and there are always four or five cases every night... so discouraging to come online... zzz...

and i realise i miss working when all the events im supposed to be having fun are nt that fun afterall... zzz...
i shall be posting the rest of the photos when cher sends them to me... her camera's with me now but i lack the cable... zzz...

will mui sickness relapse when i see you again?

iTs My LiFe...

REHIPTRO

horoscope power

___OPH V8 SHIN-go round___

monday, tuesday, wednesday

__PSA scenery__

__what you see is what you get__

__PS PS PS__

__furniture shop classics__

__candid shots meant 2b ugly__

__PS gathering trip__

__BUGIS xmas lights__

__zi lian kuang!!!__

__braces vs retainer__

__desire to soar, lack of wings__

__moody mood__

__last but nt least__

_no longer MIA_

_pain and plasters start with P_

_golden collar_

_Slithering Thoughts_

_night of torment_

_food and movies_

HAPPY FEEEEEET

_all the selfishness inside me_

_whyyy_

_blessed with luck_

***dramatic night***

***am i wishing for too much***

wo men dao toy r us dai chi yi you...!!!

its all abt vivo city~

joy zest julie

halloween halloween halloween!!!

vivo city guang yi guang

***no life freak?***

***MIss Kio Sai***

***damn pissed off***

***BLUR blur blur***

***breaking down?***

***sucky agenda***

***losing balance***

***me and?***

***shin flower bouquets***

***shin inside n outside***

***Shin bosses n familiar faces? lols***

***shin***

***shin kushiya***

***time FLIES***

***food and friends!***

***Cleo BarBie Design Comp.***

***darn busy n tired lah***

***crap ard us and esp me***

hazy plaza singapuraaaaaaaa

salad, cake, idiot

food and drink!

***first day of work***

***sad sad day***

***uncertain future***

***long awaited photos***

***chinatown lantern festival lights***

***lights of chinatown, cafe cartel food***

***SK***

***sea view of SK***

***tyco tyco de SK***

***sakae don and SK beers***

***swensens mississppi catfish***

***miss anti pda!!!***

***24 Questions of Love***

***what a day***

***BB: bored blogging***

***half of the day at shatec***

***Shatec and surroundings***

***presents***

***presents***

***birthday 2006 part 2***

***birthday 2006***

***birthday 2006***

***birthday blog***

***1st day of shatec training***

***wrappin n unwarpping collage***

_OPH V8 SHIN-go round_

PSA scenery

what you see is what you get

PS PS PS

furniture shop classics

candid shots meant 2b ugly

PS gathering trip

BUGIS xmas lights

zi lian kuang!!!

braces vs retainer

desire to soar, lack of wings

moody mood

last but nt least

dramatic night

am i wishing for too much

no life freak?

MIss Kio Sai

damn pissed off

BLUR blur blur

breaking down?

sucky agenda

losing balance

me and?

shin flower bouquets

shin inside n outside

Shin bosses n familiar faces? lols

shin

shin kushiya

time FLIES

food and friends!

Cleo BarBie Design Comp.

darn busy n tired lah

crap ard us and esp me

first day of work

sad sad day

uncertain future

long awaited photos

chinatown lantern festival lights

lights of chinatown, cafe cartel food

SK

sea view of SK

tyco tyco de SK

sakae don and SK beers

swensens mississppi catfish

miss anti pda!!!

24 Questions of Love

what a day

BB: bored blogging

half of the day at shatec

Shatec and surroundings

presents

presents

birthday 2006 part 2

birthday 2006

birthday 2006

birthday blog

1st day of shatec training

wrappin n unwarpping collage

presents i got

v8 gathering (260906)

time-LESS

CUTE little one

FOOD

today

day 2 of CES training

CES and food

food 1

training at CES: day 1

Food 1

Food 2

cLuMsY sOtOnG

poor henry

escape trip part 2

cher's job interviews

loti's birthday chalet

loti birthday chalet